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Crimes against humanity.


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This short (second part on request) book with pictures, mainly for Doctors, nurses and med students so they can learn by their mistakes, fuck it lets offend everybody, is dedicated to Tata who helped me so much in his living years, 1931 to 2006 and to dear Mama who still helps me out at present. Each part will have additional paragraphs in rolling released versions. A donation of any amount would be great if you enjoy the progress of my draft copy of my autobiography by Paypal.


Quick jump to: Part 18, Crimes against humanity in South African Psychiatric Hospitals

Crimes against humanity, as defined by the Rome Statute of the International Criminal Court Explanatory Memorandum, "are particularly odious offences in that they constitute a serious attack on human dignity or grave humiliation or a degradation of human beings.

Quick jump to: Part 19, G.J. Crookes Hospital

Quick jump to: Part 20, THMC

About the author: Marek Pawinski (bipolar) born in Warsaw, Poland and immigrated to South Africa in 1968, started to operate computers in 1990, (remember Leisure Suite Larry) i started off my vocation in the electrical field and during that time became more interested in computers when i learned how to use CAD. I changed my vocation to the information technology field and studied for my MCSE (Microsoft Certified Sysytems Engineer), i gave my final exams a miss (wrote and passed only the four cores) when i discovered the Linux operating system and Red Hat 6.1 was my first boxed set. So in those days i obtained my MCP (Microsoft Certified Professional), NT 4 but continued to self study fifteen Microsoft Windows NT/2000 related books in all and thirteen CISSP related books till present. The good about books i purchased is that there are a lot of practical examples to play around with on my LAN.

I then opened another business (other than my electrical business) promoting and selling open source Linux operating systems. I became quite interested in the Information Technology Security field and being quite a book worm in those days i read and used examples of the Information Technology Security books. To this day i still read Information Technology Security books even though most of the information can be found browsing the internet. Unfortunately in this day and age i have to deploy an active protection system to prevent line-of-sight and broad spectrum frequencies from acquiring and/or destroying my mum, Jabu and i.

I am blessed with bipolar disorder via electronic pulse frequencies
and as Steve Fry (from the (BBC), whom also suffers from bipolar disorder, i am in a stable condition, presently (It fluctuates). Yet when i get treated like shit i type like shit.


Part eighteen

Lets have a look at medical and pharmaceutical torture. I wonder if the pharmaceutical companies employing the pharmacist's who design the prescription drugs actually try out the prescription drugs out on themselves first other than trying the prescription drugs in test??? cases with 1000 or more (for example) human beings being the guinea pigs to obtain a baseline. Like BP medication which can and does cause ED in some cases.....


Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital - Crimes against humanity

The beginning of November 2014 i suffered a nervous breakdown and was admitted to the G.J. Crookes Hospital in Scottburgh, Kwa Zulu Natal, South Africa, after less than two weeks a girl general practitioner, Dr Ndlovo decided to transfer me to the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital nestled in the foothills of the Underberg still in Kwa Zulu Natal but in the middle of nowhere. Most of the patients there where admitted for drug induced paranoia or criminal acts.
For example it took my wife, Jabu and i to return home on the 14/01/2015 seven hours by four taxis and we missed the last taxi as it was late and we had to walk for one and one half hour up a hill to get home, we arrived after sunset. The non scenic route takes one and one half hours by a low level flying sixteen seater Quantum ambulance transporter.

These are factual events as of 13th January 2015 which occured at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital and G.J. Crookes Hospital, three months prior to the 13th January 2015. I am working on the typos and grammatical errors.


To top it all i have to go back to the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital for more evaluation by a general practitioner as there currently is no psychiatrist at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital and ones fate is decided by a general practionioner. Did you see the movie Rwanda, well what is to follow is very similar. I was the only Caucasian patient in the two wings of the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital amongst forty five Africans. What a nightmare, i was assaulted by an psychotic patient who tried to steal my breakfast, six slices of bread with a bit of butter and tea. i limped for two weeks after this incident with terrible pain in my left buttock. Patients who assault other patients are hit with batons by the security guards and then given Clopixol Acuphase injections to knock them for a few days. The patients fight and hit each other for tobacco especially when the tobbacco runs out and i m the only one who has tobacco. It is impossible to enjoy a hand rolled cigarette by oneself as i was surrounded by twenty psychotic or semi psychotic patients each and every time demanding two pulls of my fag and the patients act as if its there right to my tobacco. Never mind food or gifts received from visitors, one has to eat what one receives at the nursing sisters station or all the food will be taken over by the patients.
What a relief to find out that prison is worse than the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital from two of the patients who actually where in prison, i am being a bit salcastic in this sentence.

On one occasion a patient was bugging me with questions and i told him to speak to the nurse. The nurse told me to "fuck off" and when i went to the sister in charge to report this the security guard followed me and tried to prevent me from speaking to the sister in charge, the security guard from LK Solutions Security then said to me that i am "rubbish" and he will call the other security guards to beat me with battons.

Flooded bathroom floors

Bathing time is African style like the majority of Africans in South Africa bath in a large plastic dish with about ten litres of water or less. I was quite used to this as this is how i bathed at my wives, Jabu house. Above is a pic of how the basins looked like.

I feel sorry for the patients as most of them receive no visitors and i have never heard of or seen before this episode that nurses walk around with polycop plumbing pipe about four hundred milimeters long and fifteen milimeters thick and assualt the patients. Is this Psychiatry?

On the other hand the sisters in charge and some staff sisters where quite good to me and where very helpfull, but they have to follow the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital rules.

Medication is handed out at 09:30 after breakfast and the patients share the same water cups to down the medication, thank God I do not have turberculousis or some other horrible disease from sharing cups with 45 patients.


