AMPPOL IT Linux CD's & DVD's


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My fav swiming spot during low/mid tide

Rated 18+ Sex Violence Language Substance

Marek Pawinski


Electronically and chemically hacking the human mind

A South African has an assegai in their right hand and a bible in their left hand, when the battle is over they start to rebuild

Crimes against humanity.


This short (second part on request) book with pictures, mainly for Doctors, nurses and med students so they can learn by their mistakes, fuck it lets offend everybody, is dedicated to Tata who helped me so much in his living years, 1931 to 2006 and to dear Mama who still helps me out at present. Each part will have additional paragraphs in rolling released versions. A donation of any amount would be great if you enjoy the progress of my draft copy of my autobiography by Paypal.


Quick jump to: Part 18, Crimes against humanity in South African Psychiatric Hospitals

Crimes against humanity, as defined by the Rome Statute of the International Criminal Court Explanatory Memorandum, "are particularly odious offences in that they constitute a serious attack on human dignity or grave humiliation or a degradation of human beings.

Quick jump to: Part 19, G.J. Crookes Hospital

Quick jump to: Part 20, THMC

About the author: Marek Pawinski (bipolar) born in Warsaw, Poland and immigrated to South Africa in 1968, started to operate computers in 1990, (remember Leisure Suite Larry) i started off my vocation in the electrical field and during that time became more interested in computers when i learned how to use CAD. I changed my vocation to the information technology field and studied for my MCSE (Microsoft Certified Sysytems Engineer), i gave my final exams a miss (wrote and passed only the four cores) when i discovered the Linux operating system and Red Hat 6.1 was my first boxed set. So in those days i obtained my MCP (Microsoft Certified Professional), NT 4 but continued to self study fifteen Microsoft Windows NT/2000 related books in all and thirteen CISSP related books till present. The good about books i purchased is that there are a lot of practical examples to play around with on my LAN.

I then opened another business (other than my electrical business) promoting and selling open source Linux operating systems. I became quite interested in the Information Technology Security field and being quite a book worm in those days i read and used examples of the Information Technology Security books. To this day i still read Information Technology Security books even though most of the information can be found browsing the internet. Unfortunately in this day and age i have to deploy an active protection system to prevent line-of-sight and broad spectrum frequencies from acquiring and/or destroying my mum, Jabu and i.

I am blessed with bipolar disorder via electronic pulse frequencies
and as Steve Fry (from the (BBC), whom also suffers from bipolar disorder, i am in a stable condition, presently (It fluctuates). Yet when i get treated like shit i type like shit.


Part eighteen

Lets have a look at medical and pharmaceutical torture. I wonder if the pharmaceutical companies employing the pharmacist's who design the prescription drugs actually try out the prescription drugs out on themselves first other than trying the prescription drugs in test??? cases with 1000 or more (for example) human beings being the guinea pigs to obtain a baseline. Like BP medication which can and does cause ED in some cases.....


Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital - Crimes against humanity

The beginning of November 2014 i suffered a nervous breakdown and was admitted to the G.J. Crookes Hospital in Scottburgh, Kwa Zulu Natal, South Africa, after less than two weeks a girl general practitioner, Dr Ndlovo decided to transfer me to the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital nestled in the foothills of the Underberg still in Kwa Zulu Natal but in the middle of nowhere. Most of the patients there where admitted for drug induced paranoia or criminal acts.
For example it took my wife, Jabu and i to return home on the 14/01/2015 seven hours by four taxis and we missed the last taxi as it was late and we had to walk for one and one half hour up a hill to get home, we arrived after sunset. The non scenic route takes one and one half hours by a low level flying sixteen seater Quantum ambulance transporter.

These are factual events as of 13th January 2015 which occured at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital and G.J. Crookes Hospital, three months prior to the 13th January 2015. I am working on the typos and grammatical errors.


To top it all i have to go back to the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital for more evaluation by a general practitioner as there currently is no psychiatrist at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital and ones fate is decided by a general practionioner. Did you see the movie Rwanda, well what is to follow is very similar. I was the only Caucasian patient in the two wings of the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital amongst forty five Africans. What a nightmare, i was assaulted by an psychotic patient who tried to steal my breakfast, six slices of bread with a bit of butter and tea. i limped for two weeks after this incident with terrible pain in my left buttock. Patients who assault other patients are hit with batons by the security guards and then given Clopixol Acuphase injections to knock them for a few days. The patients fight and hit each other for tobacco especially when the tobbacco runs out and i m the only one who has tobacco. It is impossible to enjoy a hand rolled cigarette by oneself as i was surrounded by twenty psychotic or semi psychotic patients each and every time demanding two pulls of my fag and the patients act as if its there right to my tobacco. Never mind food or gifts received from visitors, one has to eat what one receives at the nursing sisters station or all the food will be taken over by the patients.
What a relief to find out that prison is worse than the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital from two of the patients who actually where in prison, i am being a bit salcastic in this sentence.

On one occasion a patient was bugging me with questions and i told him to speak to the nurse. The nurse told me to "fuck off" and when i went to the sister in charge to report this the security guard followed me and tried to prevent me from speaking to the sister in charge, the security guard from LK Solutions Security then said to me that i am "rubbish" and he will call the other security guards to beat me with battons.

Flooded bathroom floors

Bathing time is African style like the majority of Africans in South Africa bath in a large plastic dish with about ten litres of water or less. I was quite used to this as this is how i bathed at my wives, Jabu house. Above is a pic of how the basins looked like.

I feel sorry for the patients as most of them receive no visitors and i have never heard of or seen before this episode that nurses walk around with polycop plumbing pipe about four hundred milimeters long and fifteen milimeters thick and assualt the patients. Is this Psychiatry?

On the other hand the sisters in charge and some staff sisters where quite good to me and where very helpfull, but they have to follow the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital rules.

Medication is handed out at 09:30 after breakfast and the patients share the same water cups to down the medication, thank God I do not have turberculousis or some other horrible disease from sharing cups with 45 patients.


The patients spend the whole day in a closed courtyard, fifteen by twenty meters and urinate in one corner of the courtyard as the patients are not allowed to go inside the wards to urinate during the day. The stench of urine is unbearable in that corner of the courtyard unless it rains and the urine washes away into the drain. On one night the urinal was blocked inside the ward and the urinal overflowed with urine for three days. More stench and those patients without shoes walked in the urine. The toilets do not work and faeces build up till someone flushes the toilet with a bucket, most nauseating.

Water is sometimes not available during the night when the water bucket and one cup is not left on the other side of the locked grill gate, never mind the fire hazard. If there was a fire there is no chance in hell that all five wards could be open to let out the patients. The wards, ten patients per ward are locked at night as some windows where broken with axxess to the courtyard from the passage.

At this stage I think I would be ashamed if I was any part of the medical profession, especially the Doctors whom are aware of all this and general practitioners who treat psych patients as there is currently no psychiatrist in the Hospital.

I have sixteen years experience as an electrician in the construction field and seventeen years experience in Information Technology mainly using the Linux operating system as well as Microsoft Windows, yet at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital i must take orders from cleaners and nurses under twenty five years of age, one of the duties of the nurses is to write reports about the patients. If the nurses don't like a patient they write negative reports about a patient. I found that most of the male staff nurses had more of a heart than the females, some female nurses and sisters are real bitches. On my last day when as i typed before attacked and surrounded by thirty or so patients for a fag, the one male staff nurse looked on in despair but he could do nothing. I was so happy and excited to go home on LOA (leave of absence) so one of the nurses asked me if i was having a relapse (from my excitement) can you believe it. The nurses play little mind games and notarize everything a patient does in the courtyard during the day which is mostly sleep. Like i typed before 45 or so nut cases and four sexy nurses just does not go, the males all want the attention of the nurses. Some of the nurses are very very shaftable but i think most of them are into bondage. We where all to go for a haircut and at first i refused. I did not want a kaal kop (no hair African style), so i eventually said i would like my beard trimmed but the nursing sister said i could not go anymore. She had the hots for me but was playing hard to get. One has to have a beard as there are no razors available and the patients my slit each others throats with the razors.


I was unable to pay my bills as i was in the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital and G.J. Crookes Hospital, joy to the world, i now have "hundreds" of debt collector companies after me and my credit rating has dropped to zero. Of course no shrink, G.P., sister, nurse nor social worker will help me out with my debt but someone was very eagar to put me away to Umzimkulu psych hospital because of their grave faux pas. The social worker at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital has ninety patients in the queue and i was lucky to see the general practionioner on the 13/01/2015 as he was still busy attending to patients from November 2014. This frightens me as i may wait for weeks to see the general practionioner on my return.

Stephen Fry (a BBC presenter) based in London AFAIK has experienced mental health problems for much of his life. I am sure he did not receive the treatment i received in Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital, not for the life of my can i still phathom that Psychiatric patients are treated with assualt and abuse as part of there treatment to become well again even thought most of the patients are in the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital are there for drug induced psychosis where they stabbed or assualted someone.

The Zulu language is spoken most of the time and i don't have a clue what is going on especially at the twice daily forced prayer sessions but i have to join in anyway. Jabu my wife is a Zulu girl yet i only understand a bit of Zulu, like "faga lo makulu mthondo kona la ingquza". Jabu is quite religious so i don't have anything against religion if i at least i could understand the singing and chanting.

I think it's disgusting that South Africa receives billions of ZAR in medical grants from overseas for this kind of treatment and never mind the theft. I had a terrible summer flu for two weeks and only realized later that the roll on deodrant shared by forty five patients was for woman. The roll on ordered for the patients at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital is stolen by someone working in the Hospital for there own use and most of the nursing staff are woman, can't figure out the theft bit as the nursing staff have three to eight thousand ZAR smart phones and drive new 150 000 ZAR plus motor vechicles.

I was treated slightly better than the rest of the patients because i am Caucasian, and like i typed before the only Caucasian within miles of the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital. I hope someone takes notice of this part of my book so my African friends (patients) can receive better treatment instead of being assaulted with battons, high heels and plumbing pipe.


I don't know anymore what is the official language of South Africa but the medication i took home on my leave of absence, the instructions where in Zulu.

I actually fear for my life at Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital, the ward where i am now is called Male Block Two. And one of the patients in this ward is some kind of martial arts expert. On my arrival he had to show off his moves whist we where waiting to be counted. (Counting of patients involves the patients sitting for one hour doing nothing waiting the shift to change and then be counted.) From time to time this "martial arts patient" goes a bit nuts especially on the tobacco subject like most other patients, 70% of the patients. Pure joy knowing i can be assaulted or worse anytime for a small amount of tobacco or food.

Hyena attack

Above is a pic of an example of the small pieces of tobacco some patients would gather for hours to roll one fag using a newspaper as rolling paper

Patients are admitted to Male Block One where 80% of the patients are psychotic, 40% from actually been mentally ill and the rest mostly drug induced pyschosis or being sent to Umzimkulu for some criminal act. Smoking of tobacco is allowed in the ward. Sorry to burst your bubble, i was never once tested positive for mary jane nor coke nor any other magic mushroom. Then the transition to Male Block Two where smoking tobacco is also allowed. Male Block Three, i dread to go there, there is absolutly no smoking allowed and i have been smoking tobacco for thirty five years. I had a small nervous breakdown on admittance to Male Block One and then to Male Block Two. Each transition is like some kind of initiation ceremony where the patients test to see if they can obtain tobacco and food out of me. One patient actually sits on my bed up to and hour waiting for me to light up as he figures what's mine is his. Not all the patients are like this thank God and i recon i have made a few friends.

Wolf attack

The tobacco saga occurs with all new patients and their tobacco or food is quickly consumed in a few hours. Watching lions, hyenas or vultures on TV or in real life on a kill can give a good picture of the food and tobacco episodes, meaning the food and tobacco brought by visitors to the patients.

Hand rolled fag

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Above is a pic of a hand rolled fag the patients used to roll when i had rizla rolling paper in stock, newspaper was normally used, bit harsh when one has a cold or flu, the newspaper that is.

Boredom is a real killer and lucky enough my sister bought me a few magazines (to the disapproval of some staff nurses as there where semi naked girls in the magazines, wow can you handle that, maybe the staff where afraid that the patients would start shafting each other, too many happy clappies rule this world on a Sabbath day) and a novel with large font as my multi focals where stolen at G.J. Crookes Hospital, Scottburgh, this was Xmas of 2014 on the 22nd of December 2014. My previous business, AMPPOL IT Linux CD's & DVD's keep me busy for sixteen hours a day so you can imagine doing sweet fuck all most of the day from sunrise till 21:00. Some of the patients whom have been at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital for months, up to nine months or more love it there, free food, free accomandation and free medication, at the taxpayers expense, joy to the world. Lets face it most South Africans have one meal per day if that and at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital:


BBQ at Jabu's mum's place

I rather enjoy this in the pic above than the menu below

  • 09:30 Breakfast: Six slices of bread with margarine on three of the slices and tea with milk and sugar, sometimes no milk
  • 13:00 Lunch: Rice or phutu pap or saltless samp and 25 gramms of meat unless there is mince meat then 50 gramms, drumstick of chicken sometimes on Sundays
  • 16:30 Supper: Rice and beans or pap and pilchards
  • 20:00: Black over sweetened tea (laced with stay soft) and four slices of bread, two of them with margarine
No need to complain, wow at G.J. Crookes Hospital, the food was better, at least different kinds of porridge for breakfast and an egg and a variety of meat and veggies for lunch. Don't understand why all the Government food dished out is not standard

South Africa is one of the few countries in the world where one can receive treatment for under $3 but this kind of treatment i don't ne ed and i am not the only patient who complains about abuse and assault. Most of the African patients and there families live in the sticks cks so to whom will they report all this to. I love South Africa and South Africans but this is really the pits.

I noticed many of the patients at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital take a drug called Risperidone, a horrible piece of work where sixty sixty percentage of males suffer from erectile dysfunction when taking Risperidone, i wonder if the "mental patients" (that's what they are referred to as by the staff) actually have a choice whether to have erectile dysfunction or not, i bet my bottom dollar and it's a fact that no patient is informed of the side effects of the medication they are taking, why should us "mental patients" be informed or have the right to know of side effects, we are the scum of the earth, maybe Government Psychiatry gets it's "info manual" from the holocast. I once researched Risperidone for days on the internet in 2012 and wow what negative reviews. Some of the patients are so spaced out on prescription drugs they sleep most of the day to keep them calm.


During my stay at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital, i observed the finer art of theft, assualt by LK Security Solutions on patients, i pity the guy (patient) whom escaped from the ajoining ward, his screams could be heard miles away whilst the patient was beat with batons. No respect for patients, i once informed one of the staff members that the burglar bars put up on one window had jaggered steel edges and could hurt someone so the staff member said "let them". There is no outbound communication to the outside world for most of the African patients, if one asks a nurse to send an sms the answer is "battery flat" or "no airtime, mean while the nurses sit using WhatsApp the whole day. Ok it would be a bit heavy if 45 patients used the nurses phone, even though i offered to pay, the nurses could at least answer truthfully and inform the patients that cell phone calls are allowed. The nurses are a bunch of liars and have the cheek to pray twice a day with the patients. If a patient ask a nurse for something the answer is more likely to be "kusasa" (tomorrow). I can understand spending twelve hours a day for five days shift with psychotic patients is a bit taxing but the staff nurses opted for this job and i think that the patients at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital could be treated with dignity and more humanly.

I learned a whole lot of new Zulu words at Umzimkulu psych hospital like, ingquza, masende and bhebha to the disapproval of Jabu.


Some of the African patients where so desperate for tobacco they would collect the tiny pieces of loose tobacco from the floor and when there was enough tobacco they would roll a "joint" in a manner of speaking.

Don't try this at home or anywhere else and i do not condone this but it seems that according to Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital, violence is cool and condoned. As long as you sort out your frustrations with batons, polycop plumbers pipe, high heels, a strawberry jam sandwich and mind bending, muscle spasm causing injections.

I am upset now very upset. How on earth could Dr Ndlovo from G.J. Crookes transfer me from a cage full of pigeons to a cage full of vipers and ruin me financially. If i had been discharged from G.J. Crookes i would have been able to make up my payments. Surely if a patient is so psychotic they would be transferred on day one or two. Yet according to my mother: a security guard impersonating a principal psychiatrist, informed my mother that "they need the beds" which is also not true as there where two empty beds in the ward and G2 is also used for psych patients.

I must have been in a very bad state of mind as one night sister took my blood pressure nightly and allowed me to take her blood pressure on numerous occasions. Imagine that some cleaners and staff nurses allowed me to choose and play songs on there smart phones. Ok i hope this paragraph does not get anyone into trouble but i watched the most fantastic game of soccer with the night staff and security guards one Wednesday night. I stand corrected i was at G.J. Crookes longer than 72 hours as i now remember there was no soccer game the next Wednesday for some or other reason whilst i was at G.J. Crookes Hospital.


Doc e, arranged that i do not have to go back to the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital, thank you very much for that.


I prefer and so do all of us, a restroom like in the pic above and not a restroom overflowing with shit and piss

I acquired two "bodyguards" in Male block one after my tobacco was stolen off my person whilst i was lying down in the morning sunshine on the tiled section of the courtyard floor. My one bodyguard and friend (John was his name) even himself mentioned that it was stressful holding onto my tobacco and rolling "joints" for me. The other bodyguard had been in the ward for many months and the other African patients where a bit wary of him. He would make sure that the other African patients stayed away whilst the tobacco was rolled mostly using my own purchased paper or if that ran out then newspaper. Best to choose the meanest mother fuckers as your friends in a place like this, which works on occassions.

Talking about "joints", marijuana is freely available at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital. I found this out when a patient asked me for a light and my bodyguard and best African friend John, told me not to smoke from that "joint" as it contains marijuana. Mary jane is supposed to induce paranoia in mentally ill patients so WTF.

Quite educating this business. I found out that one can crush and smoke pain killers as another room mate who slept opposite me did. Maybe that's why some nurses refused to hand out pain killers without a Doctor's script. So if you have a splitting headache in the afternoon one might obtain some pain killers the next day if lucky. I stay away from pain killers if possible but with my buttock injury from being assaulted and my two week summer cold i was popping pain killer's like crazy. Not thanks to the female Doctor whom i requested pain killers at the nurses station and she did not write them up the first time.

Come to think of it my best African friend went on his knees to talk to this female Doctor at the nurses station. Not that they where married but i was under the impression that Zulu girls serve food on their knees to their husbands. And he was nowhere near psychotic.

To get back to the drugs story, on one occasion i received a phone call in the injection room and there was this newly admitted coloured chap trying to open the medicine trolly. (He also received the customery tobacco treatment on arrival.) A few days later he and the guy who smoked the pain killers managed to steal some drugs from the medicine trolly. They received the baton treatment for their troubles. The assaulting of patients continues to baffle me as i was under the impression that violence in psychiatry was meant to be discouraged (never mind frowned upon) and guys that where in private and most state hospitals, that i have communicated with where never assaulted. Thank God i never witnessed any assault the first time i was admitted at G.J. Crookes Hospital unlike Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital.


On my move from one section to the next at Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital i lost my mountain view bed but was soon invited to another ward closer to the windows by two patients, the alterior motives you guess it, tobacco. The first ward or section i was in (gets a bit confusing this ward business) but anyhow i had a lovely view of the foothills of the Underberg mountains but knew this stunning view of the mountains and a village which was part of Umzimkulu village would not last and soon became quite mudane. Being an outdoor lover i never dreamt magestic mountains could become so boring.

So much agro and fustration as the patients where not allowed out the wards for walks. In any of the three wards bar one occasion. Maybe the patients would try to escape, wow why on earth would anyone want to escape. The one occasion sixteen patients where allowed to go for a walk outside was for a haircut. I remember that day very well. I was sitting in the courtyard and a female nurse starting picking out patients for a haircut. She called me out and i said no thanks. I did not want my hair to be cut bald as some Africans cut their hair. My blood really boiled and when the sixteen patients where about to get on the way for hair cuts i wanted to go with to have my beard trimmed off. The female nurse then changed her mind and said that i could not go at all. Talk about being petty.

I might be making a big issue of the tobacco story but that was the only occupational therapy there was at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital and when the patients received their monthly disability grant or visitors brought tobacco the patients who smoked, smoked non stop almost till all their tobacco was finished in two or three days. Might as well make a "meal" of it when you have it. I was rather more cautious and tried to ration my tobacco till Jabu came to visit me. For every one hundred grams of tobacco i received, i recon i smoked fifty grams and the other fifty grams was for "bodyguard" and sharing of tobacco fees.

Ninety five percent of the patients smoked and a large percentage never smoked before but only smoked at the Umzimkulu to pass the time and have something to occupy themselves with, the youngsters under 28 years of age or so would hide there smoking habits from their mothers or family when they came to visit them.

The patients make their own beds in the morning's. The nurses then come along and make the beds again. I found out only one blanket per patient is permitted during the summer months. Allegedly June and July the coldest months, really cold in the Underberg as I found out first hand on some of our vacations in the Drakensberg, two blankets are allowed. One or two degrees celsius (34 F) outside in winter at late night and early morning it gets really cold without a heater in the bedroom wherever you might be in a hotel or the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital. The patients ward windows are not triple glazed but thinking back the glass is 15mm thick so that must help with the cold a wee bit.