The patients spend the whole day in a closed courtyard, fifteen by twenty meters and urinate in one corner of the courtyard as the patients are not allowed to go inside the wards to urinate during the day. The stench of urine is unbearable in that corner of the courtyard unless it rains and the urine washes away into the drain. On one night the urinal was blocked inside the ward and the urinal overflowed with urine for three days. More stench and those patients without shoes walked in the urine. The toilets do not work and faeces build up till someone flushes the toilet with a bucket, most nauseating.

Water is sometimes not available during the night when the water bucket and one cup is not left on the other side of the locked grill gate, never mind the fire hazard. If there was a fire there is no chance in hell that all five wards could be open to let out the patients. The wards, ten patients per ward are locked at night as some windows where broken with axxess to the courtyard from the passage.

At this stage I think I would be ashamed if I was any part of the medical profession, especially the Doctors whom are aware of all this and general practitioners who treat psych patients as there is currently no psychiatrist in the Hospital.

I have sixteen years experience as an electrician in the construction field and seventeen years experience in Information Technology mainly using the Linux operating system as well as Microsoft Windows, yet at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital i must take orders from cleaners and nurses under twenty five years of age, one of the duties of the nurses is to write reports about the patients. If the nurses don't like a patient they write negative reports about a patient. I found that most of the male staff nurses had more of a heart than the females, some female nurses and sisters are real bitches. On my last day when as i typed before attacked and surrounded by thirty or so patients for a fag, the one male staff nurse looked on in despair but he could do nothing. I was so happy and excited to go home on LOA (leave of absence) so one of the nurses asked me if i was having a relapse (from my excitement) can you believe it. The nurses play little mind games and notarize everything a patient does in the courtyard during the day which is mostly sleep. Like i typed before 45 or so nut cases and four sexy nurses just does not go, the males all want the attention of the nurses. Some of the nurses are very very shaftable but i think most of them are into bondage. We where all to go for a haircut and at first i refused. I did not want a kaal kop (no hair African style), so i eventually said i would like my beard trimmed but the nursing sister said i could not go anymore. She had the hots for me but was playing hard to get. One has to have a beard as there are no razors available and the patients my slit each others throats with the razors.


I was unable to pay my bills as i was in the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital and G.J. Crookes Hospital, joy to the world, i now have "hundreds" of debt collector companies after me and my credit rating has dropped to zero. Of course no shrink, G.P., sister, nurse nor social worker will help me out with my debt but someone was very eagar to put me away to Umzimkulu psych hospital because of their grave faux pas. The social worker at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital has ninety patients in the queue and i was lucky to see the general practionioner on the 13/01/2015 as he was still busy attending to patients from November 2014. This frightens me as i may wait for weeks to see the general practionioner on my return.

Stephen Fry (a BBC presenter) based in London AFAIK has experienced mental health problems for much of his life. I am sure he did not receive the treatment i received in Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital, not for the life of my can i still phathom that Psychiatric patients are treated with assualt and abuse as part of there treatment to become well again even thought most of the patients are in the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital are there for drug induced psychosis where they stabbed or assualted someone.

The Zulu language is spoken most of the time and i don't have a clue what is going on especially at the twice daily forced prayer sessions but i have to join in anyway. Jabu my wife is a Zulu girl yet i only understand a bit of Zulu, like "faga lo makulu mthondo kona la ingquza". Jabu is quite religious so i don't have anything against religion if i at least i could understand the singing and chanting.

I think it's disgusting that South Africa receives billions of ZAR in medical grants from overseas for this kind of treatment and never mind the theft. I had a terrible summer flu for two weeks and only realized later that the roll on deodrant shared by forty five patients was for woman. The roll on ordered for the patients at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital is stolen by someone working in the Hospital for there own use and most of the nursing staff are woman, can't figure out the theft bit as the nursing staff have three to eight thousand ZAR smart phones and drive new 150 000 ZAR plus motor vechicles.

I was treated slightly better than the rest of the patients because i am Caucasian, and like i typed before the only Caucasian within miles of the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital. I hope someone takes notice of this part of my book so my African friends (patients) can receive better treatment instead of being assaulted with battons, high heels and plumbing pipe.


I don't know anymore what is the official language of South Africa but the medication i took home on my leave of absence, the instructions where in Zulu.

I actually fear for my life at Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital, the ward where i am now is called Male Block Two. And one of the patients in this ward is some kind of martial arts expert. On my arrival he had to show off his moves whist we where waiting to be counted. (Counting of patients involves the patients sitting for one hour doing nothing waiting the shift to change and then be counted.) From time to time this "martial arts patient" goes a bit nuts especially on the tobacco subject like most other patients, 70% of the patients. Pure joy knowing i can be assaulted or worse anytime for a small amount of tobacco or food.

Hyena attack

Above is a pic of an example of the small pieces of tobacco some patients would gather for hours to roll one fag using a newspaper as rolling paper

Patients are admitted to Male Block One where 80% of the patients are psychotic, 40% from actually been mentally ill and the rest mostly drug induced pyschosis or being sent to Umzimkulu for some criminal act. Smoking of tobacco is allowed in the ward. Sorry to burst your bubble, i was never once tested positive for mary jane nor coke nor any other magic mushroom. Then the transition to Male Block Two where smoking tobacco is also allowed. Male Block Three, i dread to go there, there is absolutly no smoking allowed and i have been smoking tobacco for thirty five years. I had a small nervous breakdown on admittance to Male Block One and then to Male Block Two. Each transition is like some kind of initiation ceremony where the patients test to see if they can obtain tobacco and food out of me. One patient actually sits on my bed up to and hour waiting for me to light up as he figures what's mine is his. Not all the patients are like this thank God and i recon i have made a few friends.

Wolf attack

The tobacco saga occurs with all new patients and their tobacco or food is quickly consumed in a few hours. Watching lions, hyenas or vultures on TV or in real life on a kill can give a good picture of the food and tobacco episodes, meaning the food and tobacco brought by visitors to the patients.