How dare the Sisters, nurses (male and female) and security guards force the patients to pray and dance around in a circle singing Zulu religious songs after the way some of them treat the patients, two faced religious attitudes, i am sure it is written somewhere: abuse, assault, degrade ones dignity, humiliate and tomorrow you will be forgiven. I took no part in these prayer "meeting's" other than i was forced to stand. And my last morning at Umzimkulu Psych Hospital i did go around in circles chanting something at the insistence of one of the nurses just to please her and not have hassles on my last day.

Not everyone who says to me, Lord, Lord, will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. On that day many will say to me, Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name? And then will I declare to them, I never knew you; depart from me, you workers of lawlessness. Matthew 7:21-23

I used to be quite a self religious person but i have lost my respect for God due to this hospital stay and psychological after effects, really too much is too much.

I think Stephen Fry is correct with his viewpoint on God. ''The quicker you forget about Him, your life will change for the better"

This is the final nail in the coffin between God and i and it really hurts me to loose faith after so many years, but this is really it, i have had enough. What i have gone through in my life is a fraction of some of the pain and suffering others go or have gone through but i have had enough of this blatant two faced religious attitudes.

And it gets even better, on the 18th Febuary 2015, another anniversary, my birthday, my

The reason i was sent from G.J. Crookes Hospital in Scottburgh, South Africa to the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital was that Doctor Ndlovo filled up a bath and gave me a teaspoon, cup and bucket and asked me to empty the bath, i choose the bucket, she asked me whether i would like a bed by the window in the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital as normal people would pull the bath plug. Just thought i would ad a bit of humour, this did not actually happen but one never knows, many things said in jest could be true.

Crimes against humanity, as defined by the Rome Statute of the International Criminal Court Explanatory Memorandum, "are particularly odious offences in that they constitute a serious attack on human dignity or grave humiliation or a degradation of human beings, they really fucked me up at Umzimkulu.



Crimes against humanity, as defined by the Rome Statute of the International Criminal Court Explanatory Memorandum, "are particularly odious offences in that they constitute a serious attack on human dignity or grave humiliation or a degradation of human beings.



Part nineteen

November 2015 i relapsed and landed up in the Ethembeni Ward at G.J Crooks Hospital on the 5th of December 2015. This is a government Hospital on the South Coast of South Africa where 95% of the patients are African.

The food at Ethembeni ward is good, mielie meal porridge or jungle oats, egg, bread and tea for breakfast. For lunch a hot meal is served with two veggies and meat as well as phutu or rice. Supper another hot meal with a little less on the plate.

But smoking privlages are few and far between in the psych ward. Five fags a day is all one is allowed, if one has them. So if one is used to smoking thirty fags a day one has suddenly cut down to five which was very good for my stress levels. The security guards reguarly steal the patients smokes and shared my smokes with other patients. The security guards (there is ways one on duty) find this ward most boring and cannot understand the illness of the patients.

On arrival at the Ethembeni ward i was beaten up by male staff nurses, hit with solid punches to my back for no apparent reason. Must be another lesson they will never forget. I was not that psychotic to imagine that.

Bath time is at around six thirty am and only six thirty am. I was beaten up by two of the biggest security guards for having a bath in the afternoons due to the heat, whilst still in the tub i was pounded with fists to my face. Doctor M ignored my complaint.

There are ten beds in the Ethembeni ward, two seclusion room beds. In the five room ward there is a television. The only entertainment is to check out the young nurses butts if they are on duty that day and the cleaner was a real dog. Like i said the hospital has an OT section but there is no OT.

Thank God i was transferred to an infectious ward for a few weeks where i had more freedom. I could smoke when i wanted to and spent the days recovering at a normal pace, there was no beef as to when one could take a shower, not like the Ethembeni ward "prison" where i "misplaced" my wedding band and my multi focals where stolen on another visit.

Yet the powers that be decided to transfer me back to Ethembeni ward as i was smoking too much, like there is so much to do with no OT (occupational therapy) at all, even though the hospital does have an OT section.

The infectious ward has thirty six beds, eight of the beds are taken up by non psychotic psych patients. Can't be that of a infectious ward as only 70% of the nurses wear masks and not all the doctors wear masks. Strange the reason i was sent to Umzimkulu psych hospital, according to the CEO (Chief Security Guard) was that the beds at Ethembeni where full, i never knew the doctors transferred patients from Ethembeni to G2, must be another lesson they will never forget that they gave me.

As usual the security guards are in charge of the ward(s), to be a security guard at a government hospital the security guard has to first go to university for three years at least, in any faculty, the security guards also have to be au faut with beating up one patient, eight against one. Which i witnessed with my own eyes at G2 and at Umzimkulu.

Strange that there are three other security guards, who are in charge, Indian chaps whom use brain power to negotiate with a troublesome patient but they are not around much.

Talent abounds at G.J. Crookes Hospital, there are tons of lovely nurses and sisters. The white nurses uniforms are quite see through at times and nothing beats a nice tight behind. The cleaners are not too bad either and some are quite friendly. On the subject of talent, i would not mind shagging my out patient GP. she is quite cute and also an African. I have been with Jabu for six years now so African "girls" really turn me on.

In the apartheid days i would have been killed for going out with an African girl or marrying one. By the Africans and not the apartheid security police, according to one of the staff nurses at Umzimkulu Psych Hospital.

Nothing wrong at looking as long as one does not touch. Being away from Jabu my wife for such a long time really makes one "jags" (randy). Oh well as long as there where tons of nurses to look at. ED (erectile dysfunction) is a real pain and the doctors don't give a fuck, never mind the herbs cost an arm and a leg a shot (pun intended) but there is no spontaneous love making. The herbs or Cialis have to be taken and then the long wait till the mood changes and we are ready for love making. The joy of living in South africa where the "girls" out number the men fifteen million to one. And yes money talks, African girls like "mulungu" with big bucks, so i will have have no luck in that department. Not that WIC "girls" don't like march, (money) either.


On a brighter side, Xmas day we spent at the beach and had supper at the mall thanks to my sister whom arranged a pass out. It was nice to eat out with my family and especially my wife at one of the restaurants. My sister and i also spent a day at the beach amongst the throng of holiday makers on a previous occasion.

An African lady was locked up in the seclusion room for a few days and all she did was scream at the top of her voice, non stop. She was there for at least one week, strange that she was not transferred to Umzimkhulu.

I think I rather be in a psych ward at G.J. Crookes Hospital (but not Umzimkhulu) than at the oncology ward if i had to choose illnesses. I am so blessed, touch wood not to have any physical illness other than erectile dysfunction which is a cause of the meds i swallow religiously. No joy to those guys whom suffer from blood pressure hassles as well, ED is also part of their game. Two doctors suggested i take Cialis, fuck that i need a boner on demand not having to wait one hour before i can get hard on and stress does not help either, i can take 2000 mg Cialis and will not get it up if i am stressed out.

Just like in Ward one at Umzimkulu Psych Hospital the patients bath in a basin to make them feel really at home. 70% of South Africans bath in a basin at night or during the day with a kettle of hot water or boiled water on a fire. In the country where i come from, after WWII and still into the fifties, ditto for some.

G2 ward at G.J. Crookes had five showers and as i mentioned previously Ethembeni ward had one scalding hot water supply from the bath. A thermostat costs around 250 ZAR, (12 USD). The thermostat was either set on boiling point so 10 patients could have hot water or some dick head needed to replace the thermostat, but who the fuck am i to talk being a former electrician of sixteen years. Maintenance could at least install another water heater back to back at ethembeni after spending millions of ZAR revamping G.J. Crookes Hospital where the reception area is tops and so is the pharmacy.


To top it all on my last out patient visit to G.J. Crookes in May 2016 there was no psychiatrist working in the Hospital and i was seen to by a GP. Hopefully this has changed by now, psychiatrists might as well not study for a few years longer if a GP can do the shrinks job which they cannot.

I obtain a rash from the meds i take but was refused by the GP in May 2016 for a script for Persivate ointment, she informed me "i must go upstairs" and wait another three hours in the queue to see another doctor. Seriously if herbal meds where strong enough for my condition i would be taking them and not these shit meds that give me erectile dysfunction and Cialis costs an arm and a leg which i cannot afford even though there are herbal alternatives at one third of the price which work just as well.

It was rather cold on a motorcycle in May 2016 and i arrived at G.J. Crooks at round 8:00 by the time i obtained my file it was 09:00, i waited till 12:00 to see the GP at the psych clinic. The total cost for the consultation and meds supply for six months is one and one half USD (twenty ZAR) so can't complain there.

It's the assault, violence and theft that really bugs me and this is commited by the security guards even though some nursing sisters and nurses steal the patients food, to take in a lunch box home with them, as well as milk and fresh juice. Odd that someone with a 6000 ZAR smart phone needs to steal. I was once shaking and almost had a nervous breakdown when in front of thirty six patients at G2 an African chap was assaulted and held down by eight security guards, he just cried out "mfowethu mfowethu" (spelling) which means brother in the Zulu language. One needs six months to recuperate after being a patient in a government hospital. Not all Africans are like this, most go to church on a Saturday or Sunday or maybe it's the bible that's the problem.

When one is psychotic one does not know what the fuck is going on so the doctor's and sisters try there best in a fassion with meds that are of dubious nature. Each shrink likes there own meds. Strangely in a private hospital a psych patient recovers on average in ten days but the government hospitals have some philosophy that a psych patient needs to stay from one to three months if not longer. However if a psych patient is too spaced out for care in a private hospital and the twenty four hour "knock out injection" which puts one to sleep, does not work then he or she is sent to a government hospital if the patient is non compliant of all things. So those whom have medical aid really score.

We have discovered from reading this book that violence is acceptable by staff members, theft is A ok in psych wards and hospitals of all places, by the staff. I would not treat my dogs the way i was treated and my African friends where treated in the psych hospitals.
Spot of bad luck in the South Coast for me with my manic episodes spiking due to what i thought was the change in altitude but i will never know as there is only a twenty minute if that consultation with a GP or shrink per out patient session at the G.J Crookes Hospital.


Jesus I trust in You

Part twenty

On a very brighter note i was once admitted to THMC, what a holiday camp it was in those days. This was a semi private/government psych Hospital. I believe the historic place has been closed down now due to the high cost of rates and taxes in Sandton, Gauteng, South Africa. A real shame as most of the buildings were from the early 60's. I believe i was given the incorrect intel as the place is still open. The procedure is one starts of at a private hospital, then demoted to a government hospital then sent of to THMC for a holiday. At one stage in our lives we will suffer from one illness or other so having bipolar disorder is just one of those things or is it brain radiation from electronic sources.

There where two swimming pools at THMC, some med students don't even know the place. One for the patients and one for the staff nurses who lived in the single quarters. There where also two full size snooker tables in the games room. A cafe for the patients and staff as well. There was a historic chapel and some of the buildings where quite historic which means nothing in South Africa, try knock down a historic building in Europe for instance and see what occurs, just come with bulldozer and put up modern skyscrapers. Come to think of it i got into big shit one night as i was chatting up an African sister, the next day she was put on day shift. What mentality, black is beautiful.

There where six meals served a day, breakfast, tea, lunch, tea, supper and then tea again, tea as in tea or coffee with biscuits not tea tea. The food was quite good and one could put on weight. THMC was nowhere near similar to Barbara Streisand's movie "Nuts". More nut case staff members at Umzimkulu psychc hospital than anywhere else. They really taught me a lesson they will never forget. Sometimes its spelt Umzimkhulu. Which in Zulu means "place of the fucked up mountain", not really but close.

Draft copy

May month 2020 I noticed they are demolishing the psychc clinic, the new clinic will be in the main building at G.J. Crookes AFAIK, reception said I should ask security where it is. I found out on the 12th of August 2020 that I was incorrect, the old physc clinic had a nice garden overlooking the R102, I used to eat my sandwiches and have a smoke whilst I waited for five hours to see the Doctor. Now the new psyhc clinic is in a dreary old concrete part of the old part of G.J. Crookes hospital where one sits in a corridor exposed to the elements, fuck. Mama whom does not get treated correctly for, my brother and I all suffer from one of the many forms of bipolar, I have a brother who is a sisi.






This is how I started my AMPPOL IT Linux CD's & DVD's business in 2003 with a simple HTML website which progressed to the hacked joomla website (designed for me for free by a Linux guy from JHB) in Pennington of all places as shown in the pic above hosted by Afrihost when it was hacked.

I like playing around with these

My first boxed set of the Linux OS was Red Hat 6.1 around 2002. I then used Red Hat 7.0 through to Red Hat, 7.3 was a great release. Or could it be 1999/2000. I later went over to Fedora Core and then at Fedora Core 2 to Mandrake Linux because my video card would not work on Fedora Core 2. And then Mandriva. I miss the Johannesburg thunderstorms where from my SOHO i could see the bad weather coming from the south and would unplug every computer even though i had UPSes. No such thunderstorms in Pennington.

Ubuntu Linux

Ubuntu Linux was born in 2005 and slowly over the years pushed out Mandriva Linux which i think Mandriva/Mageia Linux used to be the best OS around. I am a RPM guy. Ubuntu Linux has come a long way since i tried 5.05 i think it was. I recommend Ubuntu Linux for a start up Linux if you are new to Linux. 6.06 will only work on my 200? Semptron laptop. So i use the CD version of AntiX on my 2006 laptop with a Septrom processor. All my laptops i purchased in Johannesburg are still intact. My two desktop machines have died.

Mageia Linux

Mandriva and then Mageia used to be my favourite and i am still lost without them. I had to leave Mageia 6 as X kept freezing my laptop early 2018 after grafting fine since it's release in July 2017. It's very easy to kill X in Mageia if it's acting up. I was most likely been hacked because of this book.

I was very sorry to have to leave Mageia 6 even though i still play around with it on Virtualbox. I still have Mageia 5 installed on my mothballed Centrino. Which is not much use as the core temp goes to 75 C when idle and the screen has packed up.

Debian Linux

At Johannesburg on one of my machines i used to use Debian Linux as a file server and burning server.

I used Mandriva as my desktop.

Today instead of Mageia 6 KDE Plasma i use Debian Linux KDE Plasma as well as PCLinuxOS.

Since Buster was released i have gone back to using Mageia 7, i fucked up my Debian installation. Lucky i had a separate /home directory. Ubuntu was no hassle to upgrade from 18.04 to 19.04 to 19.10 then to 20.04 LTS and now 20.04.1 LTS.

Ian was the guy who complied Debian and Debbie was his girlfriend. Hence the name deb ian.

I am just going to mention these four as i know from past experience they work well even though i have tried most of the top fifty.

PCLinuxOS Full Monty

I dabbled around with PCLinuxOS in JHB. It is based on the now bankrupt Mandriva. Looks Like Mageai but these days it works better.

I trashed my 200 Gig Windows 10 partition and installed PCLinuxOS as /

So far so good, I am quite content with PCLinuxOS, has regular updates. X crashes now and again but not as much as in Mageai. For some reason when I log into PCLinuxOS I have to kill X and log in again and get my toolbar back.

Will see how it goes, no more Windows 10 or any other Windows on my machine as in JHB from 2003 till October 2012, except Windows XP on my Centrino which I purchased with XP, now moth balled which has seven obsolete Linux OSes on it, no XP. Overheats like shit and screen does not work. Served me well on many of my time share adventures with Mandriva installed.

Then a new kernel was up for PCLinuxOS and all hell broke loose. Upon boot X was fucked. I tried with drakconf in a terminal to adjust the display and keyboard which did not work, I choose the "happy hacking keyboard" and X came up but on reboot nothing, so I went back to the old stock kernel and PCLinuxOS worked in a fassion. I got pissed off and installed Fedora KDE Plasma spin, it worked on my spare partition till I updated. Once again no X with the new kernel only X grafted with the old stock kernel and still does so I got really pissed off and ....

Downloaded the Windows 10 iso on Ubuntu Linux 20.04 LTS copied the iso to Debian buster and burned the iso on a DL, it took 25 minutes to burn. i backed up my book and docs I need and proceeded to install Windows 10 over the 175 gig PCLinuxOS volume. By 04/08/2020 at around 04:15 I had Windows 10 installed again, the May 2020 update and I activated it so it is a legal copy, what a relief to have Windows 10 again Linux was starting to piss me off except Debian Buster and Ubuntu Linux 20.04 LTS which still graft. I also tried to install openSUSE but no go, openSUSE wanted a boot partition. So I have Windows 10 again and will wait till Microsoft 10 next patch Wednesday (for South Africa) in August 2020. Mageai 8 Alpha 1 is not updating as of 03/08/2020, I get errors, it was my fault, so i left it and the came along Beta 1 and I am on Beta 1 now, 08/08/2020. The new Mageai 8 Beta 1 kernel works unlike Fedora 32 and PCLinuxOS. Pity Fedora 32 and PCLinuxOS FULL MONTY do not graft but I think it's the hackers/that are fucking me around. PCLinuxOS now works with the stock kernel, I had 184 updates this morning, 15/08/2020, Mageia Beta 1 is going well, no hassles with the new kernel. 30/08/2020 all good with Ubuntu 20.04 LTS, Debian Buster 10, Mageia Beta 1 and PCLinuxOS stock kernel, I will only boot into Windows 10 on patch Tuesday even though it's a waste of 175 gigs HDD space.

These are the top nine Linux distro's in the world today:

The others are mostly forks of the above except Arch which i have not tried. but now I have (September 2020).

20/08/2020 CAT 10:30 Jabu and I go to her best friends mothers funeral. Miss V. Was supposed to be 19C but was a scorcher 25C. The ANC grated the dirt road to the funeral and filled up Miss V's water tank, Mostly in isiZulu but the pastor did preach once in English. All I seem to go to is funerals except Robert's wedding which was a grand affair at Zimbali in April 2019

26/08/2020 06:06 Wednesday CAT All I hear is the birds chirping in peace full Pennington. Jabu is coming to visit me for a short while this morning, Mama is up I can hear she opened the front security gate and door. It's quite warm, adios for now.

27/08/2020 16:15 Jabu arrives for the weekend.

30/08/2020 08:50 CAT Sunday Zack comes to visit me, he has brunch with Mama when she returns from church as he has to go home at 14:00, last time I saw him was in June 2020, I love my stepson. He is a man now. Jabu returns from work and after she has rested cooks us "kentucky" and pap. My irratable bowel syndrome was fine till this morning 31/02/2020 02:10. It's nice to be back together with Jabu again since 12/06/2020. We where separated for two and a half years even though whilst Mama had her fractured humerus she was here from end July 2019 till January 2020 as a care giver.

31/08/2020 03:07 CAT Monday Jabu returning from a shopping trip at Umzinto at 17:35 the Quantum taxi loses it's front tire and they almost roll. Jabu and the other girls walk down the hill to Pennington, Jabu arrives after sunset a bit shaken up. My girl is quite a strong isiZulu girl but she had a harrowing experience. If this had occured on the bridge going over the N2 the taxi could have gone right over the bridge and landed smack bang on the N2, thank God she eventually arrived safely.

01/09/2020 Spring Day Jabu arrives home with the shopping and two bunches of flowers she purchased from an Indian chap outside the local store. I wake at 22:45 after crashing at 20:32 after Generations TV show. When I am resting during the day Mama watches the BBC and other news programs and then at night. Mama loves cooking soups, all kinds of soup during the day even though she only has 45% use of her right arm. 23:58 it has been a cold last few days especially Sunday, 13C. I can't wait for summer. My above ground pool has a puncture in the bottom half so I am fucked for a pool again.

02/09/2020 00:05 CAT Watching Catholic online Mass for a change on my laptop, did not have data last month to use the laptop much after the 15th so watched online Mass on the A20. Keeping the five operating systems on my laptop up to date uses quite a bit of data and remember I downloaded Windows 10 last month.

03/09/2020 13:05 CAT Thursday Jabu say bye and I see her walk down the street towards the local shop, she is going to spend some time with her mother and Zack. Reminds me of eThembeni when she came to visit me and when the visit was over she walked out the security gates and the next time I saw her was at Umzinkulu. I was reading an ad on my website about lawyers who do medical work. I think Doctor Ndlovo a 28 year old GP at the time who sent me to Umzimkulu should sell her car, her husbands car and her house and move into a shack for giving me a credit rating of 0, and pay my debt, why not, why must i be in debt because of Doctor Ndlovu? I will investigate this further.

04/09/2020 06:50 CAT Friday Siphokazi comes to work, she is a good domestic but I check my money pouch which I have not checked for a long time and there is 200 Rand missing, fuck. Mama takes a walk down to the local store at 12:05 and returns at 14:15 quite hungry. I have the potatoes in the skin ready and Mama fries the onion and chicken livers.

05/09/2020 03:05 CAT Saturday I wake late these days after retiring just after the load shedding was over last night at 20:46. Jabu paid me a surprise visit after work, it was so nice to see her. She cooked me eggs and tomatoe and left for Umzinto at 13:35.

06/06/2020 05:30 CAT exactly Sunday The alarm wakes me and I wake Mama up for church. Mama is ready by 07:00 and drives off with a lift to Church. Mama really enjoys going to church, I had a few hours to myself with no electricity, lucky the towers batteries last for two hours so I can watch you tube. I have been going to every day Catholic Mass online for quite a while now, that's the first thing I do when I wake up. I have decided to set my alarm to wake me like my African nurse from Tara recommended I do so I can start off early, those where the days of AMPPOL IT Linux CD's & DVD's. Too much sleep at night no good, I am a night shift guy. I like to start my day at midnight since 2003. 20:53 see you tomorrow.

07/09/2020 15:56 CAT Monday Jabu arrives from work, bit of a bad mood but we make up during the load shedding and all is good.

08/09/2020 03:00 CAT exactly Tuesday The alarm wakes me and I fall back asleep. I wake again at 04:57. Siphokazi is coming to work today to help me scrape the ceiling of chipping paint, she was supposed to come yesterday but she said she had to go to the clinic, she actually went to collect her child grant I suspect. 05:43 there is a glimmer of sunrise. It's a mission to find a handy man in Pennington since Mr C retired and he used to charge me peanuts. 13/08/2020 Mr J was supposed to tile the toilet, I am still waiting.

09/09/2020 02:06 CAT Wednesday During February 2012 I met a girl older than I, much older, who stayed at Mama's place from Kirslwald Germany and she stays in Wroclaw Poland for six months of the year. Anyway we went for time share near the Kruger Park and we both enjoyed it. We kept in touch and she used to post me Tabac after shave, chocolates and sandels to Pennington. Unfortunatly on the 20th May 2020 we had an arguement about Jabu on WhatsApp. I did not sleep that night and Mrs E caused me to to develop mild mania. On the 12/06/2020 when I announced that Jabu and I are back together again she nor her friend from Warsaw Poland, Mrs K would not chat with me anymore, pity. I like mild to moderate mania as it keeps me productive. Mild mania is the best for me, stable no good. I am a hermit anyway.
As of today my mild/moderate mania seems to have passed and I am feeling more stableish with a bit of mild mania. Anyway of course I had to wake up early today just as I had to go to G.J. Crookes to collect my meds, the last few nights I was sleeping late. Lucky I had a power nap between 08:45 and 10:00. I went to GJC late, we arrived there at 11:50 and I was the only one in the q to collect my file. Like I said I don't know what will happen when it rains as the new clinic corridor is protected by a 1.4 meter wall so the patients will get wet unless they are allowed to sit in the inside corridor. I had some bloods taken, then the pharmacy and I was out of there in two hours. I have been an out patient at G.J. Crookes since January 2016 so they know me well, even the top security guards know me by name.
Mama in the meantime went for a haircut and we went to Checkers afterwards to do some shopping. When I go to Scottburgh I try sort out as many things as possible due to transport costs.

11/09/2020 02:55 CAT Friday, my nieces birthday, she turns 18 today. Happy birthday. In 2012 when I had my medical plan I was diagnosed with IBS by Doc L from Scottburgh. A few weeks ago I had extreme pain in my lower right abdomen when I got up from the armchair, I took some pills from the pharmacy and the pain has gone away, but I can feel a pushing pain in my lower right abdomen and I have only had two mugs of coffee now since I woke up at 00:18. Online Doctors are investigating my condition and I might have a hernia. Fuck that's all I need, I have been constipated for 15 years because of the meds I take, Mama feeds me plenty of fruit and vegetables. I don't do much PT as I am out of it between 08:00 and 11:00. Like I said since I opened my AMPPOL IT Linux CD's & DVD's business in 2003 I have been wakeing anytime between midnight and 02:00 and grafting till 07:00 more or less. That's in Randburg, then I used to start work again answering the phones at 08:00 till 19:00 and taking online orders so I grafted most of the day with power naps between. It's going well between Jabu and I and in a few days it will be our three month anniversary since we are back together again. I can't be bothered with spelling anymore, normally Samsung spells for me.
Mama is going to tile the toilet, so I have to go buy a few squares of tiles soon. The tilers where there to give a quote at 17:54, both of them where not wearing masks. I accepted the quote.
Went to bed early and woke at ....

12/09/2020 00:20 CAT Saturday Rebooted from Windows 10 and into Ubuntu 20.04 by mistake as I was listening to Catholic online Mass at the same time. So I did my usual morning Mageia Beta 1 update, all went smoothly. 02:15, had a hot shower, i feel the cold, feel sleepy now, 03:01. I woke at 06:32 and Mama and I went to Park Rynie at 07:55 to purchase some tiles, they did not have a large selection, in fact the first hardware shop we went to they had none at all. Today is the third month Jabu and I are back together. We will celebrate with a flattie chicken braai (BBQ) tomorrow. These mixture of herbs I take for ED are dangerous, the other night i took some and had a terrible pain in my right elbow, a bit in the left elbow and chest pain, it was as if I was having a panic attack. Come to think of it Mama upset me about two weeks ago and I had the same syntoms. But I think I have RA as I sit here and type my elbows are slightly painful. Tata died from an OD of steroids due to his RA. I am going to give it a break from taking a dangerous mixture of these ED herbs, fuck I really felt bad. I have been taking Lexan herbs in Randburg for my constipation and early on in 2012 but Doctor L said in 2012 I can take Epsom salts but my online Doctor says they are not for long term use and I have been using Epsom salts for the last two years at least in conjunction with liquid parrafin. So I will use Lexan herbs now and liquid parrafin, like I said Mama feeds me lots of soup and fruit especially during the winter. Jabu is not too fond of soup, she is used to her food at her mothers place. What the Africans do is month end they purchase 10kg of mielie meel, 10kg of rice, 10kg of flour, 5kg of sugar and meat from Umzinto, I used to do the same except for the flour but Mama will have none of it and it works out much cheaper at Checkers, also used to purchase 5l of oil. Rice does not go off but mielie meel does get worms if it stays too long. Mama however did purchase 5kg of rice and 7kg of brown sugar on her last shopping trip. Once Jabu did mot have ten rand pay the carrier so she had to cart all her shopping to the taxi rank. The hassle is working from home I drink a lot of tea and coffee, the one consultant place i worked for in Sandton once they offered free lunch and had a cold drink machine near the IT office but I was only doing contract work, we retire around 23:00 and.....

13/09/2020 03:00 CAT Sunday exactly I awake. The alarm also wakes Jabu and she goes for a pee. Hopefully the tiler pitches up today to do the tiles in the toilet. I will let you know how it goes. Actually my guts are not right, yesterday I did not have much discomfort in my lower right abdomen but this morning I feel something pushing, maybe I do have a hernia, fuck, all this fucking constipation over the last 15 years from the meds. I am back to smoking my hand rolled fags, I need them to calm down my nerves other wise I would be taking 10mg of Rivitrol a day. 04:54. 07:02 Mr Sazi the tiler arrives and at the same time Mama goes off to church. I sold all my mechanical tools and extension step ladders back in March 2016 but I kept my electrical tools as I was an Electrician for sixteen years. Those where the days when I used to climb a 11 meter extension step ladder and slide down from the top. Worked in 45 C ceiling voids and in front of 50 C boilers till my whole body was wet with sweat. I was quite good with step ladders but when I was an appy I once fell all the way from the top of a street light as the pole was rusted at the bottom. I once read on Google that an Electrician was rated as the 20th most dangerous job in the world. I remember once working on a crane fixing a luminaire on a four foot step ladder three stories up, if I fell of the step ladder I would be a goner. We used to do all sorts of things like put bolts in place of fuses to see which luminaire was shorting in a tunnel of thirty luminaires. Anyway it was fun in my younger years, I can't get it right anymore. Too much anxiety. Then I used fly and drive all over South Africa for four years as an electrical engineering assistant. That was a great job, the second best I ever had and it paid good money in those days doing contract work, that was when Tata was still alive. It took me and hour to replace a pull luminaire switch here in Pennington after many attemps, Kwela Electrical of Pennington really fucked up the electrical installation in this house in February 2012 and I was quoted back in August 2017 7500 rand to fix the fuck up. So the tiler used some of my tools as he only came with a tile cutter and grinder, the only thing he fucked up was scratching the door on the wheelbarrow when he was sawing the bottom of the door. The toilet looks nice now and we will only be able to walk on the tiles at 15:00 on Monday the 14th September 2020.

14/09/2020 *.* CAT Monday I don't remember what time I woke up but we went to sleep early last night. It feels good when I am supervising and planning renovations going on around the house. I have hired Siphokazi as a handy girl as well once a week for now. Oh yes fuck, yesterday we had a flattie chicken braai which turned into a disaster as Jabu was pissed off with Mama, Mama can be difficult to get on with sometimes. I took my TSR for spin yesterday and parked her in front of the bike shed. I later started her and she stalled so I tried to start her again and the ignition was dead again, I just paid Mr Ra 700 bucks a few months ago for a second hand ignition but he said he will give me a warranty. So as the sun rises i need to make Jabu her cup of tea before she goes off to work. 06:00.

11/09/2020 03:30 CAT Friday

All is going well with Mageia Beta 1, I had to do a "dnf update" today as the control center keep giving me a python error. New kernel for Ubuntu 20.04 LTS all went smoothly and PCLinuxOS I am still on my stock kernel as my machine does not like the new kernels. I have given up trying to get the new kernels to work. Windows 10 users keep reporting BSOD so I am wary of updating Windows 10. But at 04:01 I started to update Windows 10 anyway and I finished the September 8th update 2020 at 05:56. All went smoothly just took two hours and I like to watch the update running. On my Celeron every thing happens very slowly in Windows 10. Debian Buster 10 does not have many updates and no new kernel in a long time, I don't know if that is right. Just how stable can it be, I get an update once every three days. 13/09/2020 Dolphin crashed on Debs Buster 10 after I copied large folders.

18/09/2020 19:10 CAT Friday I was dead tried and retired and woke at 04:05 on 19/09/2020, even though the alarm went off at midnight I went back to sleep.

19/09/2020 05:47 CAT Saturday Renovations renovations these last two weeks. Tiled the toilet, painted the ceiling in the lounge and kitchen door. The good news is since I received my 350 Rand SASSA grant of which I received another 350 yesterday I have received a donation of 5000 Rand from Mr R from the USA and a donation of a Lenovo S145 i5 laptop from Mrs M from South Africa. Mr E from Australia loaned me 1000 Rand. It is going well between Jabu and I but Mama is a bit of a miser lately and said I drink too much milk and that I drink too much tea too, but these meds make me hungry. Also a big thank you to my brother who has helped me since March 2006 when Tata passed away and at times my AMPPOL IT Linux CD's & DVD's business was not going to well due to undercutting the prices by 70% as they where a sponsored company for five years then they vanished and my clients complained that their DVD's where faulty, I had a 99.9 % success rate.

19/09/2020 04:05 CAT Saturday I started to work on my S145 and finished at 20:32 with a break for breakfast, lunch and at 21:45 Jabu and I had supper.

20/09/2020 00:04 CAT Sunday Installed a bit of software on Mangero 20.1 on my S145 and retired dead tired at 00:50. Woke at 05:35 I will now upload and see how it goes 05:48. Woke Mama at 06:00 to get ready for church, I watched Catholic online Mass. Sunday is braai day, free fire wood from the many tree's in Mama's garden, I always try light the fire with one match stick and get it right most of the time. I use newspaper. I learned to light a smoke in moya (wind) a long time ago with one match stick. Unlike last Sunday we had a very pleasant flattie chicken braai. I eat a lot as these meds keep me hungry. Mama and Jabu prepared the veggies and I started to braai the chicken and Jabu finished braaing it. Jabu is just good at everything, a perfect wife. She knows just about everyone in Malengeni, Pennington and half of Ethekweni. The day eneded with Jabu going to sleep at 23:35 and Mama was fast asleep already. Mama is getting old she is nearly 80. I did not go to sleep yet....

21/09/2020 00:04 CAT Monday I am fixing the fuck up I made on my Debian partition by using the "dd" command to flash a flash drive, and sorted it out at 00:15 with PCLinuxOS on my 250 G5. I have to think hard to get a command line as I have forgotten most of the as most of the shit is GUI now. I fell asleep around 05:00 and woke at 06:58, Jabu rushed off to work and did not even have breakfast but drank the cup of tea I made her. Mama is now preparing breakfast for me. 08:47. Retired at 20:07.....

22/09/2020 00:00 CAT Tuesday exactly The alarm woke me. I booted into Ubuntu 20.10 Beta to try to get my touchpad to work on my S145, no go. I the tried dkms on Mangero 20.1 KDE Plasma no go, I finally installed the 5.9rc kernel on Mangero 20.1 and my touchpad works. 02:15. Happy as a pig in shit. I then booted into Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta with kernel 5.8 and my touchpad works even better than in Mangero. I am running eight operating systems now on my 250 G5 and S145 04:04 will upload now and have a break watching you tube or a movie till 05:00. Siphokazi came to paint the door frames at 07:02 and Jabu rushed off to Umzinto at 07:52 for a school meeting. 17:55 I had to send off some docs to someone so I will call it a day now. 19:52.

23/09/2020 00:55 CAT Wednesday I had my forth possible heart attack this month or angina. My angina or heart attack started at 23:10 yesterday and I phoned Jabu at 23:15. Twice I have woken up and my chest was burning this month. Once Mama upset me and I had a burning in my chest and once after making love with the ED herbs. My Doctor says I should go to G.J. Crooks for an ECG. My Doctor says if it last for longer than twenty minutes which it does I am having a heart attack. So I am on Ubuntu 20.10 Beta now as I don't know pacman and Arch but I will boot into Mangero 20.1 soon. 09:08. 09:15 my above ground pool was delivered and I have to set it up. It actually takes two people to set this pool up and Mama is bitching as usual. Let's hope Siphokazi finds a taxi at this time as I am quite excited. During the summer I skinny dip at 04:00. Siphokazi arrived at 10:15 and we set up the pool. At 13:00 I had my first spring swim when the pool was still filling up, the water was cool but nice. I had two more swims, at 14:00 and at 16:00, the weather forecast for the next two days is good but it will start to rain Saturday which we really need and it will rain for the whole week next week. I am going to upload now as I can peg at any time with my angina. 18:58

24/09/2020 00:45 Thursday Heritage Day CAT The BIOS on the S145 is a bit fucked up. I have to boot into the BIOS each time to change operating systems. I am on Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta now with the 5.8 kernel. I seem to be very hungry lately, I had an early supper at 16:30 and then at 22:15 after a swim at 20:30 fried eggs and toast. Jabu will be working from today till Sunday and I will see her at around 07:15 this morning. I was falling asleep when she arrived. It's braai day in South Africa so we had a flattie chicken braai which Mama and I prepared as Jabu was at work. Jabu gave the finishing touches to the chicken and was rather tired from work. I can't stop thinking of my extension step ladders which I sold back in March 2016. I really need them now to paint the front of the house. Not that I would go up myself. Only in Pennington the first time in my life I put my foot through a ceiling board when I was climbing into Mama's roof void. I enjoy planning and supervising the renovation work, Siphokazi is a bit cheeky and does not listen. I am a bit too soft with her. It took me six days to get the S145 right. The only thing that does not graft lekker on the S145 is my MX 1100 mouse on Ubuntu 20.10 Beta but at least the touch pad is fixed now., yet my MX 1100 grafts fine on my 250 G5 I have three fifteen year old MX 1100 mice. The MX 1100's work the best on Mageai, PClinuxOS and Mangero 20.1. Even though my MX 1100 works fine on Ubuntu 20.04 on my 250 G5, Doctor Ndlovo are you going to pay my debt? Mama is paying for all this and I need a new mouse. So far we have tiled the toilet, painted some of the ceilings, painted the door frames and washed the bathroom ceiling, I painted it with Velveglo in 2012 and the ceiling looked like new after a good wash. The kitchen ceiling was filthy dirty from the fat from the stove. I am not using Velveglo but a cheaper alternative. Did I mention we put the above ground pool up on Wednesday and already the monkeys had to jump all over the pool and look what's inside. Keep thinking of this fucking extension step ladder, I need it to paint the front wall of the house. Our buurman has turned out to be a real poes, loaded and does what he want's during lock down level four he had his domestic come to work. At first Johan was quite friendly when he moved in but I think David one of my tenants pissed him off when David would shout shut up to his K9's. Johan is a biker with a Harley and four cars and two young daughters right for the plucking. He does all the renovations around his mansion by himself but we don't get on anymore even though at first he even helped me with my snapped choke cable on my TSR, speaking of which I just spent 1450 Rand making it roadworthy this week. I will take it for another spin on Sunday morning if I am not too tired. I went to sleep at 21:20 last night and woke at .....

25/09/2020 02:27 CAT Friday I updated Mageai 8 Beta, there is a new kernel, and I updated PCLinuxOS on my 250 G5, this keyboard on the S145 is awe sum. I don't give a fuck anymore that I am in debt unless Mama kicks the bucket soon then I will be fucked but I can always live in Malengeni hopefully with Jabu. Once it's November 2020 I am going to reapply for a disabilty grant even though I have been told I can't get one. Strange I had a grant in Randburg but I left it as my AMPPOL IT Linux CD"s & DVD's business wa going well. I am also due for an electrician's pension which I let fall through in Randburg as I did not fill out the paper work. I think I will stick with Ubuntu 20.10 even though I extended my Manjero 20.1 partition on running live system with gparted to 200 Gigs and it worked, Linux has come a long way since 1999. I actually have not booted into Mangero for days now, don't feel like learning the pacman command line, don't have enough time. So what shall we do next next next week, paint the kitchen cubboards Mama says. I didn't get any last night Jabu was too tired from work. All I had was an erection, but no chest pain. I hope when Mageai 8 is finally released it comes out with a decent kernel that support's my S145 WIFI and touchpad. Like I said Mageai 8 Beta does not graft on this machine. Will not boot at all and I don't feel like fucking around with kernel parameters, the Linux OS needs to work stock except for dkms, git and build essentials which I had to figure out. I have never sent a machine back even though in Randburg there where a few of my clienst machines that did not work with Linux. I used to do installations as well, that's when I knew Linux backwords. Now I am way behind. Not only with Linux but these meds make my brain fucked up. I did not take my meds on the night of the 24/09/2020 and morning of 25/09/2020 just to see how I felt, anyway I did not fall asleep during the day all stoned. I took my night meds at 02:30 on the 25/09/2020 with a clearer mind. I will take my morning meds a bit later this morning. So far no angina or heart attack. Like fuck I am going to die in a government hospital. I forgot about self CPR, I don't know why I did not do it. Anyway It's 05:34 and I see the sun will rise soon so time to upload.

26/09/2020 07:11 CAT Saturday Slept like a baby. Johan's biker friends who have come for the weekend are revving their bikes, I love the sound of bikes revving. I am used to it at the bike rallies I used to go to, I have many badges, especially from the Rhino rally, They don't talk to me but I told them to rev their bikes to 11 000 RPM. Clive stole my MCP badge when he was a tenant here for two months, I only have a pic of it. Wow I slept well. From 21:50 last night till 06:15 this morning. what happens at the rally stays at the rally, but we had great fun, getting pissed, strip shows, camping and a bit of fighting. I love camping and wish I had a car so I could take Jabu camping to the Drakensberg during the summer, winter it's freezing cold. I have been camping to the Drakensberg many times as well as time share. Jabu and I went to the Underberg for time share in 2012 in the winter when it was freezing cold. At Umzimkhulu psychc hospital the patients told me they only get two thin blankets during the winter and it gets to -6 C there. Umzimkulu is in the Underberg. Like I said I have had a good life till end 2013. I don't drink since 2003. Only one beer every three months or so, I prefer my blend of Turkish coffee, which a Pole taught me to brew in 1992. A big spoon of filter coffee in a big mug brewed for three minutes ad sugar and milk to taste. Now that there are renovations going on in Mama's house planned and supervised by me I feel much better. Anyway Johan our buurman turned out to be a real poes and Mama is always taking his trash of our pavement and putting it on his pavement every Tuesday as she does not want the monkeys and K9's to rip apart his trash onto her pavement which she rakes. Johan came here with his millions from Randfontein and thinks he can take over. Pity we don't have a good buurmense like Mr R and Miss R who used to stay in Johan's house before, we used to get on so well and they where also Afrikankers. Our house was built first in the 70's and Johan's house was built much later so he can get fucked. It's not my fault our bedroom windows looks over straight at his verandah and braai area. The guy who designed his house should of thought about it first. I asked Johan the other week if he would rather be friends and all he said was "what". So there you have it we have to live with nervous tension with our buurman. It's supposed to piss down with rain today but there are hardly any clouds and the sun is shinning, maybe I will go for a swim later. My IBS has come right almost and I am having craps more frequently, in fact I had one just now after breakfast at 07:35. Amazing how this constipation works. I am quite pissed off with the ankel cramps and am only taking 1.5 mg of Risperdal at night instead of 2mg bd of which GJC pharmacy did not have stock anyway. We will see how it goes. I used to take 3mg of Risperdal at night. My friend who is a pharmacist from Kentucky USA said I should reduce my meds little by little. I have plenty of Risperdal in stock. 66% of men who take Risperdal get ED. Jabu is quite fed up with my ED. These Rizla machince rolled fags I have been smoking since 2003 are way to strong and as from yesterday I am going to smoke factory fags. Ten years ago there where pills on the market one could take to stop smoking but bipolar folks could not take them as they would go manic. I need to enquire with my Doctor if there is anything on the market now which bipolar folks can take but they are S5 and cost 2000 Rand for a three month course. 08:52 I am not used to writing my book during the day, Mama is still fast asleep which is good, she watches the news channels till 02:00/03:00. I am waiting for the much needed rain. My pool is already full of leaves. Lucky I have some HTH from last summer, my pool takes 2300 litres, it's the best pool I ever had if the monkeys don't fuck it up. Next week I am planning on painting the kitchen cub boards if it does not rain too heavy as Siphokazi cannot cross the river to come to work. Like I said we are all praying for rain. Anyway God bless, I will upload now 09:45 Oh yes addendum All is going well with Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta touch wood, I had a few updates this morning, It's the first thing I check, Mangero 20.1 is on standby if Ubuntu fucks out. I can't wait till 22nd October when Ubuntu Linux 20.10 is final. I am really enjoying Ubuntu after being an RPM guy for so long, but I have no choice as only Ubuntu and Mangero work on my S145. Lets hope the final release of Mageia 8 has the right kernel and I will be able to install dkms git and build essentials. I read a clip that Lenovo is bring out a whole lot of machines with Ubuntu 20.04 installed but not my S145 for sure. I need to boot into Windows 10 soon and see if there is a BIOS update but the BIOS updates on my 250 G5 used to fuck up my boot sequence and only Ubuntu saved the day. 09:54 It's 13:22 now and it's getting cold, maybe the rain will come soon, Mama has gone to the shops and I am cooking the rice. 22:05 slight angina, took disprin and it went away. Will go for ECG this week.