Hand rolled fag

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Above is a pic of a hand rolled fag the patients used to roll when i had rizla rolling paper in stock, newspaper was normally used, bit harsh when one has a cold or flu, the newspaper that is.

Boredom is a real killer and lucky enough my sister bought me a few magazines (to the disapproval of some staff nurses as there where semi naked girls in the magazines, wow can you handle that, maybe the staff where afraid that the patients would start shafting each other, too many happy clappies rule this world on a Sabbath day) and a novel with large font as my multi focals where stolen at G.J. Crookes Hospital, Scottburgh, this was Xmas of 2014 on the 22nd of December 2014. My previous business, AMPPOL IT Linux CD's & DVD's keep me busy for sixteen hours a day so you can imagine doing sweet fuck all most of the day from sunrise till 21:00. Some of the patients whom have been at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital for months, up to nine months or more love it there, free food, free accomandation and free medication, at the taxpayers expense, joy to the world. Lets face it most South Africans have one meal per day if that and at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital:


BBQ at Jabu's mum's place

I rather enjoy this in the pic above than the menu below

  • 09:30 Breakfast: Six slices of bread with margarine on three of the slices and tea with milk and sugar, sometimes no milk
  • 13:00 Lunch: Rice or phutu pap or saltless samp and 25 gramms of meat unless there is mince meat then 50 gramms, drumstick of chicken sometimes on Sundays
  • 16:30 Supper: Rice and beans or pap and pilchards
  • 20:00: Black over sweetened tea (laced with stay soft) and four slices of bread, two of them with margarine
No need to complain, wow at G.J. Crookes Hospital, the food was better, at least different kinds of porridge for breakfast and an egg and a variety of meat and veggies for lunch. Don't understand why all the Government food dished out is not standard

South Africa is one of the few countries in the world where one can receive treatment for under $3 but this kind of treatment i don't ne ed and i am not the only patient who complains about abuse and assault. Most of the African patients and there families live in the sticks cks so to whom will they report all this to. I love South Africa and South Africans but this is really the pits.

I noticed many of the patients at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital take a drug called Risperidone, a horrible piece of work where sixty sixty percentage of males suffer from erectile dysfunction when taking Risperidone, i wonder if the "mental patients" (that's what they are referred to as by the staff) actually have a choice whether to have erectile dysfunction or not, i bet my bottom dollar and it's a fact that no patient is informed of the side effects of the medication they are taking, why should us "mental patients" be informed or have the right to know of side effects, we are the scum of the earth, maybe Government Psychiatry gets it's "info manual" from the holocast. I once researched Risperidone for days on the internet in 2012 and wow what negative reviews. Some of the patients are so spaced out on prescription drugs they sleep most of the day to keep them calm.


During my stay at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital, i observed the finer art of theft, assualt by LK Security Solutions on patients, i pity the guy (patient) whom escaped from the ajoining ward, his screams could be heard miles away whilst the patient was beat with batons. No respect for patients, i once informed one of the staff members that the burglar bars put up on one window had jaggered steel edges and could hurt someone so the staff member said "let them". There is no outbound communication to the outside world for most of the African patients, if one asks a nurse to send an sms the answer is "battery flat" or "no airtime, mean while the nurses sit using WhatsApp the whole day. Ok it would be a bit heavy if 45 patients used the nurses phone, even though i offered to pay, the nurses could at least answer truthfully and inform the patients that cell phone calls are allowed. The nurses are a bunch of liars and have the cheek to pray twice a day with the patients. If a patient ask a nurse for something the answer is more likely to be "kusasa" (tomorrow). I can understand spending twelve hours a day for five days shift with psychotic patients is a bit taxing but the staff nurses opted for this job and i think that the patients at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital could be treated with dignity and more humanly.

I learned a whole lot of new Zulu words at Umzimkulu psych hospital like, ingquza, masende and bhebha to the disapproval of Jabu.


Some of the African patients where so desperate for tobacco they would collect the tiny pieces of loose tobacco from the floor and when there was enough tobacco they would roll a "joint" in a manner of speaking.

Don't try this at home or anywhere else and i do not condone this but it seems that according to Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital, violence is cool and condoned. As long as you sort out your frustrations with batons, polycop plumbers pipe, high heels, a strawberry jam sandwich and mind bending, muscle spasm causing injections.

I am upset now very upset. How on earth could Dr Ndlovo from G.J. Crookes transfer me from a cage full of pigeons to a cage full of vipers and ruin me financially. If i had been discharged from G.J. Crookes i would have been able to make up my payments. Surely if a patient is so psychotic they would be transferred on day one or two. Yet according to my mother: a security guard impersonating a principal psychiatrist, informed my mother that "they need the beds" which is also not true as there where two empty beds in the ward and G2 is also used for psych patients.

I must have been in a very bad state of mind as one night sister took my blood pressure nightly and allowed me to take her blood pressure on numerous occasions. Imagine that some cleaners and staff nurses allowed me to choose and play songs on there smart phones. Ok i hope this paragraph does not get anyone into trouble but i watched the most fantastic game of soccer with the night staff and security guards one Wednesday night. I stand corrected i was at G.J. Crookes longer than 72 hours as i now remember there was no soccer game the next Wednesday for some or other reason whilst i was at G.J. Crookes Hospital.


Doc e, arranged that i do not have to go back to the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital, thank you very much for that.


I prefer and so do all of us, a restroom like in the pic above and not a restroom overflowing with shit and piss

I acquired two "bodyguards" in Male block one after my tobacco was stolen off my person whilst i was lying down in the morning sunshine on the tiled section of the courtyard floor. My one bodyguard and friend (John was his name) even himself mentioned that it was stressful holding onto my tobacco and rolling "joints" for me. The other bodyguard had been in the ward for many months and the other African patients where a bit wary of him. He would make sure that the other African patients stayed away whilst the tobacco was rolled mostly using my own purchased paper or if that ran out then newspaper. Best to choose the meanest mother fuckers as your friends in a place like this, which works on occassions.

Talking about "joints", marijuana is freely available at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital. I found this out when a patient asked me for a light and my bodyguard and best African friend John, told me not to smoke from that "joint" as it contains marijuana. Mary jane is supposed to induce paranoia in mentally ill patients so WTF.

Quite educating this business. I found out that one can crush and smoke pain killers as another room mate who slept opposite me did. Maybe that's why some nurses refused to hand out pain killers without a Doctor's script. So if you have a splitting headache in the afternoon one might obtain some pain killers the next day if lucky. I stay away from pain killers if possible but with my buttock injury from being assaulted and my two week summer cold i was popping pain killer's like crazy. Not thanks to the female Doctor whom i requested pain killers at the nurses station and she did not write them up the first time.

Come to think of it my best African friend went on his knees to talk to this female Doctor at the nurses station. Not that they where married but i was under the impression that Zulu girls serve food on their knees to their husbands. And he was nowhere near psychotic.

To get back to the drugs story, on one occasion i received a phone call in the injection room and there was this newly admitted coloured chap trying to open the medicine trolly. (He also received the customery tobacco treatment on arrival.) A few days later he and the guy who smoked the pain killers managed to steal some drugs from the medicine trolly. They received the baton treatment for their troubles. The assaulting of patients continues to baffle me as i was under the impression that violence in psychiatry was meant to be discouraged (never mind frowned upon) and guys that where in private and most state hospitals, that i have communicated with where never assaulted. Thank God i never witnessed any assault the first time i was admitted at G.J. Crookes Hospital unlike Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital.


On my move from one section to the next at Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital i lost my mountain view bed but was soon invited to another ward closer to the windows by two patients, the alterior motives you guess it, tobacco. The first ward or section i was in (gets a bit confusing this ward business) but anyhow i had a lovely view of the foothills of the Underberg mountains but knew this stunning view of the mountains and a village which was part of Umzimkulu village would not last and soon became quite mudane. Being an outdoor lover i never dreamt magestic mountains could become so boring.

So much agro and fustration as the patients where not allowed out the wards for walks. In any of the three wards bar one occasion. Maybe the patients would try to escape, wow why on earth would anyone want to escape. The one occasion sixteen patients where allowed to go for a walk outside was for a haircut. I remember that day very well. I was sitting in the courtyard and a female nurse starting picking out patients for a haircut. She called me out and i said no thanks. I did not want my hair to be cut bald as some Africans cut their hair. My blood really boiled and when the sixteen patients where about to get on the way for hair cuts i wanted to go with to have my beard trimmed off. The female nurse then changed her mind and said that i could not go at all. Talk about being petty.

I might be making a big issue of the tobacco story but that was the only occupational therapy there was at the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital and when the patients received their monthly disability grant or visitors brought tobacco the patients who smoked, smoked non stop almost till all their tobacco was finished in two or three days. Might as well make a "meal" of it when you have it. I was rather more cautious and tried to ration my tobacco till Jabu came to visit me. For every one hundred grams of tobacco i received, i recon i smoked fifty grams and the other fifty grams was for "bodyguard" and sharing of tobacco fees.

Ninety five percent of the patients smoked and a large percentage never smoked before but only smoked at the Umzimkulu to pass the time and have something to occupy themselves with, the youngsters under 28 years of age or so would hide there smoking habits from their mothers or family when they came to visit them.

The patients make their own beds in the morning's. The nurses then come along and make the beds again. I found out only one blanket per patient is permitted during the summer months. Allegedly June and July the coldest months, really cold in the Underberg as I found out first hand on some of our vacations in the Drakensberg, two blankets are allowed. One or two degrees celsius (34 F) outside in winter at late night and early morning it gets really cold without a heater in the bedroom wherever you might be in a hotel or the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital. The patients ward windows are not triple glazed but thinking back the glass is 15mm thick so that must help with the cold a wee bit.


How dare the Sisters, nurses (male and female) and security guards force the patients to pray and dance around in a circle singing Zulu religious songs after the way some of them treat the patients, two faced religious attitudes, i am sure it is written somewhere: abuse, assault, degrade ones dignity, humiliate and tomorrow you will be forgiven. I took no part in these prayer "meeting's" other than i was forced to stand. And my last morning at Umzimkulu Psych Hospital i did go around in circles chanting something at the insistence of one of the nurses just to please her and not have hassles on my last day.

Not everyone who says to me, Lord, Lord, will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. On that day many will say to me, Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name? And then will I declare to them, I never knew you; depart from me, you workers of lawlessness. Matthew 7:21-23

I used to be quite a self religious person but i have lost my respect for God due to this hospital stay and psychological after effects, really too much is too much.

I think Stephen Fry is correct with his viewpoint on God. ''The quicker you forget about Him, your life will change for the better"

This is the final nail in the coffin between God and i and it really hurts me to loose faith after so many years, but this is really it, i have had enough. What i have gone through in my life is a fraction of some of the pain and suffering others go or have gone through but i have had enough of this blatant two faced religious attitudes.

And it gets even better, on the 18th Febuary 2015, another anniversary, my birthday, my

The reason i was sent from G.J. Crookes Hospital in Scottburgh, South Africa to the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital was that Doctor Ndlovo filled up a bath and gave me a teaspoon, cup and bucket and asked me to empty the bath, i choose the bucket, she asked me whether i would like a bed by the window in the Umzimkulu Psychiatric Hospital as normal people would pull the bath plug. Just thought i would ad a bit of humour, this did not actually happen but one never knows, many things said in jest could be true.