27/09/2020 03:38 CAT Sunday Have decided to resign as CFO, care giver, security and projrect manager. Let Mama take over she is so so clever. I have power of attorney. Shame she has done so much for me but she can moan, i have to be very patient with her but it's difficult. Anyway I have to stick with her she is old and ill and I love her, she loves me too. I updated Debian Buster 10.5 to 10.6, Mageia Beta 8 and PCLinuxOS on the HP Celeron 250 G5. There where a few updates on the Lenovo S145 which did not need rebooting even though I like to reboot even after Linux updates. I am still waiting for the rain, maybe today. The garden is so dry and on the South Coast normally all the flora is so green. When Jabu and I went to the funeral I could not believe how dry it was. It's cloudy and cold outside 16 C, so I will dress warmly from 08:00 when the cold hits me. I take my meds at 08:00 and anything between 20:00 and midnite depends if I want the cramps to hit me from the Risperdal. I shall see how it goes on 1.5mg nochte. Tired of these fucking cramps since 2003 when I checked out of Tara (THMC). No Doctor ever told me that Risperdal causes cramps, I found out in Pennington first from an African Doctor at Pennington clinic when he reduced my dosage after I complained of cramps in my ankels, they don't tell you straight, hey man these meds will cause you never to fuck again just take them. Fucking bullshit, destroyed my sex life and now it's worse since October 2017. And you want me to do what, go to GJC and have a ECG so they can give me a disprin and send me home like they almost did to Miss M. 05:55 time to upload. I have to wake up Mama for church and make Jabu a cup of tea. I had the house to myself for two hours and am on Manjero 20.1 now but can't get the spell check to work. Works fine in Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta but not PCLinuxOS. The day goes by quickly and Jabu returns home early from work. We have a sort of phutu and wors with gravy and pele pele for supper. I say sort of phutu as the mielie meel during lock down will not turn into phutu Jabu says and she is a fucking good chef. Unlike my dear Carina whom only made me French toast. To think about it did I mention I have had two houses in my lifetime and a flat. My last house was on a 1600 square m propery and we had three cars but since 2003 I have stayed with my folks in a 320 sqaure m double story house Tata took 19 years to build on weekends. He managed to finish the en suite bathroom and soon passed away after that. He could do any job as he was taught first in technical school in Poland before he became an Electrical engineer at varsity. I was good at electrical work, plumbing and woodwork. I plumbed the first house servants quarters when I was younger. And I once worked at an electrical and plumbing company where I did a bit of plumbing, now I can't get it right to change a tap washer, the have made the holes smaller and it takes Zack and I to do it with pliers. 23:59

28/09/2020 00:30 CAT Monday At last it started to rain yesterday afternoon and is still raining. How nice to freshen up the land and fill the water tanks. No swimming for me this week just as I put up the pool. It's supposed to rain all day today and I pray it does. I am cheating a bit as I listen to online Mass whilst I type. I took my meds just now, as long as I take them I should be ok. Unless of course the electronic pulse frequncies start hitting me, I have not been in hospital since January 2016. Let's make it another 12 year record. I have not been smoking plain hand rolled fags for two days now. But my chest is tight right now. Been smoking since I was eighteen. Lets hope I live till eighty something like some of my smoker friends of my folks did. So as I sit here on my CEO's office chair which must be eighteen years old and the leather is coming off, I wonder where I will be in five years time, worse off or better off. Lets hope better. I feel less anxious these days and Jabu gives me strenght and support. 01:08 tierd, time to sleep. 05:51 Pity it's still not raining as I wake up. A new cloudy day. I am now having hassles with updating Manjero 20.1, don't have time for this shit, the database is corrupt. I knew there was somthing wrong when I booted into Mangero 20.1 and there where no updates, Windows 10 on my S145 is not much better it will not install a Lenovo update even though I flashed the BIOS just fine last night. My MX 1100 does not work too well on Windows 10 either, the MX 1100 must be more than ten years old. Like I said I have three MX 1100's, one is dead, one is half fucked and the MX 1100 on my 250 G5 grafts just fine so far. I think I will stick with Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta for now. At least the spell check works, Arch is not so great if the update database gets corrupt after a week or so and I only used Mangero 20.1 for a few days, I spent an hour trying to fix the PGP signature issue and got pissed off and booted into Windows 10 at 16:30. Never had this shit with Mageai either than when I was being hacked like with Mangero 20.1 now. 07:10 Windows 10, installed all the web browsers just about avaiable. Anyway having fun with Windows 10 now.20:20. 21:59 All seems to be working well with Windows 10 on my S145, on the 250 G5 Celeron Windows 10 was fucking slow. Now everything flies except for the updates which Linux is much better at speed wise. Fucking irratating these pop ups that I have tweleve days left to purchase an anti virus, now I forgot what I was going to type.

29/09/2020 06:51 CAT Tuesday Don't remember what time we retired last night but it was a wonderfull evening. As project manager I am still planning what renovations to do next. Mama and I disagree on the electrics. After the wireman was here in August 2017 he found twenty six points of non compliance which Kwelea Electrical let slide in Febuary 2012. Now I have to repair them. The quote in August 2017 was 8500 Rand including the COC. But I want to do something differnet, I want to replace all the pull switches for the luminaires as they keep fucking out. One fucked out last night in Mama's bedroom. Mama purchased the place of photo and in the pics there where normally toggle light switches. So Sally sent us old pics of the place which the Terblanches could not sell for three years. The only caveat about this place is that it is frightfully cold in winter. 08:25 The sun is shining, no clouds and we did not have much rain. I have been using Windows 10 since November 2017 when Mama purchased the 250 G5 Celeron for me, what a pleasure using Windows 10 on an i5 with 8 gigs of RAM. I have not had the oppurtunity to use Virutal box yet. The only hassle is on my S145 the boot process is very slow but once the OS is up and running it flies. I have four browsers open now as well as explorer and the Lenovo Control Center. I think I will stick with Windows 10 for a few days or untill it needs a reboot. Lenovo is supposed to be a hell of a good machine company but the S145 does not work well on Linux like I said, did I mention I installed PClinuxOS yesterday and still cannot get the WIFI to work. I use USB tethering to update and connect on PCLinuxOS. I am not going to use Virtualbox on Windows 10 as it has failed 80% of the time in the past on my 250 G5 Celeron. Talking about my Celeron I think I am in Mageia Beta 8 now and will see what updates there are. Just eight updates, I updated most of them last night. It's Jabu's day off so she is fast asleep whilst Siphokazi is preparing the kitchen cubboards to be painted with clear varnish. I have yet to update Windows 10 on my 250 G5 but I think I will leave it as it requires 2.6 Gigs of data. Mama just woke up 08:56. It's bad when there are two project managers in the house. Well these last few days I have been working a bit in the mornings, oops it's 09:17 time to take my meds. How time flies, it's 09:59 already and I have yet to have breakfast, I am not feeling hungry as Mama baked some bread yesterday and we had an enormous spinach roll. I have had a crap the third time in a row this morning, this constipation baffels me. Once I have to take liquid parrafin and epsom salts or Lexan herbs every fourth day and sometimes I don't, I have been advised by one of my online Doctors not to use epsom salts. I still need to sort out my ECG. I received a $60 donation towards my ECG. My Paypal button works. Last night I took the ED herbs and I did not have a burning in my chest. Mrs M says it's gas but I think I will believe what one of my online Doctors says that it's Angina. Like I said I have stopped smoking plain hand rolled fags and my mouth feels much cleaner. Now to get some funds to purchase a three month course of stop smoking meds which cost 2000 Rand and I have yet to find out if bipolar folks can take them. Ten years ago they could not as they would go manic. 10:13 Let me have a break. Had pichards and rice for supper and a lot of kissing and hugging after supper. Jabu fell asleep whilst Mama was busy in the kitchen. I was watching "Adults only" a lot of twirking buttocks when the power went of. Really pissed me of, in Rnadburg we did not have power failures every five minutes except for load shedding. I must have fallen asleep around 23:50 on the couch.

30/09/2020 04:32 CAT Wednesday My A20 02:00 alarm did not wake me. Only the Cubot Manito wakes me. Am listening to Mass. Siphokazi sanded the kitchen cubboards yesterday and started to paint, she is coming back to finish today. Mama is having guests for lunch so it will be a bit tricky. Praise be to Jesus Christ another month is almost over in this covid-19 world. We are at lockdown level one, hardly anyone wears their masks anyway. 05:50 Looks like it's going to be a cloudy day and I did the laundry last night. Forecast is moya. A lot of moya. The laundry should dry, that's my job, the laundry and dishwasher. Last night I had elbow pain and this morning I have as well. It's not from sleeping on the couch as I sleep on my left side and my right elbow is more painful. I drink 1.5 litres of fluid a day as recommended by the Minster of Health. I am enjoying Windows 10 on my S145 yet I see the fan goes off often even when idle. HWMonitor goes mad. I will reboot after a few days into Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta and should have a nice lot of updates. I will never have a Joomla website again, It's beyond the scope of my knowledge to restore when hacked especially when I am psychotic. A HTML website like this I can restore in a few hours from my backups on my flash drives. I am used to my 250 G5 Celeron which does not have a fan. I suppose you wondering how it is possible that I receive a 350 Rand unemployment grant when I have all this hardware. Well the wild black cat has brung me good luck, she comes every day to the door and walks through the house sometimes. I feed the black cat every day. When I was penny less, Mr R gave a large donation and that started the ball rolling. Since then funds have just rolled in. It feels better not having to live day by day. So Mama and I can now afford to do renovations a bit to make the house a bit nicer to live in. We can't agree on the electrics though. Mama has something in her head about the roof when the electrics are more important, like I said thanks to Kwela Electrical of Pennington there are 26 points of non compliance to make good. Jabu went off to work at 07:20 without saying goodbye, Siphokazi arrived at 07:02. I have yet to find out what Jabu's pluck was this morning. Time to prepare my meds for 08:00. Jabu said that I told her not too talk loud to Siphokazi as I did not want them to wake Mama so Jabu got pissed off. Well what a small world we live in, memories memories, on the 28/09/202 Mama purchased from Mrs B of Secondchances in Pennington some picture frames, a dinning room chair (which I do not want and there is no space for) and a top for Xmas for Jabu. The top is suitable for a ninety year old. I Whatsapp Mrs B if she could deliver this morning and no reply. This is the same Mrs B that in March 2016 when my brother and Mama put the house on sale, I called to have a look which furniture she could buy from me. She sent George instead, another one of those with "i am so blessed" all over his truck so is Mr B's profile pic on WhatsApp to purchase my tools. George had a look at my tools and said he will come back to me with a price. He came back and said he could take all the tools and see what he can get for them. I thought fuck the house will sell quickly so I let George take my tools. The fucker came back with 1600 Rand for 20 000 Rand, more like 30 000 Rand worth of tools. I paid 60 Rand for a Stanley knife the other day. I must say George came back for some 80-200mm crimpers and gave me 200 Rand, they where new. I still have my megger and 240/380 volt tester. I was just discharged from hospital in January 2016 and was quite vunlerable. Mr C paid me a good price for my grinder and electrical spares which I need now to finish the electrics. I kept one 6 foot step ladder and my electrical tools. What the fuck, I think I will slowly fix the 26 points myself. Just need to purchase a strong rechargeable LED light as the DB is in a dark cubboard. Small world, I wonder what is Mrs B's pluck now, she has Mama's 680 Rand but does not deliver the goods. Siphokazi finished painting the kitchen cubboards and touched up where she had made a fuck up. At 12:08 Mama's quests arrived and they had lunch and are chatting, I am yet to eat today. Jabu said she will cook me chicken feet and dumplings. It turns out Mama had cooked for us. 14:50 The guests departed at 15:27 and in the meantime the monkeys climbed into Mama's bedroom up a gutter 2000 mm up. Looking for something to eat. I chased them away and they concentrated on getting into the open window of a car. At 15:47 Mrs B delivered the chair, top and frames after I complained to Mrs P her good friend. If only Mrs B had answered my Whatsapp early this morning which she read there would not be all this shit. Jabu has gone to sleep (21:40), I am the kiss and hug type of guy. Windows 10 is more responsive than Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta, I seemed to have a lag as I type in 20.10 Beta. What happened to my magazines during this covid-19, no more of my fav mag. I am blessed (now here I go) with this new machine. I hope it last me at least ten years like my previous laptops or more. As long as Gnome and KDE Plasma do not become too bloated. I would like to upgrade to 16 Gigs of RAM by a specialist so I don't loose the warranty. My swap is 16 on Ubuntu, Mangero and PCLinuxOS, I don't know how the PGP update signature in Mangero 20.1 could fuck out in less than ten days and four days of use, bullshit OS. I spent 90 minutes trying to fix it and that's enough, goodbye Mangero 20.1. Arch sucks. Fucking piece of shit worked so well in the begining. True as fuck if Mageia 8 final does not work on this machine I will crack. I always have Windows 10 if Microsoft does not make a fuck up with there updates, they should not, I paid a lot of bucks for Windows 10 unlike the rest, only data costs to download Linux OS and time. Well folks my clock has changed these last few days it's 22:00 exactly now and I am sitting on Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta. Let me open the window it"s getting a bit stuffy in here. Telkom fucked up everything when they pulled out of Pennington with no prior notice so we don't have ADSL but they are laying a fibre cable, hope it gets to us. I pay a fortune in data costs. 23:20 I am sitting and watching "adult only XXX" a lot of twirking and boobs music videos when I think let me try Mangero 20.10 one last time and choose only one mirror.

01/10/2020 00:00 CAT Thursday I boot into Mangero 20.10 no luck with my plan. Pity the WIFI and touchpad works. Useless to have a system that does not update. So I boot into Windows 10 and download the newly released Fedora KDE Plasma 33 Beta, released at 17:00 CAT on the 29/09/2020. WIFI works not the touchpad on my S145, have 478 updates, no updates at 06:12. I retired at 02:32. So it's up to Windows 10 and Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta to keep me going. I will try fix the touchpad problem in Fedora later when I have time. For now being the 1st I am going to have the morning off and spend the day with Jabu, she also has the day off. BTW the MX 1100 works wonders on Fedora 33 Beta so does the boot loader. During the Live process I almost had to hit the left button with a four pound hammer for the mouse to click, same on Windows 10, this mouse is fucked. Can't look a gift horse in the mouth, re Lenovo Idealpad S145 i5 8 Gig RAM, not so ideal for Linux OSes but it keeps me busy. I am just loving Window 10, what a pleasure after my HP 250 G5 Celelron. Problem is the more one uses Windows 10 the more it fucks out, I uninstalled the anti virus last night, it kept fucking me around. I will trust Defender. these anti virus are very intrusive. So what does the project manager have planned for next week. The electrics if I can get hold of a rechargeable LED light, spares are no problem to purchase. Will have to consult with Mama. I am an unhappy chappy when I don't have Mageia installed on my machine. 08:00 time to take my meds and upload. 09:45 my Logitech Mx Master 2S was delivered, I am now testing it out on Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta, so far so good. Works 100% and on Windows 10 too, what a pleasure, time to mothball my ten year old MX 1100 which I have been battling with like shit. Thank you Mama. I still have not had time to set up NFS, like I said I used to be able to do it blind folded. I start watching "adult only XXX" but retire at 23:16...

02/10/2020 02:00 exactly CAT Friday Had a good few hours sleep. Updated Mageia Beta, Ubuntu 20.4.1 on my 250 G5 and there where no updates on my S145 with Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta. The 2S is working well, the only reason I purchased the S2 was that the Logitech website said it works on Windows, Mac and Linux. The 2s should last me another ten years. Did I mention I have a Microsoft mouse which must be eighteen years old and works 100% on Linux. I used to have three or more of them but I don't know where they are now except for one which I used to use on my Acer Semptron which I purchased between 2003 and 2006. The HDD is failing soon otherwise it works 100%. I don't have space for all these machines in my Ocean view office. In August 2012 and 2013 I could see the Ocean from certain rooms in the house but the trees have grown high now at the buurmense and we have no view. Rain rain at last, It came down last night. Tomorrow's forecast is heavy rain. The garden was so dry, no swimming for me. Hold on It's October 2020, time to start watching Xmas music video's as I have always done in October. I don't care if the touchpad does not work on the S145 on some Linux OSes now that my S2 is grafting 100%. Gone are the time share days when I used to take my Centrino Duo with me on holiday. I used to go on time share alone tri annually just to get away in the bush. I used to love going to Carina's farther's cattle and game farm. I have not been on holiday since October 2012 bar our honeymoon on North beach Ethekweni. Jabu and I really had a good time, I would not mind going by taxi to uShaka. I can't wait to make this house SABS 0142-1, it really bugs me. Like I said when I moved in I was quite happy with the socket outlets, copper cable and luminaires as they reminded me of Pilgrim's Rest to which I have been tons of times, untill the wireman from Ethekweni said otherwise in August 2017. The choke in the kitchen luminaire caught alight this year. 05:28 the birds are chirping even in the cloudy weather, what a lovely peaceful place Pennington is. 05:45 sunrise is near, let me check and upload. Retired at 23:08....

03/10/2020 04:32 CAT Saturday Slept late again. Today God willing my bike mechanic from Umzinto Mr Ra is arranging me an electrician to come out and give me a quote to do the electrical work. It's pissing down with rain and forecast of flash flooding so let's hope the electrician pitches up as the five others have not. Two work part time and two are supposed to be self employed, one was the original wireman from Ethekweni. In the meantime I have updated Ubuntu Linux 20.04.1 on my 250 G5 and am busy updating Mageia 8 Beta with a new kernel also on the 250 G5. Siphokazi was here yesterday and as usual she did a good job at cleaning the house which is only 140 squares so not much to clean except that there is a lot of furniture unlike Mama and Tata's mansion in Randburg which was 320 squares live able. All measurements in this book are S.I. So far in August and September 2020 we have:

Let me reboot Mageia 8 Beta on my 250 G5 now and see if all is ok, one should always reboot Linux OS after a new kernel and if there are many updates to see if all works koscher. Ladies and gents we have X, the new kernel is 5.8.13 on Mageai 8 Beta. Looks good for my S145. Like I said only Fedora 33 Beta, Mangero 20.1 and Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta has the WIFI working on my S145, I am very disappointed with Mangero 20.1 that there is a PGP signature fuck up after less than a month of use. No train smash as Linus brings out the new kernels my machine will soon work stock with all Linux OSes. I have not complied my own kernel in years. Like I said due to my disability I am limited to working from midnight till 06:30 since 2003 and again from 11:00 till 20:00. I dought I will find a night shift job in Umdoni with no transport. Mama says I should work during the morning and cut the tree branches, like fuck. Maybe I should put a broom stick up my bum and drag it along behind me whilst I am about it. 06:11 Jabu will have a guest at 06:30 who is a domestic in a house nearby and they are best friends but have not seen each other for a long time. Her guest Miss S arrived at 13:00 whilst I was having my power nap and left at 14:50 in the pouring rain, I lent her my raincoat top which is too small for me and I used to use on the TSR in the rain. I used to grow my own pele pele and tomatoes in Randburg, In Pennington in 2012-2014 I only grew pele pele, lettuce and spinach, I think it's time to do so again, takes ninety days for the pele pele to rippen, though in this fertile soil I should get two crops with the right amount of rain. Pity I once had 53 tomatoe bushes in Randburg but no such luck here the monkeys will eat them. Being an Electrical engineer Tata did the electrical installation at Randburg himself with steel conduit in those days, the guy who did the COC in 2011 said magic. The only electrical maintenance I had in Randburg was to change the lamps and water heater element. I don't really care if the touchpad works on my S145 now that I have the S2. The S2 works magic. How I battled with my ten year old MX 1100, once again many thanks Mama and Mrs M from South Africa. 06:53 I will test and upload now, woke Jabu up with a cup of tea as requested this morning. Jabu will be going to her mothers for one week on Monday so I will not see her. This is our last weekend together and it saddens me that I do not have my own houses/flats like I had in Gauteng. I have only received one Paypal donation in four years for this book and that was last month, the month of angina/heart attacks. Lets hope when I kick the bucket it's in the arms of Jabu. My Doctor has advised me not to take ED herbs. I have yet to go for an ECG and blood tests but I will wait till my next angina attack then the ambulance can take me to GJC casualty if it's not too late. I am feeling much better on 1.5mg Risperdal at night with no ankel cramps so far. The other meds I take as directed. We will see when I go to the clinic this month if there is another incomplete parcel. Like I said it is over 3200 Rand's worth of meds I receive monthly for 45 Rand for six months. Not bad. I hereby certify that the Logitech MX Master 2S works 100% on Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta. The drought has broken, it's raining. Let me get my cup of tea and test and upload. 07:15 08:25 Unfortunatly due to my constipation and the toilet not being able to handle my large turds, I have to cut them up with a 300 mm knife blade before I flush. 16:35 Mama and I battled financially the first half of 2020. The cats started to come to visit especially the wild black cat. She would walk through the house and look for food till I started to feed her, as if an angel came from heaven Mr R donated 5000 Rand in June 2020. Then in September 2020 I received my first Paypal donation of $60. The electrician did not phone today and I have decided to leave the electrics as is till I buy the spares and do the job myself, don't care a fuck anymore, hassle is if I am short of a part I don't have transport to drive off to Park Rynie and buy the spares straight away. In Randburg I had so many contacts I could find an electrician if need be in five minutes, this South Coast is really fucked up. Unfortuantly most of my friends left for Australia thirteen year ago. In the last quarter of 2011 my brother wanted Mama and I to move to the Isle of White. But I like South Africa and I will die here unless of course I am on holiday overseas and I peg on holiday. I have visited eight countries in Europe in my lifetime. And been all over South Africa. I would love to take Jabu to Poland especially Zakopane. I will not recognise Warsaw anymore from the pics my uncle has sent me of the skyscrapers that have gone up. The president of the USA has Covid-19 now. I am afraid of Mama whom takes daily walks to the beach and shops. But at least she keeps fit. I retire at 23:05...

04/10/2020 05:30 CAT exactly Sunday My Cubot Manito wakes me. I don't know what is going on but I am sleeping late these days. Mama was up already and getting ready for church. I have yet to watch online Mass. It's cloudy and gloomy outside. I have a nice view of the garden and outside security gate from my office as well as the street. Jabu is up as well but still in bed, I already made her her cup of tea. I have for the last four years being paying off Doctor Ndlovu's debt little by little but the interest keeps building up as I am paying of a minimum amount. Don't give a fuck as long as I pay as per agreement with the debt collectors. March 2012 I had all my cards paid off. Bipolar folks tend to go crazy and spend too much, that's why I will not make the same mistake in the last quarter of 2020. The renovations are costly and Mama still wants to tile her bedroom but I am saving a lot by doing the renovations myself with Siphokazi. Just can't get hold of an oregan pine toilet seat and loo paper holder. Mama left for church at 07:23, I will watch online Mass now. 08:57 I wrote off my Merc C180 on the 5th Of December 2012 on the R102 opposite the Wrecked Heron sigh post. The first to arrive on the scene was a traffic cop who did not ask how I was but tore off my liscence disk. I put a blanket on my roof of the car after I had half rolled it and but all my belongings on the blanket. My GPS was stolen from the blanket. The ambulance arrived and wanted to take me to GJC but I asked them to take me home. For three weeks Jabu cared for me as my right shoulder was fucked from the impact of hitting the barrier from the safety belt. I don't know why the air bags did not go off. I always drive slowly on that stretch of road down the hill as there are trucks coming out onto the R102 from the Umdoni landfill. Anyway, the last time I drove a car to Scottburgh was two years ago with oom John's VW Golf, it felt as if I had been driving a car all these years. The second fastest I have driven on a bike was when I had my XJ 750 with Dorota on the back down a hill on the way to Haartebeespoort Dam at 210 on the clock. I have had tons of cars and bikes pre December 2012, now I am stuck with my Chinese TSR which breaks down every month. I will get to point B but i never know if I will get back to point A. Like I said we had a braai and I took it for a spin when I got back home according to Mr Ra the rectifier blew. Very nice of Zuma to allow all this Chinese shit into the country, I have a Seiko made in Japan which needs to be fixed as well as a 1992 Zippo lighter which still works. My washing machine was made in the the USA so was my fridge. The last time I checked APC UPS was made in Singapore. Even the Chinese AV cables are faulty. The only good thing that came out of China was my Cubot Manito but a new battery costs 500 Rand on ebay. Like I said my Acer Semptron is still grafting which I purchased in 2003-2006. My HP Centrino Duo lasted me at least over ten years, they manufacture shit now. We will see how long the S2 and S145 last. I am betting on five years. My 250 G5 will be three years old in November 2020 and works well but is too slow for Windows 10 and even Linux OSes. Will never purchase a Celeron again, for 1500 Rand more I at that time could have purchased an i3 even though Zack played COD Black Ops for five hours on the 250 G5 and he won the game. I am not much of a gamer. I enjoy typing my book and testing Beta versions of Linux. 09:27 Mama will be back from church soon. I enjoy the online Catholic Mass. The Linux guys put a lot of work into the distro's for free. So now on my S145 i am an Ubuntu guy, much prefer Fedora 33 Beta KDE Plasma but I will stick and learn Ubuntu Linux 20.10 for now. This morning I quickly popped into Windows 10 for a .NET update and Defender update. Windows 10 looks good and I have the right boot loader from Fedora 33 Beta except it will not boot Mangero 20.1, I have to go into the BIOS to do that. Sunny skies will soon be here and I will be able to swim in my above ground pool, that reminds me, I need to empty it a bit as the rain has filled the pool up to 90%. I wonder is "sudo bash" still works, need to give it a shot. Can't wait for Mageia 8 final to be released, the Beta 1 is going well on my 250 G5. I will wait another week before I boot into PCLinux OS to see if there is a new kernel which will allow my WIFI to work. Like I said I have given up on Manjero 20.1 don't have the time to fuck around. Two hours is enough. 11:00 had homemade pizza for brunch. Jabu bought the base this time and Mama and I baked the topping. Delicious. 13:22 just woke from my power nap, Jabu is sleeping. I am a bit bored now. My four USB 3.0 ports have stopped working a few days ago on my twin fan cooler. They still charge the S2 and MX 1100 but if I plug a flash drive in they are dead. Had this problem before, will have to sort out tomorrow morning. Worked fine just the other day. Always something. 23:42 You might wonder why I hire a girl to do handyman work. Well most of the guys I have had bar one where either drunkards or sgebengu's. The one guy I hired turned out to be a real sgebengu, whilst I was in hospital he stole my fags, watch (not the Seiko) and a Samsung smartphone. Only one guy was good and he stayed with me for a long time in 2012 but decided to return to the Eastern Cape. Siphokazi is also Xhosa but her work is very good and I teach her the building trade, mostly painting for now. Even though she taught me something when we where doing a concrete mix.

05/10/2020 00:00 CAT Monday I will now proceed to update. No updates on Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta, lets try Mageia 8 Beta 1. A few updates, not much happens on the weekend. No new kernel on PCLinuxOS on my S145, Fedora 33 Beta had a few. I fell asleep at 02:32 and woke at *.*, Jabu was packing, She is going to work then her mother's place for the week. Once again I watched her walk down the street and waved good bye. 10:42 Siphokazi is painting the curtain rails. She arrived for work just after 07:15. Paint job looks good so far. All going as planned and on schedule. Looks like my four USB ports on my twin cooler have fucked out. I can only charge the MX 1100 and S2. Windows 10 which I booted into this morning gave an error that the USB 3.0 are fucked. Pity I like to have an extra four USB 3.0 ports. 10:49 tea time, I will have my power nap when Siphokazi is gone to the clinic. Mama left for her walk to the beach and shops. 12:00 lunch time. 21:33 Had a nice power nap after 18:00 and feel fresh now. Chatted with Jabu just now. I will miss her this week. 21:37 let me upload this now. 22:15-23:59 watching a movie.

06/10/2020 00:11 CAT Tuesday Finished watching a movie. 00:15 Some updates on Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta. 00:23 Listening to online Mass now. Pause, make coffee. 00:34 continue listening to Mass. 01:02 Amen 01:10 take meds. 01:17 Another movie but let me first upload. Had power naps till 06:30 08:00 After breakfast painting again. 14:15 knock off work. Update Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta and Mageia Linux 8 Beta 1.

07/10/2020 02:00 exactly CAT Wednesday listen to online Mass. Update Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta and Mageai 8 Beta 1. Watch movies. At 10:28 I boot into Mangero 20.1 and a pop up tells me I have 234 updates. Fuck me George. I did no further attempt to fix Mangero 20.1 PGP update issue since I last bitched that Mangero was not updating. In all I have spent three hours trying to get the PGP issue sorted last week. So I installed the 234 updates and for now Mangero 20.1 updates again out the blue, can't rely on Mangero 20.1, once it updates once it does not and it looks like a very nice Arch based KDE Plasma OS. So now I have Windows 10, Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta, Fedora 33 Beta and Mangero 20.1 (maybe) working on my S145, I tried to fix PCLinuxOS via USB tethering but no go, the WIFI still does not work. 11:18 will upload now. Will test Mangero 20.1 during the course of the week and will learn the command line if Mangero 20.1 updates. Simplicity, I hope it stays that way. 11:36 unless I am being hacked again and the helpful hackers fixed Mangero 20.1 KDE Plasma for me running kernel 5.9. It's my day off today from renovations. Need to get hold of a an extension step ladder. 11:55 lunchtime. Did not feel like eating today so no breakfast and lunch. Mama came back from Scottburgh at 15:35, after witnessing a horrible ordeal. Two taxi's had crashed and one guy was been beaten with sticks and kicked. Mrs M of Pennington and Mama decided to go to church to pray for him. So I had a big supper of mince and spagetti at 17:45. A nice peaceful day alone. 18:43 Lets boot into Mangero 20.1 KDE Plasma and see if it updates through the command line. It does. *.* Fell asleep on couch and woke up at .....

08/10/2020 00:01 CAT Thursday Take meds and switch to online Mass. No updates for Mangero 20.1 nor Fedora 33 Beta hmmm. Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta has some updates on the S145. Mageia 8 Beta 1 has a new kernel on my 250 G5. 00:54 Mass is ended. Let me reboot Mageia 8 Beta 1 on my 250 G5, Ubuntu Linux 20.04.1 and update. Failed to retrieve updates, selecting a new mirror, internal error, reboot. So far Mageai 8 Beta 1 is giving me the least amount of shit. 01:12 Lets give 20.04.1 another bash. 01:27 done with the 250 G5. Felling a bit sleepy let me have a nap. 02:21. Alarm woke me at 07:00 exactly. 08:20 no updates for Mageia 8 Beta 1. Lets check out Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta. No updates either. At last I got hold of an electrician and he will come give a quote next week. If Jabu is not working she is still sleeping, I will phone her just now. Time to take my meds. 13:00 Mama cooks a nice brinjal and potatoe bake lunch. Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta recons I need to reboot after a few updates so I will do so at 14:12. 19:35 All I seem to be doing is updates. Fourteen updates on Mageia 8 Beta 1 and a new kernel for Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta. Can't wait for Friday late afternoon, I have a surprise install for me. Friday will be very very busy. As the 22nd of October 2020 draws closer I am enjoying using Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta and Windows 10. I just did not enjoy the seven hour feature update from Microsoft, even on my 250 G5 I never had such a long install of a feature update. Anyway Windows 10 is doing well and my S145 will be one month old on the 16/10/2020, how time flies. Well blow me over, who would think I would spend my time, 80% using Ubuntu Linux. I have always been an RPM guy other than using Debian Buster 10.6 by force on my 250 G5 as my Mageia was continually hacked. As you know my first boxed set was Red Hat 6.1 then I went on to Red Hat 7.* and as of Fedora Core 2 I changed over to Mandrake then Mandriva. From Mandriva I went on to Mageia and then Debian and now Ubuntu Linux. I had an i5 overclocked Desktop in Randburg and Pennington which the mobo gave up on me. That was some machine, I forget to how many Ghz I managed to overclock it to. I had a overclocking mobo. It now lies mothballed together with my AMD desktop. With all this load shedding one needs a laptop anyway. I recon I can get three hours of battery life out the S145, I tried it out the other night watching movies and I fell asleep during the movie. So basically I am very happy with my gift of the Lenovo S145 i5 laptop and hereby certify that it works on Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta as long as one installs dkms, git and build essential. The touchpad works 100"s. Well done Ubuntu Linux guys. I will wait till Mageai 8 Final is released as I am having no joy with PCLinuxOS on this machine. Fedora 33 Beta WIFI works but not the touchpad. Come to think of it I have not tried to sort it out yet. Mangero 20.10.1 is dicy once it updates once it does not. I have had quite a almost month with this machine. My Ubuntu Linux 20.04.1 is rock solid on my 250 G5. Just it's the local mirrors that seem to fuck me around the most especially on Mageia 8 Beta 1. 20.33 let me see what's on TV. Bit boring without Jabu here. But the surprise is that she arrives after work tomorrow, Friday. I ride with my TSR to the Pennington clinic tomorrow at around 12:00. Lets hope all my meds are there and I don't receive an incomplete parcel again. Need to remember to take my mask with. Will have to be screened first before I receive my meds. About time I took the TSR for a spin after I have spent so much bucks repairing it and making it roadworthy. Just a bit rusted from standing outside as we don't have a garage. I miss my XJ 750, 90 in first gear at top RPM. Now that was a bike in those days. We had open fields in Randburg when I was a kid and we used to use them as a motocross track but they have since been fenced off. My friend had a thumper now that was power. When my horse comes in I will take Jabu to a bike rally and camping in the berg during summer. Even in summer the rivers have ice cold water high up in the berg. South Africa is a fab holiday destination. My favourite is Mpumulanga with Grasskop, Pilgrims Rest, Blyde river canon and Sabie. The Kruger Park is full of elephants and once with Carina we must have spotted 12 in one day. I have never seen an Ingwe in the wild. Bush babies are so qute at night. And the dangerous buffolo, , I have been within a few meters of a rhino on horseback. Last time Jabu and I rode a horse was in 2012 at the underberg. When I went with Mama for timeshare in October 2012 it was one hell of a ride, looking down to the left was a sheer drop. I don't think I could get onto a horse today. I rode horses from the age of fourteen till October 2012 and then on that fateful day of 5th December 2012 the devil took my Merc away from me. February 2013 till end August 2016 my TSR was fine. I used to visit Mama at Summerhill Lodge Scottburgh for the day once or twice a week for lunch. When the house was put on sale I became more anxious and depressed. lucky Mama had a place to come back to end July 2018. Unfortunatly she is a bit unfair and even though it's her house she has taken over everything, even though I sort out all the paper work and bills for her. I am her caregiver as well and she needs one believe me. Anyway the 12/10/2020 will be our fourth month that Jabu and I are back together. I miss her dearly when we are apart for extended periods of time. I will only upload this late Friday or Saturday morning as I don't like writing into the future. Wishing myself luck on my two kilometer ride to the Pennington clinic. Retired at 23:59 after watching "adults only XXX"..

09/10/2020 05:51 CAT Friday Home brew coffee and a new day. Siphokazi comes at 07:15 to clean the house. At 11:15 I start to prepare to go to the Pennington clinic. I leave at 11:50 after checking my TSR. All looks good. The R102 is closed due to a sinkhole for the last few months, the sinkhole came about must be two years ago. Lucky after three years ago there is an alternate route to Scottburgh and the Pennington clinic which I new about. What a harrowing experience. A narrow road full of potholes where barely two cars fit. I came back the scenic route past the shops, before that I hit such a large pothole I don't know how my TSR made it, I will have to inspect her tomorrow. I get screened and wait for my meds. It takes a while as the Sister who knows me very well cannot find the meds. Eventually I receive a large plastic bag of meds. Oh yes prior to this I somehow twisted my strap on my helmet and could not get it undone. I thought I would have to ask the Sister to help me get my helmet off but after a few minutes somehow managed. At 15:40 Jabu arrives for the weekend. We have fish and chips for supper and Jabu brought along some paw paw. We retire in each other arms at 22:16....

10/10/2020 01:17 CAT Saturday. Brew my coffee brew, Mama is still watching her news channels. I wake up and my elbows are painful, I take my meds. My chest feels like something is pushing on it. Damn elbows, I don't know what it is. In Randburg I had a Zippo lighter in just about every room. Now lately in Pennington I have one in my Office and one in the TV room where I spend most of my day. I use the 1992 model Zippo in my office which I battled to get to work as I made a mixture of parrafin and meths to try to get it to work during lock down level 4 to no avail. After flushing it with Zippo fluid it now works. My 2012 model Zippo lighter I use in the TV room and when I go out. Mama makes sure the house is well ventulated even in winter. As Mama went to bed and Jabu is fast asleep I will upload now and watch a movie, let me check out Distrowatch first. Mageai is normally released on weekends. The Mass is ended go in peace. 02:22 check and upload. PS as usual I updated Mageai 8 Beta 1 on my 250 G5 and 20.10 Beta on my S145. 02:35 I did not check first if is resolving but after upload it is not. 02:45. Hosting does not work weekends. As I brew my second mug It starts pouring with rain. We need the rain and the weekend is forecast for rain and cold, 21/19 C. 02:58 always on a Friday afternoon my domain goes down. Thinking of it actually 60% of Pennington's roads are potholed, soon they will be dirt roads. How times have changed since March 2012. Lucky for my TSR which can handle these potholes looks like it. Sometimes one has to drive straight through pothole as there is an oncoming car coming. Nothing to download tonight, where is Mageai 8 Beta 2 ?. I have plenty space on my HDD. I will boot into Windows 10 on the 13/14 to check for patch Tuesday. Like I said the 12th Of October is Jabu's and I forth month anniversary back together. 05:06 still not resolving. 05:30 the sun is rising, I thing I will give it a weekend break from these continual updates and concentrate on my wife Jabu who is only here for the weekend. 05:31 A rainy cold weekend coming, time too upload and hope after 08:00 my site is up again. 07:06 will upload now, have a blessed day.

11/10/2020 03:30 CAT Sunday Need to wake Mama at 05:45 today for Mass whilst I now listen to online Mass. Going to do the reboot thing and update all my OSes. Had a nice lazy day with Jabu yesterday. Windy, cold and cloudy. Had beef stew and pap for late lunch. Delicious. Today the weather forecast is even colder. Where is summer. I am getting a bit bored of online Mass, it's the same story every day for the last few months except for the readings. I used to enjoy going to Wednesday Mass with Mama when she lived in Scottburgh. In 2012 I used to drop Mama off at Mass at Park Rynie and go do the shopping at the mall and come back to fetch her. Now she relies on lifts to Mass. Mass is at eight so she has to get up early. She enjoys the new Priest's sermon. My best friend in Randburg always used to say why I don't just come into the church when I used to pick Mama up from Mass after her car was stolen on June 16th *.*. There are five Catholic churches nearby if one has a car. Like I said it's easy to get to Umzinto by taxi but getting back to Pennington is a mission. Jabu somehow manages but she has lived here most of her life and her mother used to be a Catholic in her younger days. I would not mind going to uShaka in Ethekweni with Jabu on a hot Friday day by taxi. I have never been. All is quite except for the CPU fan going off on my S145. I am used to the fan less 250 G5. My wild black cat visits daily for scraps and even runs into the house. According to Google a black cat is supposed to give good luck and prosperity. Which I have been having lately since late July 2020 when it all started with Mr R from the USA. Now since then and August in particular I have something to do during the day and work from anywhere from 23:00 till 14:30. Being a project manager is not easy especially with Mama around. It's 04:58 now and I can hear the birds starting to chirp. Let me make myself a mug of tea as the clock strikes 05:00. There is a glimmer of light breaking through the clouds on this Covid-19 day. I remember the days of plenty when the harvest was good pre August 2018. Then all went downhill and the shit started to come from London in the form of a 35 year old devil. As CFO for Mama's affairs I could not pay many of her bills in the first half of 2020. Till the angels came from heaven in the form of strangers and long lost friends in the third quarter of 2020 and saved Mama's and my bacon. Praise be to the Lord Jesus Christ and fuck those who fucked with us. Now Mama's house is starting to look like a home thanks to me even though we disagree on many of the renovations. Mama had nineteen years of renovations in Randburg and she says she has had enough now. So this month will be the last month of renovations. All I have left to do is give the kitchen and toilet ceiling a second coat of paint and the electrics to be done. Like I said I am not going to touch the electrics as if I need a part how am I going to get to Park Rynie to quickly buy the part. Mrs M of Pennington is always busy. We shall see this week what the quote will be for the socket outlets if the electrician pitches. I want to fix the 26 points in stages. This house was built either in the late 70's or early 80's going by the plumbing and electrics. Half of Pennington was a sugar plantation way back owned by Sir Richard. We will soon have fibre in Pennington so that is a blessing. 05:39 time to wake up Mama. It's light outside now not too cloudy but 14 C. As our last K9 was ripped apart by Gus, Jenny's K9 we have a lot of cats visiting from next door as well. Jabu is the expert snake killer, she takes shit from no one and has many contacts. I would be lost without her as my wing man. My prayers have almost been all answered, just two more. It's difficult getting Mama out of bed and it's 05:58 already, her lift comes at 07:00 sharp. In the unlikely event that Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta crashes and I have to reinstall I will be fucked as I don't remember what I did to get it working in the first place. So many OSes. That's why I like to have a few back up OSes on my machine that graft 100%. I am sure the final stock iso will not work on the S145. Anyway I have a good large / and a large /home partition for Ubuntu Linux 20.10. Like I said I will only try Mageia 8 once it is final, still a long way to go, maybe Xmas time 2020. 06:20 time to brew some coffee. Being the project manager for the renovations and reducing the mind bending intake of Risperdal (now I think clearer) I have managed to save thousands of Rands on the renovations and touch ups at Mama's house. Imagine if I had to get a pro painter in and general handyman. As it is I found a tiler for 70% of another quote. My black cat is indeed bringing me good luck, I see this morning I won the equivalent of eleven loaves of bread on the lotto. Mama left for church at 07:06 and at 07:37 we had a power failure. Only in Pennington. Had none of this shit in Randburg except for load shedding. When it rains, thunderstorm or someone farts the power goes off. Total fuck up, soon I will run out of firewood at this rate and my 80% of my firewood is wet. I only keep 20% dry. Gone are the ESC (easy slow comfortable) days. Jabu has gone to the shops now, I hope the generator is working at the shops. No fucking breakfast, I don't feel like taking the gas out. 08:32 let me test and upload, have a blessed Sunday to the believers and fuck the rest. 17:00 20.10 Beta "the software on this computer is up to date", Mageia 8 Beta 1 had two updates. 17:02 sleep, the machine not I. Prior to this when Jabu returned from the shops I packed the braai fire and fell asleep on the couch. When I woke up Jabu had already lit the fire. She did not want to wake me. We had a nice chicken flattie braai even though it was a bit windy and cool. We retired at 22:10...