Crimes against humanity, as defined by the Rome Statute of the International Criminal Court Explanatory Memorandum, "are particularly odious offences in that they constitute a serious attack on human dignity or grave humiliation or a degradation of human beings, they really fucked me up at Umzimkulu.



Crimes against humanity, as defined by the Rome Statute of the International Criminal Court Explanatory Memorandum, "are particularly odious offences in that they constitute a serious attack on human dignity or grave humiliation or a degradation of human beings.



Part nineteen

November 2015 i relapsed and landed up in the Ethembeni Ward at G.J Crooks Hospital on the 5th of December 2015. This is a government Hospital on the South Coast of South Africa where 95% of the patients are African.

The food at Ethembeni ward is good, mielie meal porridge or jungle oats, egg, bread and tea for breakfast. For lunch a hot meal is served with two veggies and meat as well as phutu or rice. Supper another hot meal with a little less on the plate.

But smoking privlages are few and far between in the psych ward. Five fags a day is all one is allowed, if one has them. So if one is used to smoking thirty fags a day one has suddenly cut down to five which was very good for my stress levels. The security guards reguarly steal the patients smokes and shared my smokes with other patients. The security guards (there is ways one on duty) find this ward most boring and cannot understand the illness of the patients.

On arrival at the Ethembeni ward i was beaten up by male staff nurses, hit with solid punches to my back for no apparent reason. Must be another lesson they will never forget. I was not that psychotic to imagine that.

Bath time is at around six thirty am and only six thirty am. I was beaten up by two of the biggest security guards for having a bath in the afternoons due to the heat, whilst still in the tub i was pounded with fists to my face. Doctor M ignored my complaint.

There are ten beds in the Ethembeni ward, two seclusion room beds. In the five room ward there is a television. The only entertainment is to check out the young nurses butts if they are on duty that day and the cleaner was a real dog. Like i said the hospital has an OT section but there is no OT.

Thank God i was transferred to an infectious ward for a few weeks where i had more freedom. I could smoke when i wanted to and spent the days recovering at a normal pace, there was no beef as to when one could take a shower, not like the Ethembeni ward "prison" where i "misplaced" my wedding band and my multi focals where stolen on another visit.

Yet the powers that be decided to transfer me back to Ethembeni ward as i was smoking too much, like there is so much to do with no OT (occupational therapy) at all, even though the hospital does have an OT section.

The infectious ward has thirty six beds, eight of the beds are taken up by non psychotic psych patients. Can't be that of a infectious ward as only 70% of the nurses wear masks and not all the doctors wear masks. Strange the reason i was sent to Umzimkulu psych hospital, according to the CEO (Chief Security Guard) was that the beds at Ethembeni where full, i never knew the doctors transferred patients from Ethembeni to G2, must be another lesson they will never forget that they gave me.

As usual the security guards are in charge of the ward(s), to be a security guard at a government hospital the security guard has to first go to university for three years at least, in any faculty, the security guards also have to be au faut with beating up one patient, eight against one. Which i witnessed with my own eyes at G2 and at Umzimkulu.

Strange that there are three other security guards, who are in charge, Indian chaps whom use brain power to negotiate with a troublesome patient but they are not around much.

Talent abounds at G.J. Crookes Hospital, there are tons of lovely nurses and sisters. The white nurses uniforms are quite see through at times and nothing beats a nice tight behind. The cleaners are not too bad either and some are quite friendly. On the subject of talent, i would not mind shagging my out patient GP. she is quite cute and also an African. I have been with Jabu for six years now so African "girls" really turn me on.

In the apartheid days i would have been killed for going out with an African girl or marrying one. By the Africans and not the apartheid security police, according to one of the staff nurses at Umzimkulu Psych Hospital.

Nothing wrong at looking as long as one does not touch. Being away from Jabu my wife for such a long time really makes one "jags" (randy). Oh well as long as there where tons of nurses to look at. ED (erectile dysfunction) is a real pain and the doctors don't give a fuck, never mind the herbs cost an arm and a leg a shot (pun intended) but there is no spontaneous love making. The herbs or Cialis have to be taken and then the long wait till the mood changes and we are ready for love making. The joy of living in South africa where the "girls" out number the men fifteen million to one. And yes money talks, African girls like "mulungu" with big bucks, so i will have have no luck in that department. Not that WIC "girls" don't like march, (money) either.


On a brighter side, Xmas day we spent at the beach and had supper at the mall thanks to my sister whom arranged a pass out. It was nice to eat out with my family and especially my wife at one of the restaurants. My sister and i also spent a day at the beach amongst the throng of holiday makers on a previous occasion.

An African lady was locked up in the seclusion room for a few days and all she did was scream at the top of her voice, non stop. She was there for at least one week, strange that she was not transferred to Umzimkhulu.

I think I rather be in a psych ward at G.J. Crookes Hospital (but not Umzimkhulu) than at the oncology ward if i had to choose illnesses. I am so blessed, touch wood not to have any physical illness other than erectile dysfunction which is a cause of the meds i swallow religiously. No joy to those guys whom suffer from blood pressure hassles as well, ED is also part of their game. Two doctors suggested i take Cialis, fuck that i need a boner on demand not having to wait one hour before i can get hard on and stress does not help either, i can take 2000 mg Cialis and will not get it up if i am stressed out.

Just like in Ward one at Umzimkulu Psych Hospital the patients bath in a basin to make them feel really at home. 70% of South Africans bath in a basin at night or during the day with a kettle of hot water or boiled water on a fire. In the country where i come from, after WWII and still into the fifties, ditto for some.

G2 ward at G.J. Crookes had five showers and as i mentioned previously Ethembeni ward had one scalding hot water supply from the bath. A thermostat costs around 250 ZAR, (12 USD). The thermostat was either set on boiling point so 10 patients could have hot water or some dick head needed to replace the thermostat, but who the fuck am i to talk being a former electrician of sixteen years. Maintenance could at least install another water heater back to back at ethembeni after spending millions of ZAR revamping G.J. Crookes Hospital where the reception area is tops and so is the pharmacy.