12/10/2020 05:35 CAT Monday I had a good nights sleep, once again the A20 alarm did not wake me. Apparently Jabu says the alarm does wake me but I turn it off and go back to sleep. We have scrambled eggs for breakfast and toast. Kiss and hug goodbye and as usual I wave to Jabu as she walks down the street to work. I will see her again later in the week. In the meantime the cheeky twenty five year old came to work at 07:10. Siphokazi is giving the kitchen and toilet a second coat of paint. Siphokazi is like an unguided missile and thinks she knows everything. She really upset me this morning. She is dripping paint on the wooden wall and I told her previuosly to wipe the paint straight away with a damp cloth but she does not listen. Once the paint has dried one has to sand paper the paint off. At 08:30 I watched online Mass as usual. So my day began well with Jabu but full of shit from Siphokazi and Mama. Mama did not want me to paint a second coat, I don't want to leave the job half done. I have had enough of this shit, once the electrics are done that's it. 09:25 17:59 The painting inside is now finished. Busy updating. Will await the electrician this week, otherwise will leave the electrics alone, they have been like this since February/March 2012. 21:06 In four days it will be one month since I received the S145, how time flies. The buzz is over and I am used to the S145 now. I will stick with Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta for now. I opened Libre Office today and it opened in a millisecond. I was under the impression that there would be no more kernels for this Beta release but I just downloaded one so it's time to reboot. 21:21

13/10/2020 04:35 CAT Tuesday Basically did sweet fuck all today. Other than boot into Windows 10 awaiting patch Wednesday update (for South Africa) and played around with Windows 10 a bit. Fitted the new toilet seat in the afternoon. Mama went for her usual cardio walk. After supper I retired at 19:46 and had a nice bhepa in bed.

14/10/2020 02:00 CAT Wednesday exactly First the famous coffee brew and then updated Microsoft Windows NT 10 on the S145. In the meantime I updated 177 packages on Mageai 8 Beta 1 (250 G5) and a new kernel and updates all on my 250 G5 for Ubuntu Linux 20.04.1. By 03:00 all three where finished and listened to online Mass in the meantime as well. No renovations planned for the rest of the week till I get hold of an extension step ladder. Think I will watch a movie now. Looking forward to the weekend. God bless you this lovely summer morning, oh yes, I did swim a couple of times yesterday but the water was quite cool, my pool is under an enormous tree, it's the only place on the property really where there is flat ground but I of course made the ground level for the pool. What a difference an i5 makes compared to a Celeron. rkhunter flies. The 250 G5 Celeron gave me a bad opinion of Windows 10, but now I am quite content with Microsoft Windows NT 10 on my S145. Had a few updates on Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta just now but nothing to reboot for. It's not good to keep rebooting for a HDD. As I light my fag with my 1992 model Zippo ligher I say adious and see you later. 04:00. 06:22 the sun has risen a while back and soon the pedestrian traffic will start walking down our road as well as the cars heading for Scottburgh and North. 06:25 time to have a tea break. 11:20 nothing much to do now after my power nap, the meds put me to sleep, my wild black cat is here for the second time, this time for lunch. Lets update Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta on my S145. Mama woke at 09:42 this morning, she had a good sleep after watching the news channels till late. I did not feel like breakfast this morning so Mama is cooking home made hamburgers for brunch, a mixture of pork and beef. 11:37 Mama calls me for brunch. When I had AMPPOL IT Linux CD's & DVD's in full swing, I used to download hundred"s of gigs of iso's. 12:00 I like coffee after my meal. Whilst I am drinking my coffee at 12:23 there is another power failure. Time to bring out the gas, I feel like a spot of tea now. Dang power failures, not one power failure at night since I purchased my 1000 lumens LED lantern to work on the DB and for power failures at night. I hope when the electrician comes there is not a power failure as he has to drill two holes. 12:48 power back on. Maybe the guy at Simmerpan spilled his coffee on the control panel. Let me boil the kettle and have a wonderful afternoon with Mama. I am quite pissed off with ESC, they sent us a bill for 3000 Rand two months ago when our average usuage used to be 800/1000 Rand per month. Four call center agents and one email later and now the bill has been reduced to 2800 Rand, great. Bit boring when not doing renovations and Jabu not here. Let me have something cool to drink and upload. Don't feel like a swim but it's quite hot now so maybe I will jump in anyway. 15:00 At 19:36 Mrs M from Pennington and I had a disagreement. Mama was supposed to house sit her place this weekend till Tuesday to look after her cat. Fancy that Mrs M from Pennington did not even ask me if it's ok with me. I said nothing at first a week back but Mama has only 40% use of her right arm, is in continual pain from her fractured humerus (more than a year ago now) and never mind she is not feeling too well with her BPMD. Mrs M from Pennington is just like my brother, goes over my head and think they can do what they want. Fuck that I retired at 20:24 after having a chat with Jabu......

15/10/2020 02:15 CAT Thursday I woke after the A20 alarm went of repeatadly. 414 updates on Mageai 8 Beta 1 on my 250 G5. A new kernel for Ubuntu Linux 20.10 beta on my S145. Today will be a scorcher so lots of swimming. Ladies and gents we have a 5.9 kernel on Mageia Linux 8 Beta 1. Maybe will work on my S145, can't wait for Beta 2 to be released. We are more like on RC 2 03:50 I tried my one of my four USB 3.0 ports on my twin cooler again and now they work. The cooler used to come in handy when Zack was playing COD during the hot summer months on the 250 G5. I am doing the laundry right now and waiting for the forty minute cycle to finish before I hang the laundry after sunrise. Siphokazi is coming to work tomorrow to clean and iron. 04:46 I have been listening to adoration and benediction for the last fifteen minutes, I will listen to online Mass just now, don't feel like watching a movie. My unemployment grant still has not come through which I give to Mama. Everything in my office is mostly basically donated including the data. Mass has started, lucky I can multi task. The birds have just started to chirp and at 05:03 there is a glimmer of light coming from the East. The days will be longer and I will work till 07:00 instead of sunrise. After I take my meds at 08:00 they really make me feel sleepy then I need a power nap. I have set my alarm for 02:00 for now to recover from my mild mania as of 20th May 2020 due to Ewa till 12th August 2020. Jabu does not like it when I graft at night, she says she does not like to sleep alone. 05:11 let me go hang the laundry and carry on with Mass which I have paused. 05:36 done hanging the laundry. Let me have a coffee break. I did not finish watching or listening to online Mass today, first time in many months. 16:05 two swims today, the water is nice and cool. Must be 20 C. Looks like Mama will not be house sitting at Mrs M from Pennington. Jabu and I almost had the house to ourselves for the weekend. 18:36 Finished watching today's online Mass after all.

16/10/2020 05:00 CAT Friday Woke up late again. My dearest Jabu is coming for the weekend today. 05:32 been eating too many pele pele. Usual stuff, a new kernel on Mageia 8 Beta 1 on my 250 G5. Libre Office updates on Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta on the S145. Siphokazi phoned to say she can't come to work today, she is sending her sisi. Now I have to train someone new. Siphokazi says she is going to hospital with her mother. Jabu should be here just after 07:00 and she was. It was good to see her. I had one early morning swim today and then it became too cool. We spent a pleasant evening together whilst Mama watched the news channels. Must have retired at 09:15....

17/10/2020 02:00 CAT exactly Saturday The alarm wakes me and Jabu shakes me awake as well just in case. How nice it is to have my wife with me. Going to do the laundry now, it will be hot and sunny today. The electrician did pitch yesterday and said he will give a quote. I am sure I could do the job myself if I had a truck. Received my grant this morning so am quite happy. Apparently uncle Cyril has extended the SRD grant till end January 2021. Suits me, don't have to put too much of a strain on Mama. Every cent helps. I purchase 5 kg of rice, 5 kg of mielie meel, 5 litre of oil and 8 kg of brown sugar with 350 Rand. 03:30 Am listening to online Holy Mass now. Soon i will have an extension step ladder, hired from a friend. Laundry is finished, will hang at sunrise. "rkhunter" flies on my S145, I use it as a benchmark speed test compared to my 250 G5 Celeron. I wasted three years of my life because I did not have 1500 Rand more to pay for an i3 250 G5. 4 gigs of RAM is too little anyway. My next machine will have 16 or 32 and will hopefully be an i7/i9. The first thing I will do when I make big is pay off my debts. Doctor Ndlovu has not offered to pay them. So in my younger years I used to enjoy horse riding, a 70 something year old friend of Tata's and Mama's once went horse riding and fell of the horse and hurt his back in the berg, he said "i curse the day I climbed onto that horse", Like I said I have only come off once and that was in the Underberg when I was too heavy for the horse near the Sani pass. I would not mind going horse riding again. At fourteen/sixteen I was galloping back to the stables. Camping is next on the list, now that is real fun. Especially camping near the Kruger Park like Pilgrims Rest. I have not seen God's window since February 2012. I regret we gave our time share away for mahala. I wonder what Paul Rigden did with Mama's 400 K after he came out of jail. I am afraid to invest anywhere suspect. So far we have spent quite a lot on renovations. I just want to paint the outside window frames and hope the electrician comes back with a quote. He says it's a small job. Seems like quite a good chap. Any way let me finish watching online Mass. 04:06 Paused it too long there is no video will have to listen. Then of course there are motorcycles, hate them now. The TSR has really put me off biking. Spent thousands repairing the TSR, could have bought a car with that money. Mass is ended. My bad, should have bought a car in January 2013. Blessed are you among woman, pray for us sinners. Feel like booting into something else now and see what's up. 04:16 04:30 Piece of shit gives me a "PGP" error again. PCLinuxOS updates fine via USB tethering. No hassles with Fedora Beta 33. 05:25 time to hang the laundry. 06:32 time to have a break. Spent a pleasant day with Jabu and Mama. Had pap and wors for lunch. 20:35 Mama and Jabu are watching TV now. I swam a couple of times today. My last swim was at 18:00, water nice a cool. Just had to log in to do something so I thought if there are any updates but there where none on the S145, Like I will have a sandwitch now and some water mixed with juice. I love updates as you must know by now, for ten years I did nothing but download iso images and either sell them or test them out on virtual box.

18/10/2020 04:52 CAT Sunday I am having too many power naps and sleeping too late these last six days. A new kernel for Mageia. So the not so wild black cat continues to visit. These days for breakfast, lunch and supper. She even goes into the house and lets me pat her whilst she is eating. Have not seen her this morning yet when I went to inspect the pool. All good luck so far from the black cat. Mama is not going to church today so we will later listen to online Mass together. These last few days I have only been updating Ubuntu Linux and Mageai. Thanks to Canonical I am able to use Linux on my S145. It's the only one that really works 100% up till now. 07:42 Mama and Jabu are still sleeping, I am watching "2 Guns". I partly got the idea to type this book from my brother who gave me a book by John Cleese, an autobiography. I type this book in the spirit of open source and rely on donations. Most of the donations have come from Mama and my brother. Till 9th August 2020 when his wife sent me the second venomous letter after she contacted me first on the 8th August 2020. So Mama, Jabu and I survive on our own but Jabu has to feed herself when at home and Mhlengi. Taxi fare is expensive to school. Like I said I give my grant to Mama. 08:00 Jabu is now awake and I made her tea. Let me watch the end of the movie and then we will listen to online Mass when Mama wakes up and has had her breakfast. I was watching TV last night and something the actor said made me listen to Spanish Train on you tube. I have not heard it for ages, It seems as if I had just heard it the other day. I had a small collection of mp3's (64 days) years ago but the HDD failed so I hit it to pieces with a four pound hammer and chucked it away. That's the best way to format a HDD. I always keep my four pound hammer handy. Mama is very worried that food is so expensive and I try run the bills as best as I can unless we get unexpected bills like from ESC. I had an awefull week last week not doing renovations since Monday. Really boring and to top it all the alarm does not wake me at 02:00. Lets hope the electrician gets back to me this week. The morning started of cloudy but from my office I see it's now sunny. Maybe I will have a swim later. Mama as usual left the back door unlocked and Mrs M from Pennington wanted her to house sit. I can't watch Mama 24/7, I need to sleep sometime. That's odd you tube has not alerted me of the usual online Holy Mass this morning, Mama did not want me to ask Mrs V to take her to church today as Mrs V's husband is ill. I don't feel like watching the end of "2 Guns' right now so I will take my meds and start another day. 08:26 I sleep a lot lately like I said and it's bugging me. 14:06 Lunch is almost ready, Mama has gone to the beach, she is upset with me that I did not braai but it's too windy. I am trying to watch the last part of the movie. 14:12 Sunday lunch, fried pork chops and rice, we normally only eat meat every two days. After a pleasant day with Jabu I retire at 19:36....

19/10/2020 01:22 CAT Monday Brew, update watch end of movie. Jabu once again walked down the street to work, I waved and shouted bye but she is coming back today. Most boring cloudy day without renovations.

20/10/2020 03:21 CAT Tuesday New kernel for Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta. Jabu went off to work at an other house today, real nearby. She says I am feeling better because I sleep a lot. The black cat still comes to visit and I continue to watch/listen to online Mass in the mornings. Th electrician gave me a quote this morning, at last things are progressing, the job should be done this week. Mama is feeling much better and not shouting so much. Mrs M from Pennington still does not talk to us since Friday even though she is a devote Catholic Christian, she does not practice what she hears at Mass. I am sitting more often at the S145 laptop screen during the day now. Tonight is my second fav, pap and wors. I love prawns and chips but they are so expensive even by the ocean. 11:52 It's very windy today, no swimming, I hope a large branch does not damage my pool again. Mama is cooking soup, she loves to bake and cook which she could not do at Summerhill Lodge. Even with one arm she manages. Jabu just had to clean the windows today so she returned home early whilst I was having one of my many power naps. I remember about twenty six years ago we where at the South Coast with Dororta and my daughter Kasia and the weather was cloudy and wet as well in October. Just as we where about to leave one morning the clutch in the BMW packed up and we only left for Johannesburgh in the late afternoon. To top it all someone almost wiped us out at the Van Reenen's Pass late at night. Kasia was very young the and I carried her in a back pack like attachment on my back. Pawel was not born yet my son. I have not seen them in over twenty years but have chatted with them especially Kasia in the last three years. Have not seen them for so long that I don't miss them. They will contact me again one day if they so wish. 18:02 Jabu is cooking supper, I am the tea maker. Mama only drinks Rooibos. Retired early again......

21/10/2020 02:00 exactly Wednesday

22/10/2020 10:20 Thursday The electricians arrive and fit a duo LED kitchen luminaire, pull switch and LED lamp for fan, place is so bright now at night and wire the socket outlets to the DB as I fitted them in 2012. That's all in the budget for now. According to me renovations of two months are now over, we will see if Mama requires anything else. Ubuntu Linux 20.10 is released.

23/10/2020 Friday Siphokazi's sister once again comes to work.

24/10/2020 Jabu is working this weekend.

09/11/2020 01:05 CAT Monday My clock changed the last few weeks and I have been going to sleep at around 20:00 and waking at around 06:30. Don't feel like typing much during the day. Had a nice weekend, took Jabu for a hamburger at the beach on Saturday. Received some cash back from my funeral policy. It's the third time this year we have been out for hamburgers. Otherwise I just sit at home and think of ways to make money. Whilst Jabu and I where away for breakfast on Saturday morning a guy came looking for his black cat. Mama gave it to him and I am quite pissed of as I tamed the cat and fed it for a few weeks. The black cat has not come back.

10/11/2020 07:31 CAT Tuesday We have a new maid, a 28 year old, her name is Nomvula which means in isiZulu no rain. She is quite pleasant and not cheecky like Siphokazi. Siphokazi left without saying goodbye but reffered us Nmomvula. I did not feel like sleeping and went to bed at 22:03 and woke at ...

11/11/2020 02:26 CAT Wednesday It has been raining for two days now. I emptied my pool a bit yesterday, I hope it's not too full this morning. Still raining. Only slept for four and one half hours so don't feel like smoking, too full of nicotine. Need to open the window as it is a bit stuffy in here but it is cold. I have been passing my days with the usual shit, doing the laundry, dishes and watching TV.

17/11/2020 Invested in Ether at first and then Bitcoin for Mama and made four thousand Rand for her in exactly one month. Mama's bank gives her less than 3% per year interest per year so I made 40% in one month. Bitcoin and Ether is very risky though so buy crypto at your own pearl.

16/12/2020 GJC does not have Lithium so I have not been taking it for a while. This has improved my sex life. This morning Jabu came multiple times and really enjoyed it for the first time in a long time after I used the herbs. Best love making since 2017. I investigated and on the next day I received my last Ubuntu 20.10 updates and my last Ubuntu 20.04 updates where on the 24/12/2020, I have not received any Playstore updates since this day so someone is fucking with me big time.

23/12/2020 Christmas is almost here. Mama has been very ill and weak for the last two months, please pray for her. I leave my 250 G5 laptop on most of the time now to watch the live Bitcoin and Ether price, more than last week i not had any updates on both my Ubuntu laptops strange.

25/12/2020 Had turkey for Christmas with Mama, Jabu and myself. Had a shit Christmas as the debt collectors kept phoning me just before Christmas, don't know where they got my unlisted number from and I have a deal with them that I am paying them off.

31/12/2020 Jabu cooked beef Breyani for us.

01/01/2021 00:00 Jabu and I kissed and wished each other the best for the New Year. Jabu worked today.

03/01/2021 Reinstalled Ubuntu 20.10 and will see if I get updates. Still no updates on Google Playstore, Sunday Bitcoin was over 34 000 USD per coin. When I first bought some It was 18 800 USD.

04/01/2021 Bitcoin dropped to 29 750 USD and picked up to 30 000 USD at 13:40, hope it does not drop more, I like it at 34 000 USD plus.

05/01/2021 Bitcoin is battling to break 31 000 USD this morning. Ether is up to 1019 USD. It was 626 USD when I first bought it. Still no updates on Google Playstore this morning bar one. I have had five updates this year on Google Playstore. On my S145 Ubuntu 20.10 had a new kernel and some updates. I have yet to sort out my touchpad. All else works so far touch wood. I am happy I have updates on 20.10 so I decided to boot into Ubuntu 20.04 (I have had an Ubuntu version without reinstalling on my 250 G5 since I bought the laptop three years ago), and yo and behold my updates out the blue are back without me doing anything, maybe I reinstalled Ubuntu 20.10 for fuckall at 02:24 in the morning on the 3rd, I am fucked when I get up early these days. Mageai 8 Beta is doing well but I don't have the data to update it during the day. Jabu is working everyday now and is pissed off that I am making bucks with Bitcoin by lying on the couch, she does not call it work, at first she was quite excited that I was making so much money according to my bipolar disorder. I have not made any money since 2013 when I sold my last Linux DVD. If the Bitcoin price shoots up before April I will be able to buy myself a car. 10:38 The Bitcoin price is 31 332 USD. My blood pressure pills or my angina are playing havoc with me these last two months, I get dizzy and feel faint often. I am scared to ride the TSR.

06/01/2021 Woke up early for a change to see the Bitcoin price above 34 000 USD per coin at around 02:00. Made a fuckup up on my S145 when installing dkms on Ubuntu 20.10 trying to get my touchpad to work yesterday afternoon should have fucking left the installation alone it was fine, I was just been fucked around as usual this time with the updates. Last time I got the touchpad right first time when it was Beta. Still no touchpad but all else seems to graft. Hate it when something does not work. Waiting for new kernel, don't feel like compiling one. 03:38 Bitcoin has slipped down to 33 666 USD. My prediction is either it's going to crash in the next few days or jump to above 50 000 USD per coin. On Sunday Bitcoin started to shoot up to above 34 000 USD so I bought some more with my profits, it was nerve racking yesterday when it dropped. I hope it stays above 34 000 USD. I was supposed to fetch my meds on the 31/12/2020 but the clinic closed at 10:30 so lucky I have stock but will have to fetch them soon. Even though I keep receiving incomplete parcels the last 18 months. 03:52 33 824 USD per Bitcoin. At 06:21 Bitcoin jumped to above 35 500 USD per coin. Since then till 09:37 Bitcoin has been steady at 35 1/200 USD. I was just having a power nap when the phone rang, nobody phones me on this number so it can only be the poes debt collectors again, strange some debt collectors have left me alone for years and I have just been paying. If I make some money on this Bitcoin the first thing I will do is pay off these fucking Umzimkulu debts and then buy a car. 09:55 now Bitcoin has dropped to 34 752 USD per coin, I have been watching the laptop screen from the time I wake up till the time I go to sleep since the 17th November 2020. The price goes up and down like a yo yo. Well enough of this Bitcoin thing, I will let you know if i succeed in making big bucks this first quarter of 2021.

So on this 6th day of January 2021 I sit at my laptop and think that I did not even go to the beach during the Christmas holidays. Real hermit since mid 2003, had to be with my line of work running AMPPOL IT Linux CD's & DVD's for ten years. My best friends are long gone to Australia, UK or the USA. The only time I go out is with Jabu and Mama when she is feeling well. Went to fetch my meds at the Pennington clinic today. Only four out of eleven meds I take where in stock from GJC Pharmacy, great. I am a bit tired as my power nap was cut short and will sleep early tonight.

07/01/2021 05:00 CAT Slept very well and woke up to the Bitcoin price at 37 250 USD per coin, a few minutes later it jumped to 37 750 USD. Jabu informed me the other week that a friend of hers invited her to the USA. She is fed up with working all day for pennies as a maid and still being poor without her own house and car. So soon when this Covid-19 is over I will not see her for a long time. Maybe that will be in 2025. Zack has finished school now so she says she can go or leave Pennington to find better well paid work. Lets hope I make some money on Bitcoin before that so she will stay. Mama is still ill and spends most of her days in bed. The pain from her fractured humerous almost two years later is unbearable. Just a few months ago Mama was walking down the hill to the beach and the store and back up the steep hill. I will spend another day watching the Bitcoin chart since 17th November 2020. I am waiting till Bitcoin reaches at least 50 000 USD per coin before I sell some again but this morning I thought I would take some of my profits and sell some at 37 150 USD, i bought some at 34 000 USD remember. Had a few updates on Ubuntu 20.04 and 20.10 early this morning as well as Google Playstore. I will only update Mageia 8 Beta if I wake up very early. As you know this book is mainly for my information so I can read back and see what was in my life in Pennington and Scottburgh. Bitcoin is now 11:07 hovering around 37 000 USD. Up till now I have made 4000 ZAR plus 8250 ZAR gross profit. That does not include fees for buying and selling which come to a couple of grand. I am still learning this crypto thing so can't expect to make too much in two months. Don't worry debt collectors you will soon have all your fucking money, at one stage the banks used to phone me and ask me if I wanted to invest and always wanted to raise my credit card(s) limit. It's not my fault I had money to pay off my debts then I was sent to Umzimkulu for fuckall and the shit hit the fan. At 14:30 Bitcoin stands at 38 050 USD per coin breaking another record high. At the moment at least I am not throwing any bucks away but have made some for Mama. Keeps me busy this Bitcoin. Bit nerve racking though. Looks like it's going to hit (rally) to 40 000 USD any day now. Mama has fed me for a long time in Pennington now so I can give her some bucks back for all the good she has done for me.

A few seconds past 18:00 SAST the bitcoin price was exactly 39 000.00 USD per Bitcoin for a few seconds and then rose. At 20:10 SAST Bitcoin hit 40 000 USD for a few seconds, went up to 40 250 USD and then down to 36 800 USD per coin, now at 21:12 it's back at 37 700 USD. Real roller coaster ride.

08/01/2021 This morning I woke to Bitcoin at 38 250 USD per coin. Nomvula is here today to do the domestic work. I pay her above average. It's pleasant to work with someone that is not cheeky and always has a smile unlike Siphokazi who left to work in Scottburgh last year without telling us. I predict the Bitcoin will hit 40 000 USD again per coin before end of Sunday. At 09:35 SAST it was a few dollars short of 39 000 USD per coin again. My prediction came sooner than I thought. I was having a power nap when the phone rang and Bitcoin was at 39 675 USD per coin. At 12:35 SAST Bitcoin hit 40 000 USD per coin. At 12:49 SAST it was 41 000 USD per Bitcoin. Now it's just above 41 000 USD per coin, 13:08 SAST. Looks like 50 000 USD per Bitcoin is coming sooner than I expected.

Just before I called it a day I had a kernel install on Ubuntu Linux 20.10, dkms is now correctly installed as I thought it would be but still no touchpad working on my S145, should have never reinstalled 20.10 on the 3rd December 2020 as I was just being hacked as usual with no updates coming in from the 17/12/2020 and no updates coming in since 24th December 2020 on 20.04.

09/01/2021 03:36 SAST Bitcoin hovers at 40 000 USD per coin. I had a skinny dip using my lantern this time at 04:21 whilst updating Mageai 8 Beta 2 on my 250 G5. The outside luminaires I put up in 2012 are all plug in and I did not feel like fucking around with the extension, actually I need to get hold of a double adaptor. I bought a 1000 lumens lantern last year for all the load shedding and have not used it much. I had a very good power nap now, nobody phoned me this time like the last few days. Mama is watching online Catholic Mass at the moment, it's lunchtime. Jabu always cooks me breakfast and supper for Mama as well. How Mama is suffering these last two or three months, I pray everyday that the Lord will take away her horendous pain together with the pain killers. Looks like Bitcoin will stay under 41 000 USD per coin for the weekend but one never knows especially as to what occured last Sunday. I am sure before Valentine's day Bitcoin will have reached 50 000 USD per coin.

As you know I am a novice at this Bitcoin thing and all predictions are for my information only. As of the 11/11/2020 I did not type anything for a long time till later in the year. I type I get hacked, I don't type I get hacked as well, it's so fustrating for me that of all the distro's I have installed on my S145 Ubuntu Linux 20.10 was the only one to have the touchpad to work 100% as well as Manjero I think, need to check one day, don't remember. Now I can't get the touchpad right. Of course all works on Windows 10 but I very rarely use Windows 10, since 2003 I have had Linux as my operating system of choice. Don't know why this touchpad bothers me so much as I use my MX Master 2S all the time. Of course there is nothing wrong with my Samsung Galaxy A20 other that it has a generic screen, I had problems with my Cubot Manito when I was typing this book as well. The last few days I have not had to reboot my A20, always had a problem with typing on the touch last year with my A20 after 24 hours or more.

Just noticed Bitcoin has hit 41 150 USD per coin again, 13:26 SAST. So now I have something to keep me busy during the day instead of just watching TV. I was too busy with AMPPOL IT to notice Bitcoin years back. When I made 4000 ZAR in one month when I first bought Ether and Bitcoin a family member of mine said "good buy" but now they keep sending me negative articles about Bitcoin and "what goes up must go down" so I got so nervous before I went to sleep last night that I sold 28% of my Bitcoin. It's Mama's funds after all and I don't want to be blamed for losing any. If it was my money I would just carry on and last year December I was making 250 ZAR per day average on crypto which is not bad since I have not made any money for a long time. Since I went to sleep Bitcoin has been hovering at 40 600 USD per coin. The trick is to buy in the dips and sell when Bitcoin goes up and still make a profit with the buying and selling fees. I don't just hold onto my Bitcoin and wait till it reaches 100 000 USD per coin.

09/01/2021 16:55-17:50 Herbs don't always work too well.

10/01/2021 This morning 08:20 SAST Bitcoin stands at 40 800 USD per coin. Last week I have been having headaches all day long and Jabu says it's from this Bitcoin, I think it's my BP as I feel dizzy as well but all this stress of buying and selling is taking it's toll I think. I am not doing too well this year with Bitcoin, whenever I sell it goes up and when I buy it goes down. Last night I sold 28% at 40 600 USD per coin and now at 08:52 it's 41 100 USD per coin. I will leave it at that now so if Bitcoin crashes I will not loose too much. You can loose ZAR but one still has coins.

Who would think after all these years with RPM and Red Hat 6.1 then Fedora Core then Mandrake, Mandriva and Mageia I would be with Ubuntu Linux because of this S145. I have got used to Ubuntu Linux and am quite enjoying it but I was better at RPM than DEB, even though I used Debian Buster for a long time on my 250 G5, how time flies.

So Jabu has been working every day almost in January 2021 and is quite tired at the end of the day. Normally it's a bit boring when she is not here weekends but now the Bitcoin keeps me busy. She still cooks for us after relaxing a bit after work. I was surprised she agreed to yesterdays attempted love making. Like I said the herbs did not work too well. Must be these headaches and the dizzy spells I am having. I think the BP pills are too strong as when I don't take one in the morning I am not dizzy during the day. I think it's time to consult with my online Doctors. Mama is watching online Mass again, I try work out the data so she can watch online Catholic Mass every day in the New year. Mama is doing much better now, she does not stay in bed all day long but watches some TV and makes herself breakfast and lunch as usual. I have just eaten a late breakfast of Jungle Oats which Jabu cooked this morning and am waiting to see if I get a headache. I am trying to figure out where these headaches come from then I will take my meds. 10:30 SAST, I normally eat breakfast with Jabu much earlier. 11:37 SAST so far only a tiny headache, the one day I did not have one at all so maybe today I will be lucky. I have had a good life up till now bar a few hipcups like Umzimkulu Psychc Hospital.

I predicted to myself that Bitcoin will stay around 40 200/41 000 USD per coin this weekend, will see if I am right. I am not sure if I did the right thing selling 28% yesterday. Bitcoin stays above 34 000 USD coin I am ok. I am trying to work out my profits as of today 10/01/2021 but it's very difficult with the selling and buying fees, I made so many small transactions that it would take a month of Sundays to work out. Yet I am happy that the Lord answered two of my four wishful prayers last year. I have yet to get rid of the debt collectors by paying off my debts and buy a car. I have not been on my TSR for weeks and need to start it soon, last time I wanted to start my TSR the battery was almost flat, no train smash, my bike I can start and drive without a battery. Jabu will be home soon and we will chat a bit whilst she reads Facebook non stop, shitting on me that she can't concentrate but I talk a lot which is usual.

So Bitcoin sits at 39 400 USD now per coin at 13:42 SAST. Bitcoin has dropped over 1500 USD. I am not too worried as I withdrew 28% yesterday and I need it to stay above 34 000 USD per coin at least to make me happy, I don't like it when my ZAR value goes down. But knowing Bitcoin it will soon be above 50 000 USD per coin, like I said, before Valentines day.

11/01/2021 02:06 SAST Bitcoin dropped to below 600 000 ZAR per coin during the night. It's now at 37 482 USD per coin. Ether is doing quite well this last week and is now at 19 600 ZAR per coin. I started of my crypto world with Ether. Bitcoin is now at 36 855 USD per coin at 02:52 SAST. At 08:41 my phone rang and I was woken from my power nap (must be the debt collectors again) after working all morning to find the Bitcoin price at 32 500 USD per coin. One debt collector told me "we will keep on phoning you" if I don't give them my date of birth. No train smash that Bitcoin is sitting at 33 255 USD per coin now at 09:23 SAST, it will go up during the month, below the 34 000 USD per coin I was hoping to avoid. It's the nature of Bitcoin to jump up and down. Bitcoin is back to 34 370 USD per coin at 09:38 SAST. If the Covid-19 does not get me, I will have a car soon this year which I am working hard for on this Bitcoin crypto thing. I have always had a car or super bike since I was 18. A 50 cc when I was 16. I always wanted my own truck but drove company trucks in my line of work as an electrician.

From the time I woke up at 02:06 SAST this morning I attempted to update Mangero 20 but no go. I just wanted to check if the mouse works, touchpad that is, it did work. Useless to me if Mangero does not update with some bull shit GPG data error. I then updated Debian Buster, Mageai 8 Beta 2 and PCLinuxOS Full Monty on my 250 G5, no updates since Friday on Ubuntu Linux 20.04.1 on my 250 G5. No updates on Ubuntu Linux 20.10 on my S145 this weekend and this morning. Google playstore used to have tons of updates every day now since 16th December 2020 there are few and far between.

By the end of the day Bitcoin should be back up close to 40 000 USD per coin if not 44 000 USD per coin this week. The day ends for me at 22:00 SAST each day when Jabu is watching the Bitcoin and I am sleeping. I have asked her to wake me if anything untold happens. Bitcoin is now hovering around 32 900 USD per coin, 16:38 SAST. I still have my bit of coin but my ZAR value has dropped a lot.

I don't know who I am offending that my Ubuntu Linux updates keep being held back nether mind my Google Play store. Jabu will be back just now from work and shopping for milk, bread.

18:52 SAST Bitcoin has dropped to under 30 800 USD per coin, looks my family member brought me bad luck with all the negative advice.

12/01/2021 04:02 SAST Installed Linux Mint 20.1 on my S145, WIFI works not touchpad, volume keys do not work. Updates work as of 04:42 SAST. I tried to change to a local update mirror and now I am getting a "signature" error. Fuck this, I wish Mageia worked properly on my S145. Bitcoin is back to 34 624 USD per coin at 05:51 SAST. Yes ladies and gentlemen we are back at 35 000 USD per coin at 06:00 SAST. At 35 400 USD per Bitcoin I sold another 28% and of course the price this morning just before 08:00 SAST went up to 36 200 USD per Bitcoin. Bad moves I am making this year, last year I had more luck. I think I will leave what I have now and watch the chart. At least I have made a small profit since 17/11/2020 till today.

Jabu found a taxi quickly and is at work already at 08:00 SAST. Nomvula is here today to help me with my pool for a bit. Bitcoin has been sitting around 36 000 USD per coin all morning, I was hoping it would go to 40 000 USD per Bitcoin. Time to relax now, I have been working since 04:02 SAST. The time is now 13:47 SAST. I had a Firefox update on Linux Mint 20.1 so the updates are coming in till they get hacked again. I have never used Linux Mint except in virtualbox or have quickly uninstalled it when another distro come along to try out but now I have a one TB HDD so I have plenty of space to install various distro's. I don't understand why Mageia 8 Beta 2 does not pick up my WIFI as it has the 5.10.x kernel. I would not mind have been donated a 250 G6 i5/i7 but in South Africa they only sell them with 4 Gigs of RAM AFAIK from what I gathered. I am not a gamer so I don't need a too fast machine so the S145 is right but the WIFI and touchpad keeps me busy on some distro's. If Linux Mint continues to update unlike Ubuntu Linux 20.10 and Ubuntu Linux 20.04.1 I will give it a bash even though I had one update on Ubuntu Linux 20.10 today, tzdata and Ubuntu Linux 20.04.1. Amazingly I received eight updates from the Google Play Store in the last 24 hours but that's still not right, my apps are out of date on my A20. Time for a late lunch, I am a bit busy too eat at 12:00/12:30 these days. As you know I love updates and can immediatly notice when something is amiss. These ten years with AMPPOL IT I became a download junkie and was very good with "rsync" and "wget". I downloaded tons of Linux iso images.

Jabu will be home soon, sometimes she thinks she is the Presidents daughter the way she avoids me. Other times when she is not too tired and in a good mood she is an angel. But these last two months it's difficult to kiss and hug. Only made love three or four times. When she first moved back in last year we where like on honeymoon for the first few months, madly in love. I think she is getting tired of me. She has had enough of my erectile dysfunction and says these herbs will kill me. My BP pills do not cause ED. My Doctor changed them a long time back. Lithium and Risperdal cause the shit. Jabu is still young and needs a good love making session now and again, as do most folks, like I said the other night was a disaster.

So as I type this on Linux Mint 20.1 released on the 08/01/2021, I can only install if I wake early, It's too hot in the day to sit at the laptop even though I have my fan on and sit in wet swimming gear to cool me down on my leather chair. I needed a break from Ubuntu Linux 20.10 for something new that works. Now I have Windows 10, Ubuntu Linux 20.10, Linux Mint 20.1 and Mageia 8 Beta 2 on my S145. I will soon attempt to get my touchpad to work on Linux Mint 20.1.

The Bitcoin price has been steady today at 36 000 USD but is now at 34 635 USD per Bitcoin as the USA starts business soon. 15:30 SAST.

13/01/2021 05:26 SAST Woke up late. Had a good nights sleep. Bitcoin is at 33 400 USD per coin at 06:21 SAST. To think Bitcoin was 17 770 USD per coin two months ago the 17th November 2020. Am having a hassle with my software manager on Ubuntu Linux 20.10. Will not choose a mirror and hangs. Will have to reinstall Linux Mint 20.1 again as I don't know what the fuck is going on with the updates manager, apt is corrupt. Linux Mint 20.1 otherwise looks good and the volume keys work now but I will stick with Ubuntu Linux 20.10 on my S145 as my main operating system till I get Mageia 8 Beta 2 100 % right.

Did I mention they are installing Fibre in Pennington? The cabling is going quite quick. Hard work these guys are doing in the hot weather. Soon as they are finished I will apply for Fibre.

I am not feeling too well this morning, I have swum five times but I still feel dizzy but no headache. I did not take my BP pill this morning. Maybe it is my heart like my Doctor said last year. Too much smoking, don't smoke if you are a youngster over 18 and reading this. Too late for me, I have been smoking since I was 18. I don't drink either, only a lot of tea and coffee, juice.

Bitcoin wants to go to 35 000 USD per coin now, 11:20 SAST but is battling. Like I said I am happy if Bitcoin stays above 34 000 USD per coin. To be honest I don't really know how much profit I have made over two months till we reach the 17th January 2021 but it's a shit load for me. It Bitcoin had to crash right now today I would be slightly up. As you know we are just poor simple folks and at least I am kept busy now during the day with my crypto. On the 18th of January 2021 I will decide if I should sell some more, lets hope by then crypto is up to a good price. But I like this game so I doubt if I will ever sell all my Bitcoin and Ether. Before I die I want to pay of Doctor Ndlovo's debts, buy a car and retire comfortably with a tile roof over my head, hot running water, electricity and food. A lot of times when I have a warm shower I thank God. And I thank God for my big above ground pool in this hot weather. My pool is under a huge tree so the water does not get so warm till January and February but it's so nice to have a dip early in the morning.

My last 28% sale was due to my family member's negative vibe about this crypto and I sold at the incorrect time, not Mama nor Jabu. Like I said Jabu was very excited at first with this crypto thing. But it's all I talk about now so Jabu is a bit bored with the crypto.

We are cooking one of my favourites tonight, mince and pasta, Jabu cooks the mince sauce and I cook the pasta. I like to help to cook where I can.

14/01/2021 05:26 SAST Bitcoin is at 37 408 USD per coin. Had a good nights sleep again. My Google Playstore updates are coming in (I have had 17 the last three days) and I had one update on Ubuntu Linux 20.10 via my software manager on my S145 this morning.

Before I reinstalled Ubuntu Linux 20.10 on my S145 this year because I was getting no updates, I noticed my suspend was not working when I closed the lid last year. But the touchpad was of course working since Beta. Sure sign of something amis. Real fuck up, now I can't get my touchpad to work. Lenovo did not do a very good job with Linux compatibility with the S145. It's the first machine ever that I have had that one or other Linux does not graft. Even though in Gauteng I had a couple of clients whose machines would not graft with Linux when I had AMPPOL IT.

Jabu is not in a very good mood this morning when she woke up but was feeling better during breakfast. I did not feel like eating. First time I ate today was at 12:50. Fanisile phoned me twice in the last five days and Siphokazi texted me this morning. They all looking for work. At first they where excellent at work but then lapsed and neglected to pitch up for work or came to work when they where free. So I have Nomvula now with whom Mama, Jabu and I are happy with her performance.

At 08:30 SAST Bitcoin hit 38 000 USD per coin for a second. This morning SAST Bitcoin has been hovering around 38 500 USD per coin.

My Samsung Galaxy A20 is fucked again, when Jabu was putting it down at around 21:30 on the glass bedside table she knocked the screen and the screen cracked. I did not have a screen protector as three screen protectors previously did not allow me to type properly on this Umzinto generic screen, which is the second screen I have had since January 2020. There goes some of my Bitcoin profit. Well the story ended well as we had some fun.

Bitcoin hit 40 000 USD per coin briefly at 17:35 SAST.

15/01/2021 00:00 SAST Can't sleep, trying to decide what to do with my A20. Lucky I am still online. Jabu is going to visit her mother today. She has to get up at 05:30, in less than three hours time. At 00:30 I reinstalled Ubuntu Linux 20.10 for the second time this year, still the touchpad does not work and I installed dkms correctly, fuck the touchpad worked with the Beta.

I am very tired now and will try and sleep, 04:05 SAST, just as load shedding starts. Can't sleep with all this excited of my phone screen breaking. Little things set me off and I can't sleep. I will have to have a long power nap during the day. January 2020 I dropped my A20 and now January 2021 Jabu drops it. Not her fault, she tripped over a glass.

I woke up again at 06:30 SAST. It's 10:25 SAST now and I am not feeling too tired now, Mama is watching Catholic online Mass. It will be a boring weekend without Jabu but she needs to visit her mother sometimes never mind Zack, he slept over for one night here the other week. Nomvula is here today, I sent her to buy some milk for the weekend. With these dizzy spells and headaches I don't feel like risking driving my TSR.

I spend my days more on the S145 during the day but It's really hot in my study, last night was an exception. Gone are the days when I used to wake up reguarly at 01:00/02:00 for over 15 years.

16/01/2021 04:26 SAST Had an excellent nights sleep, went to sleep at 19:00 last night. Woke up to Bitcoin at 36 512 USD per coin. 40 000 is better but as long as it stays above 36 250, I am happy. Nomvula came today to do Mama's nails and give her a proper bath, these days Mama does not want me to bath her. She says it's embarassing.