To top it all on my last out patient visit to G.J. Crookes in May 2016 there was no psychiatrist working in the Hospital and i was seen to by a GP. Hopefully this has changed by now, psychiatrists might as well not study for a few years longer if a GP can do the shrinks job which they cannot.

I obtain a rash from the meds i take but was refused by the GP in May 2016 for a script for Persivate ointment, she informed me "i must go upstairs" and wait another three hours in the queue to see another doctor. Seriously if herbal meds where strong enough for my condition i would be taking them and not these shit meds that give me erectile dysfunction and Cialis costs an arm and a leg which i cannot afford even though there are herbal alternatives at one third of the price which work just as well.

It was rather cold on a motorcycle in May 2016 and i arrived at G.J. Crooks at round 8:00 by the time i obtained my file it was 09:00, i waited till 12:00 to see the GP at the psych clinic. The total cost for the consultation and meds supply for six months is one and one half USD (twenty ZAR) so can't complain there.

It's the assault, violence and theft that really bugs me and this is commited by the security guards even though some nursing sisters and nurses steal the patients food, to take in a lunch box home with them, as well as milk and fresh juice. Odd that someone with a 6000 ZAR smart phone needs to steal. I was once shaking and almost had a nervous breakdown when in front of thirty six patients at G2 an African chap was assaulted and held down by eight security guards, he just cried out "mfowethu mfowethu" (spelling) which means brother in the Zulu language. One needs six months to recuperate after being a patient in a government hospital. Not all Africans are like this, most go to church on a Saturday or Sunday or maybe it's the bible that's the problem.

When one is psychotic one does not know what the fuck is going on so the doctor's and sisters try there best in a fassion with meds that are of dubious nature. Each shrink likes there own meds. Strangely in a private hospital a psych patient recovers on average in ten days but the government hospitals have some philosophy that a psych patient needs to stay from one to three months if not longer. However if a psych patient is too spaced out for care in a private hospital and the twenty four hour "knock out injection" which puts one to sleep, does not work then he or she is sent to a government hospital if the patient is non compliant of all things. So those whom have medical aid really score.

We have discovered from reading this book that violence is acceptable by staff members, theft is A ok in psych wards and hospitals of all places, by the staff. I would not treat my dogs the way i was treated and my African friends where treated in the psych hospitals.
Spot of bad luck in the South Coast for me with my manic episodes spiking due to what i thought was the change in altitude but i will never know as there is only a twenty minute if that consultation with a GP or shrink per out patient session at the G.J Crookes Hospital.


Jesus I trust in You

Part twenty

On a very brighter note i was once admitted to THMC, what a holiday camp it was in those days. This was a semi private/government psych Hospital. I believe the historic place has been closed down now due to the high cost of rates and taxes in Sandton, Gauteng, South Africa. A real shame as most of the buildings were from the early 60's. I believe i was given the incorrect intel as the place is still open. The procedure is one starts of at a private hospital, then demoted to a government hospital then sent of to THMC for a holiday. At one stage in our lives we will suffer from one illness or other so having bipolar disorder is just one of those things or is it brain radiation from electronic sources.

There where two swimming pools at THMC, some med students don't even know the place. One for the patients and one for the staff nurses who lived in the single quarters. There where also two full size snooker tables in the games room. A cafe for the patients and staff as well. There was a historic chapel and some of the buildings where quite historic which means nothing in South Africa, try knock down a historic building in Europe for instance and see what occurs, just come with bulldozer and put up modern skyscrapers. Come to think of it i got into big shit one night as i was chatting up an African sister, the next day she was put on day shift. What mentality, black is beautiful.

There where six meals served a day, breakfast, tea, lunch, tea, supper and then tea again, tea as in tea or coffee with biscuits not tea tea. The food was quite good and one could put on weight. THMC was nowhere near similar to Barbara Streisand's movie "Nuts". More nut case staff members at Umzimkulu psychc hospital than anywhere else. They really taught me a lesson they will never forget. Sometimes its spelt Umzimkhulu. Which in Zulu means "place of the fucked up mountain", not really but close.

Draft copy

May month 2020 I noticed they are demolishing the psychc clinic, the new clinic will be in the main building at G.J. Crookes AFAIK, reception said I should ask security where it is. I found out on the 12th of August 2020 that I was incorrect, the old physc clinic had a nice garden overlooking the R102, I used to eat my sandwiches and have a smoke whilst I waited for five hours to see the Doctor. Now the new psyhc clinic is in a dreary old concrete part of the old part of G.J. Crookes hospital where one sits in a corridor exposed to the elements, fuck. Mama whom does not get treated correctly for, my brother and I all suffer from one of the many forms of bipolar, I have a brother who is a sisi.






This is how I started my AMPPOL IT Linux CD's & DVD's business in 2003 with a simple HTML website which progressed to the hacked joomla website (designed for me for free by a Linux guy from JHB) in Pennington of all places as shown in the pic above hosted by Afrihost when it was hacked.

I like playing around with these

My first boxed set of the Linux OS was Red Hat 6.1 around 2002. I then used Red Hat 7.0 through to Red Hat, 7.3 was a great release. Or could it be 1999/2000. I later went over to Fedora Core and then at Fedora Core 2 to Mandrake Linux because my video card would not work on Fedora Core 2. And then Mandriva. I miss the Johannesburg thunderstorms where from my SOHO i could see the bad weather coming from the south and would unplug every computer even though i had UPSes. No such thunderstorms in Pennington.

Ubuntu Linux

Ubuntu Linux was born in 2005 and slowly over the years pushed out Mandriva Linux which i think Mandriva/Mageia Linux used to be the best OS around. I am a RPM guy. Ubuntu Linux has come a long way since i tried 5.05 i think it was. I recommend Ubuntu Linux for a start up Linux if you are new to Linux. 6.06 will only work on my 200? Semptron laptop. So i use the CD version of AntiX on my 2006 laptop with a Septrom processor. All my laptops i purchased in Johannesburg are still intact. My two desktop machines have died.

Mageia Linux

Mandriva and then Mageia used to be my favourite and i am still lost without them. I had to leave Mageia 6 as X kept freezing my laptop early 2018 after grafting fine since it's release in July 2017. It's very easy to kill X in Mageia if it's acting up. I was most likely been hacked because of this book.

I was very sorry to have to leave Mageia 6 even though i still play around with it on Virtualbox. I still have Mageia 5 installed on my mothballed Centrino. Which is not much use as the core temp goes to 75 C when idle and the screen has packed up.

Debian Linux

At Johannesburg on one of my machines i used to use Debian Linux as a file server and burning server.

I used Mandriva as my desktop.

Today instead of Mageia 6 KDE Plasma i use Debian Linux KDE Plasma as well as PCLinuxOS.

Since Buster was released i have gone back to using Mageia 7, i fucked up my Debian installation. Lucky i had a separate /home directory. Ubuntu was no hassle to upgrade from 18.04 to 19.04 to 19.10 then to 20.04 LTS.

Ian was the guy who complied Debian and Debbie was his girlfriend. Hence the name deb ian.

I am just going to mention these four as i know from past experience they work well even though i have tried most of the top fifty.

PCLinuxOS Full Monty

I dabbled around with PCLinuxOS in JHB. It is based on the now bankrupt Mandriva. Looks Like Mageai but these days it works better.

I trashed my 200 Gig Windows 10 partition and installed PCLinuxOS as /

So far so good, I am quite content with PCLinuxOS, has regular updates. X crashes now and again but not as much as in Mageai. For some reason when I log into PCLinuxOS I have to kill X and log in again and get my toolbar back.

Will see how it goes, no more Windows 10 or any other Windows on my machine as in JHB from 2003 till October 2012, except Windows XP on my Centrino which I purchased with XP, now moth balled which has seven obsolete Linux OSes on it, no XP. Overheats like shit and screen does not work. Served me well on many of my time share adventures with Mandriva installed.

Then a new kernel was up for PCLinuxOS and all hell broke loose. Upon boot X was fucked. I tried with drakconf in a terminal to adjust the display and keyboard which did not work, I choose the "happy hacking keyboard" and X came up but on reboot nothing, so I went back to the old stock kernel and PCLinuxOS worked in a fassion. I got pissed off and installed Fedora KDE Plasma spin, it worked on my spare partition till I updated. Once again no X with the new kernel only X grafted with the old stock kernel and still does so I got really pissed off and ....

Downloaded the Windows 10 iso on Ubuntu Linux 20.04 LTS copied the iso to Debian buster and burned the iso on a DL, it took 25 minutes to burn. i backed up my book and docs I need and proceeded to install Windows 10 over the 175 gig PCLinuxOS volume. By 04/08/2020 at around 04:15 I had Windows 10 installed again, the May 2020 update and I activated it so it is a legal copy, what a relief to have Windows 10 again Linux was starting to piss me off except Debian Buster and Ubuntu Linux 20.04 LTS which still graft. I also tried to install openSUSE but no go, openSUSE wanted a boot partition. So I have Windows 10 again and will wait till Microsoft 10 next patch Wednesday (for South Africa) in August 2020. Mageai 8 Alpha 1 is not updating as of 03/08/2020, I get errors, it was my fault, so i left it and the came along Beta 1 and I am on Beta 1 now, 08/08/2020. The new Mageai 8 Beta 1 kernel works unlike Fedora 32 and PCLinuxOS. Pity Fedora 32 and PCLinuxOS FULL MONTY do not graft but I think it's the hackers/that are fucking me around. PCLinuxOS now works with the stock kernel, I had 184 updates this morning, 15/08/2020, Mageia Beta 1 is going well, no hassles with the new kernel. 30/08/2020 all good with Ubuntu 20.04 LTS, Debian Buster 10, Mageia Beta 1 and PCLinuxOS stock kernel, I will only boot into Windows 10 on patch Tuesday even though it's a waste of 175 gigs HDD space.

These are the top nine Linux distro's in the world today:

The others are mostly forks of the above except Arch which i have not tried.

20/08/2020 CAT 10:30 Jabu and I go to her best friends mothers funeral. Miss V. Was supposed to be 19C but was a scorcher 25C. The ANC grated the dirt road to the funeral and filled up Miss V's water tank, Mostly in isiZulu but the pastor did preach once in English. All I seem to go to is funerals except Robert's wedding which was a grand affair at Zimbali in April 2019

26/08/2020 06:06 Wednesday CAT All I hear is the birds chirping in peace full Pennington. Jabu is coming to visit me for a short while this morning, Mama is up I can hear she opened the front security gate and door. It's quite warm, adios for now.

27/08/2020 16:15 Jabu arrives for the weekend.

30/08/2020 08:50 CAT Sunday Zack comes to visit me, he has brunch with Mama when she returns from church as he has to go home at 14:00, last time I saw him was in June 2020, I love my stepson. He is a man now. Jabu returns from work and after she has rested cooks us "kentucky" and pap. My irratable bowel syndrome was fine till this morning 31/02/2020 02:10. It's nice to be back together with Jabu again since 12/06/2020. We where separated for two and a half years even though whilst Mama had her fractured humerus she was here from end July 2019 till January 2020 as a care giver.

31/08/2020 03:07 CAT Monday Jabu returning from a shopping trip at Umzinto at 17:35 the Quantum taxi loses it's front tire and they almost roll. Jabu and the other girls walk down the hill to Pennington, Jabu arrives after sunset a bit shaken up. My girl is quite a strong isiZulu girl but she had a harrowing experience. If this had occured on the bridge going over the N2 the taxi could have gone right over the bridge and landed smack bang on the N2, thank God she eventually arrived safely.