Friday we started to have load shedding again. The cell towers batteries used to last two and one half hours if fully charged. Now since Friday, if the electricity goes off there is no network as if the batteries are disconnected. Today Saturday as well. They say the load shedding will last till Sunday. But guaranteed load shedding till September 2021, on and off.

I had a nice long power nap between 13:05 and 14:15 when the electricity was off. This is total bull shit that the cell phone towers batteries are not working. I just spoke to Jabu and she comes home tomorrow.

17/01/2021 03:03 SAST I have finally managed to calculate if Bitcoin is at 40 000 USD per coin, I have made nett 23 050 ZAR profit from the 17/11/2020 till today 17/01/2021 with an initial investment of 10 000 ZAR (her bank would have given her 40 ZAR), lying on the couch or sitting in the armchair watching the screen and my smart phone. The more it drops the less profit I have but I see Bitcoin going up up up. I have given back Mama all the funds she borrowed me since 17/11/2020 for Bitcoin and Ether and she says I can keep what's left in my Bitcoin account, I will now gamble with that and hope to pay off the debt collectors fully and buy a car soon.

Bitcoin is now 36 309 USD per coin, 03:09 SAST.

18/01/2021 05:01 SAST Another good nights sleep after load shedding from 18:00 till 20:30 last night. $29.95 (USD) donation to read my book as from today.

19/01/2021 02:31 SAST Woke up tired. Being having hassles with my internet connection. Fixed now by my ISP, it was their error with all this load shedding causing a fuck up on the network.

Bitcoin is hovering around 37 000 USD per coin this morning, 04:08 SAST. Decided to install Microsoft Windows 10 patch Tuesday for January 2021, got fed up and left it installing half way through. Wasted an hour. This Microsoft is a real fuck up with updates, they take hours even on a 10th generation 8 thread, 4 core i5 CPU. Anyway fuck this I am back on Ubuntu Linux 20.10. Will sort out Windows 10 later. 05:14 SAST.

At 10:45 SAST 19/01/2021 I received my new smart phone which will come from my Bitcoin profits. I decided not to have the screen replaced for the third time at Umzinto on my A20. It was fucked anyway since the first time I dropped it in January 2020.

Had a very long day since 02:31 and retired at 18:30.

20/01/2021 03:30 SAST My Whatsapp has a couple of Gigs of media so I am downloading them now on my new smart phone. Bitcoin is at just below 36 000 USD per coin now, 04:05 SAST. Looks like we have already had the dip at 30 000 USD per coin. If Bitcoin stays at 36 000 USD per coin for a few months, I will have only made 22 000 ZAR, no car :-(

Plan on having a nice relaxing day today, woke up with headache again. Jabu works five days a week now unless they need her on weekends as well.

This Covid-19 is quite bad, the folks are dying like flies. Mama went to see her Doctor yesterday, he prescribed her some morphine patches. Let's hope the morphine patches work. Mama has really been suffering these last months with pain.

06:00 SAST Still waiting for Whatsapp to finish, is at 80%.

21/01/2021 00:03 SAST Woke up a bit early this morning to the Bitcoin price at 35 000 USD per coin, no good, I was hoping Bitcoin would be at 45 000 USD by now.

01:25 SAST Thought I would give the touchpad another go on Ubuntu Linux 20.10, S145, this time I have the touchpad working. Had to edit GRUB.

01:44 SAST feeling a bit tired and headache, not used to waking up so early. 02:22 SAST going back to sleep.

I started off with Ether and then sold most of it for Bitcoin when Ether did not make much profit, look at it now, I first bought Ether for 626 USD per coin, now it stands at 1318 USD per coin, 05:42 SAST. Bitcoin has dropped to 34 443 USD per coin this morning and during the day dropped further to around 32 500 USD per coin this afternoon.

22/01/2021 03:42 SAST At 04:00 SAST Bitcoin has dropped to 30 058 USD per coin, to think Bitcoin was at 42 000 USD per coin just the other day. I still believe Bitcoin will be above 50 000 USD per coin before or on 14/02/2021. I still have a profit even though when Bitcoin price falls my profit is less.

So far so good with my new smart phone, I just need a cover and screen protector which I will obtain this week. I will let you know later what it is. Was very tired last night and must have gone to bed at 18:30 with a terrible headache. Jabu brought me some Disprin. I have been popping pain killers like crazy these last two weeks, never in my life have I had such headaches. Jabu says it's because I am not taking Lithium anymore as G.J. Crookes Pharmacy does not have stock these last two months. I have been on Lithium since 2003. My friend from the USA who is a pharmacist confirmed just now that it is likely a lack of Lithium.

Nomvula is here today to do her weekly cleaning. She bought us some potatoes which cost me R70.00 and cost R130.00 at the nearby store.

It was 32 C in the house today, we had frozen pizza for supper. Went to sleep at 19:00.

23/01/2021 00:44 SAST Woke up with a headache again, fuck this. Mageai 8 Beta 2 will not update, will try again later. Bitcoin is at 33 100 USD per coin at 01:34 SAST, that makes me happy at least. The cost of food is terrible, I don't know how some families manage on 1840 ZAR per month, little meat. At 01:56 I went for a swim. The water is lovely, my headache subsides for a while after being in the cool water. I used my lantern again in the pitch black night.

I asked my Doctor more than a month ago to give me a private script for Lithium but she obviously forgot.

Today will be another scorcher with an expected temperature of 34 C.

With the Bitcoin price below 33 000 USD per coin my profit is down to 19 980 ZAR right now from 23 050 ZAR a few days ago. I will laugh at the doomsday profits when Bitcoin hits 150 000 USD per coin.

Basically had a terrible day with a headache all day long except early morning when Jabu and I made love.

Went to bed at 21:02 and I don't know if I slept or just lay there day dreaming.

23:33 SAST This Bitcoin thing has become boring, did not make a lot of bucks fast enough for what I needed it for. Will leave Bitcoin as it is now at around 32 000 USD per coin. I am tired of watching the chart and screen for over two months now, I need to make at least 30 000 ZAR per month to live and retire comfortably with my family.

Fuck this, mother fuckers, son of bitches get me hooked on drugs then they don't have stock of my meds at G.J. Crookes Hospital these last months, in the begining there where no problems with stock, anyway thank you and next time fuck you.

Made a fuck up with my screen protector which I put on my smart phone this morning, my headache was so bad I could not see straight, it's slightly skew.

24/01/2021 00:00 SAST Here we are again, will I be manic soon or not because lack of meds from G.J. Crookes Hospital Pharmacy. Good start today, did not sleep much yesterday except for one hours power nap and a bit at night.

00:05 SAST Time to continue my movie on Netflix, nah don't feel like it, let me go sit with Jabu and make her some tea and my special brew of coffee for me. Went to sleep at 02:10 and woke at....

24/01/2021 06:53 SAST Did not take my meds last night nor this morning, no headache so far. Even though I did pray that my headache would go away so the Lord answered. Mageia 8 Beta 2 is doing fine so is Ubuntu Linux 20.10 on my S145. Headache free lazy, sleepy day. Went to sleep at 20:10 and woke at 23:16, had three power naps during the day. 23:45 going to boot into Windows 10, apparently there is an update.

25/01/2021 00:00 SAST Busy with Windows 10. Did not stay long. No updates on Ubuntu Linux 20.04.1 and Ubuntu Linux 20.10 this weekend, here we go again. Mageai 8 Beta 2 always is busy with updates. Slept too much yesterday so am not tired now. 01:24 SAST.

10:18 SAST A rainy morning at last. 16:37 SAST still no updates on Ubuntu Linux 20.10 on my S145

25/01/2021 03:26 SAST 13 updates on Ubuntu Linux 20.10 on my S145 and 7 updates on my smart phone.

05:00 SAST Reboot S145 to check if the GRUB update did not fuck up my touchpad.

26/01/2021 07:25 SAST Nomvula came to clean the pool.

27/01/2021 04:26 SAST Since the 17/11/2020 have made 13 050 ZAR profit on my crypto. The rest of the funds are still in crypto and go up and down as the Bitcoin price changes. Bitcoin is now 32 126 USD per coin at 04:55 SAST. So my crypto craze is over as Bitcoin has been sitting steady for the last days around 32 000 USD per coin. I am going for Ether now.

Woke up with a headache as usual. I might have developed diabetes due to lack of Lithium.

09:45 SAST Went to have my blood sugar tested and my BP. My blood sugar is 5.6 and my BP was 180/100, fuck at least I don't have diabetes.

All day long I have had a terrible headache, I feel as if I can go manic anytime now. 18:25 SAST, just can't take it, it's worse than Saturdays headache, at least Saturday Jabu was here. She went to her mothers today after work till Thursday evening. Fuck this bipolar disorder. My online Doctor said just now that I should double my dose of BP pills.

20:00:44 SAST Can't sleep. The headache is gone but now the tiredness has set in. I have dimmed my screen a bit and sitting with low lumens. Oh Lord why have you forsaken me. Why am I a hermit almost these last two years. I don't even go to the beach. Today was the first time I went out in a long time. I used to enjoy riding my bike to Scottburgh to visit Mama. As I listen to the rain I wait till I am very tired or 00:00 whichever comes first. I will have you know I was a tax payer for around thirty years. Now all I get is emails and SMSes reminding me to pay my debts. Gone are the days with Carina where we used to eat out and dance three times a week. Jabu loves me very much but is just too tired to show it sometimes, she did not even text me today and ask how I am feeling.

21:48 SAST I have decided to sell most of my crypto, fuck this I am not going to wait forever for a car. At least I made a profit from 17/11/2020 till today 27/01/2021 of 18 050 ZAR. I left a bit in crypto, I am really tired of watching the screen all day long, I will now spend my days sleeping and watching TV, fat chance of getting a job at my age and believe me I have tried almost everything, even typing this fucking ebook.

22:22 SAST Bored, waiting till 00:00. My tooth has been hurting since before Christmas but I don't feel like a fucking extraction now. Eventually fell asleep.

28/01/2021 04:23 SAST Woke up feeling fresh this morning. Not much of a headache yet. Rained all night, I wonder how full is the pool. So I will not be getting a car before 14th February 2021 nor will I pay off all my debts, Bitcoin did not shoot up as I expected to 150 000 USD per coin.

The weather will be cool today and tomorrow with rain. No swimming. My tooth still hurts. Fuck these fags which have fucked up my teeth.

I have never had such hassles with updates as I have with Windows 10 and Ubuntu Linux, Ubuntu Linux keeps not been able to find the update server. Mageai is still the top distro in the world.

29/01/2021 03:00 SAST Friday rkhunter shows five rootkits on Ubuntu Linux 20.10. Updated Mageai 8 Beta 2 on S145, still no WIFI.

Ears are blocked this morning from stress. Woke up with a headache. Took some pain killers. Drinking Rooibos tea from yesterday. Nomvula is coming to work today. Will kick start the TSR today, I should really do it every week. When Nomvula was covering the TSR she saw two harmless non venomous snakes. She was quite afraid.

30/01/2021 04:43 SAST Looking for a car. Hope I don't buy a dud. Terrible headache again when I woke, went for a swim and the headache is a bit better. I am not feeling too well these last weeks so I am not typing much. All my updates are working.

If you are installing a Linux operating system for the first time alongside Windows 10 It's best to make a / and /home partition. So if the Linux OS goes south your home is restored. It's best to try out a live Linux OS like Ubuntu Linux to see if it works on your machine.

Today on 30/01/2021 at 13:35 SAST I bought a car. My first car since since 5th December 2012. If it was not for crypto I would not have been able to buy the car. I made a mistake in February 2013 and bought a motorcycle even though for the first three and one half years the TSR rode well. When Jabu came back from Umzinto I took her for a drive. No more carrying 10 kg up the hill from the store to our house, now we have a car. And now we can shop at Checkers in Scottburgh again, much cheaper.

31/01/2021 00:05 SAST Woke up rather early. Started by updating Mageai 8 Beta 2 on my 250 G5.

I purchased the car at a good price so it has a bit of work to do. The mechanic fixed the lights and brake lights today. Wednesday he will replace the brake pads, I hope the discs are not fucked because they grind when one brakes.

02/02/2021 08:35 SAST Tried to start my car, battery is dead.

03/02/2021 02:20 SAST The aircon in my car had to be disconnected as it turns on by itself and drains the battery, will have to repair that as well as two electric windows that don't work, the car is full house.

05/01/2021 00:02 SAST 2021-02-03 02:50:21 status installed ca-certificates:all 20210119~20.10.1, last update on Ubuntu Linux 20.10.

06/02/2021 04:45 SAST No updates on Ubuntu Linux 20.04 and 20.10 for a few days now. Playstore has plenty of updates because my book has been offline. 09:19 we have had load shedding since 08:00, waiting for the mechanic to arrive.

07/02/2021 03:05 SAST Mageia 8 RC is released. Went to fill up with petrol and to Rocky bay. It's been so hot these last few days. Tomorrow is supposed to be rain and cooler.

08/02/2021 03:26 SAST My headaches have subsided these last few days, not so intense because I am back on Lithium. Bitcoin is doing well this last weekend between 38 000 and 40 000 USD per coin. At 15:00 SAST Bitcoin suddenly shot up to 44 500 USD per coin over an hour.

09/02/2021 01:50 SAST Bitcoin now sits at 46 125 USD per coin. 02:38 SAST Bitcoin is at 47 038 USD per coin. Ether is not doing too well. I don't have much Bitcoin left over so I have only made 2000 ZAR in the last eighteen hours. I first sold 1000 ZAR yesterday morning at 38 500 USD per coin and then the rest from 15:00 SAST till now. Always when I sell the Bitcoin value goes up, fuck. It's a big gamble as Bitcoin can go the other way anytime. 12:22 SAST new kernel update for Ubuntu Linux 20.10. I missed 42 now on 43.

10/02/2021 04:20 SAST Had a good nights sleep and did not wake with a headache. Went to sleep at 19:30 last night. It's either too hot or too cold in this cabin. Winter is slowly coming in as the sun rises later.

13/02/2021 04:01 SAST Have not been feeling too well these last two days with my abdomen giving me trouble. Terrible pain in the lower left side. Bitcoin hit 48 000 USD per coin the other day. I am a bit depressed as I don't have much Bitcoin left. Jabu is working this weekend. My car has gone in for a service and to fix the aircon.

14/02/2021 PM SAST Zack came to visit. Like I said he is a man now and does not enjoy hanging out with madala too much.

15/02/2021 02:24 SAST Woke up early for a change, yesterday I woke at 06:30. Can't wait to get my car back even though it was not such a thrill when I bought it. Mama is not feeling too well these last five days with her mania. She is starting to get ill again. After all these months lying in bed at first and then watching some TV and not leaving the property she is going nuts. The surgeon recons that a second op on her fractured humerus might not be succesfull. Mama is taking strong pain killers which last only for a hour. I am basically typing this book for myself even though a lot of people read it but are too tight arse to even make a $5 donation. 03:15 SAST I went for a skinny dip and bought some more Bitcoin, a small amount, I need to save bucks to repair my car. This time I am going to leave my Bitcoin as is till it reaches 150 000 USD per coin. Zack is sleeping in the family room so I can't update my Mageai 8 RC this morning. Those who invested 10 000 ZAR in Bitcoin 10 years ago are millionaires now. It's so hot let me go for another swim.

19/09/2020 06:12 CAT Saturday

Not to look a gift horse in the mouth, I received the Lenovo S145 i5 on the 16/09/2020 a Wednesday, thank you very much Mrs M from South Africa. With 8 gigs of RAM it is a mid range laptop but miles faster than my Celeron. What a mission it was to install Linux on it. I first tried Ubuntu 20.04.1 LTS but the WIFI and touchpad would not work. I then tried Mageia 7 and updated Mageia 7 to Mageia Beta 8 but still no go. Debian Buster 10, X would not start. PClinuxOS Full Monty would not graft with the WIFI even though on all off the for three days I tried to install, git dkms and build essentials, PCLinuxOS came close, I was about to return the laptop when I tried one last thing, Ubuntu 20.10 Beta on the 18/09/2020, and the WIFI works except for the touchpad. I will not tell Mrs M about it as she will be heart broken that she bought me such an expensive gift. I will eventually sort out the touchpad. Ubuntu 20.10 Beta only grafts with legacay set in the BIOS. I am now typing this on my new S145. Ubuntu has always had a hassle with pasting with my MX 1100 middle button. i am waiting for Mageia 8 final to be released and will give Mageia another go. As you know I don't use Windows 10 much so I need a laptop where Linux grafts. I used a lot of data trying to get Linux to work on the S145. But now I have the WIFI working I am happy and I don't use the touchpad much anyway. 04:05 19/09/2020 I updated Ubuntu 20.10 Beta on my S145 and then downloaded MX Linux, I flashed it and still the WIFI would not work. So I thought I would try Mangero 20.1 KDE Plasma as it was released a few days ago and is based on Arch which I have not tried before. First I tried Ubuntu's 20.10 Beta start up disk creator but it would not work so I tried isodumper on my Mageia 8 Beta on my HP Celeron but that failed as well. When I tried "dd" on my HP Celeron on Debian Buster 10 it somegow filled up my / so I have to fix that. Eventually PCLinuxOS came to the rescue and I managed to flash Mangero on my HP Celeron. So I installed Mangero 20.1 on my S145 and true as fuck the WIFI works but not the touchpad. 23:52 I am waiting for midnight to proceed further. At midnight I will test Mangero 20.1 further on my S145. 00:04 20/09/2020. All is going well with Mangero 20.1, my MX 1100 mouse works nicely on Mangero 20.1, so now I have tried Arch. 21/09/2020 01:01 Whilst I was about it I updated PCLinuxOS and at last the new kernel works after 5 or 6 duds after the stock kernel. Thanks Texstar. I booted in Debian Buster 10.5 and it worked fine with enough free space. I am now going to update Mageia Beta 1 on my 250 G5 whilst I type on my S145, the next thing is to set up NFS but it is a long time since I did that blindfolded. 21/09/2020 02:00 I booted into Windows 10 on my S145 with a bit of a hit and miss trying to get used to the S145 BIOS, I think I have it figured out now. It took three hours to download and install the Windows 10 2004 feature update and another two hours of rebooting and installing by that time I had fallen asleep at 05:00 or so, when I woke at 06:58 Windows 10 just finished the feature update and all seemed fine, strange PCLinuxOS and Mangero are also rolling releases and PCLinuxOS takes twenty five minutes to install a kernel and 284 packages on my 250 G5, well done Microsoft. 22/09/2020 02:15 installed kernel 5.9rc as well as dkms in grub on Mangero 20.1 and touchpad works. I am begining to like Mangero 20.1 KDE Plasma. 03:40 22/09/2020 I booted into Ubuntu Linux with kernel 5.8 and my touchpad works on my S145. 22/09/2020 19:45 Ubuntu 20.10 Beta is working well, I have noticed in the past that most Ubuntu Beta releases work well. Ubuntu Linux 20.10 will only be released on the 22nd October 2020. Just my MX 1100 mouse is not too koscher on Ubuntu as the MX 1100 is over ten years old and is almost dead. Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta was released officially on the 02/10/2020 but I am using the current daily build so I have been calling my Ubuntu Linux 20.10, Beta. I am trying to click my S2 as gentle as possible as the MX 1100 I had to hit the button hard.


Mhlengi my stepson at Pennington beach


In memory of Tata 1931 to 2006

To read the next parts my book please email me at with "AMPPOL IT" in the subject line, which most likely has been redirected all these years except that I received two emails, T&C's apply, YOU NEED TO MAKE A DONATION THIS TIME via Paypal. I receive donations from two sources at the moment. Mama gives me a roof over my head and feeds me, we barely make ends meet, in fact we don't. *up till August 2020. We got a lucky break during August 2020. And one from Cyril Ramaphosa the President of South Africa, a 350 rand unemployment grant. This book is for info purposes. For forty five Rand every six months I receive 3200 Rands worth of meds every month from the ANC government and KZN health dept at the Pennington clinic. In the years I have been typing this book I have not received a single donation via Paypal (received $60 for my ECG forth quarter 2020), nor have I sold a DVD. Yet from 2003 till 2013 my SOHO AMPPOL IT Linux CD's & DVD's was doing ok until we moved to Pennington from Randburg. G.J. Crookes helped me out a lot, recently especially since January 2016. 08/08/2020 05:15 I have thought about it and will not join the ANC party because they have banned fags (smoking). Even though I feel for the poor and I at least have food on my plate but I should be receiving a 1840 rand disability grant, which two G.J. Crookes Doctors refused to give me as they say I can work, sure I am stoned half the time on my meds. I had a disability grant in Gauteng but I let it lapse when I was too busy with AMPPOL IT to go to the big city to fill out new forms. There is little freedom of speech in South Africa the way I have been hacked because of this book. As of Tuesday 18th August 2020 the President said we may smoke again. January 2021 we are at an adjusted level 3 lockdown again, God save our souls. At the first family meeting this year the President Cyril Ramaphosa said the beaches will be closed for 14 days except for fishermen. So most of the holiday makers from all over the country who are in Pennington bought fishing rods so they can go to the beach. I have never seen so many people walking up and down our street with fishing rods.

Hardware used to type this book:


This book was first typed on a Centrino Duo then a Celeron N3060 and now a Lenovo S145 i5 with ADSL then Cubot Manito and Samsung A20.

OS used Windows 10 x 2, PCLinuxOS x 2, Ubuntu Linux 20.04.1, Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta, Mangero 20.1, Mageai 8 Beta 1, Debian Buster 10.6, Fedora KDE Plasma 33 Beta.

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