01/09/2020 Spring Day Jabu arrives home with the shopping and two bunches of flowers she purchased from an Indian chap outside the local store. I wake at 22:45 after crashing at 20:32 after Generations TV show. When I am resting during the day Mama watches the BBC and other news programs and then at night. Mama loves cooking soups, all kinds of soup during the day even though she only has 45% use of her right arm. 23:58 it has been a cold last few days especially Sunday, 13C. I can't wait for summer. My above ground pool has a puncture in the bottom half so I am fucked for a pool again.

02/09/2020 00:05 CAT Watching Catholic online Mass for a change on my laptop, did not have data last month to use the laptop much after the 15th so watched online Mass on the A20. Keeping the five operating systems on my laptop up to date uses quite a bit of data and remember I downloaded Windows 10 last month.

03/09/2020 13:05 CAT Thursday Jabu say bye and I see her walk down the street towards the local shop, she is going to spend some time with her mother and Zack. Reminds me of eThembeni when she came to visit me and when the visit was over she walked out the security gates and the next time I saw her was at Umzinkulu. I was reading an ad on my website about lawyers who do medical work. I think Doctor Ndlovo a 28 year old GP at the time who sent me to Umzimkulu should sell her car, her husbands car and her house and move into a shack for giving me a credit rating of 0, and pay my debt, why not, why must i be in debt because of Doctor Ndlovu? I will investigate this further.

04/09/2020 06:50 CAT Friday Siphokazi comes to work, she is a good domestic but I check my money pouch which I have not checked for a long time and there is 200 Rand missing, fuck. Mama takes a walk down to the local store at 12:05 and returns at 14:15 quite hungry. I have the potatoes in the skin ready and Mama fries the onion and chicken livers.

05/09/2020 03:05 CAT Saturday I wake late these days after retiring just after the load shedding was over last night at 20:46. Jabu paid me a surprise visit after work, it was so nice to see her. She cooked me eggs and tomatoe and left for Umzinto at 13:35.

06/06/2020 05:30 CAT exactly Sunday The alarm wakes me and I wake Mama up for church. Mama is ready by 07:00 and drives off with a lift to Church. Mama really enjoys going to church, I had a few hours to myself with no electricity, lucky the towers batteries last for two hours so I can watch you tube. I have been going to every day Catholic Mass online for quite a while now, that's the first thing I do when I wake up. I have decided to set my alarm to wake me like my African nurse from Tara recommended I do so I can start off early, those where the days of AMPPOL IT Linux CD's & DVD's. Too much sleep at night no good, I am a night shift guy. I like to start my day at midnight since 2003. 20:53 see you tomorrow.

07/09/2020 15:56 CAT Monday Jabu arrives from work, bit of a bad mood but we make up during the load shedding and all is good.

08/09/2020 03:00 CAT exactly Tuesday The alarm wakes me and I fall back asleep. I wake again at 04:57. Siphokazi is coming to work today to help me scrape the ceiling of chipping paint, she was supposed to come yesterday but she said she had to go to the clinic, she actually went to collect her child grant I suspect. 05:43 there is a glimmer of sunrise. It's a mission to find a handy man in Pennington since Mr C retired and he used to charge me peanuts. 13/08/2020 Mr J was supposed to tile the toilet, I am still waiting.

09/09/2020 02:06 CAT Wednesday During February 2012 I met a girl older than I, much older, who stayed at Mama's place from Kirslwald Germany and she stays in Wroclaw Poland for six months of the year. Anyway we went for time share near the Kruger Park and we both enjoyed it. We kept in touch and she used to post me Tabac after shave, chocolates and sandels to Pennington. Unfortunatly on the 20th May 2020 we had an arguement about Jabu on WhatsApp. I did not sleep that night and Mrs E caused me to to develop mild mania. On the 12/06/2020 when I announced that Jabu and I are back together again she nor her friend from Warsaw Poland, Mrs K would not chat with me anymore, pity. I like mild to moderate mania as it keeps me productive. Mild mania is the best for me, stable no good. I am a hermit anyway.
As of today my mild/moderate mania seems to have passed and I am feeling more stableish with a bit of mild mania. Anyway of course I had to wake up early today just as I had to go to G.J. Crookes to collect my meds, the last few nights I was sleeping late. Lucky I had a power nap between 08:45 and 10:00. I went to GJC late, we arrived there at 11:50 and I was the only one in the q to collect my file. Like I said I don't know what will happen when it rains as the new clinic corridor is protected by a 1.4 meter wall so the patients will get wet unless they are allowed to sit in the inside corridor. I had some bloods taken, then the pharmacy and I was out of there in two hours. I have been an out patient at G.J. Crookes since January 2016 so they know me well, even the top security guards know me by name.
Mama in the meantime went for a haircut and we went to Checkers afterwards to do some shopping. When I go to Scottburgh I try sort out as many things as possible due to transport costs.

11/09/2020 02:55 CAT Friday, my nieces birthday, she turns 18 today. Happy birthday. In 2012 when I had my medical plan I was diagnosed with IBS by Doc L from Scottburgh. A few weeks ago I had extreme pain in my lower right abdomen when I got up from the armchair, I took some pills from the pharmacy and the pain has gone away, but I can feel a pushing pain in my lower right abdomen and I have only had two mugs of coffee now since I woke up at 00:18. Online Doctors are investigating my condition and I might have a hernia. Fuck that's all I need, I have been constipated for 15 years because of the meds I take, Mama feeds me plenty of fruit and vegetables. I don't do much PT as I am out of it between 08:00 and 11:00. Like I said since I opened my AMPPOL IT Linux CD's & DVD's business in 2003 I have been wakeing anytime between midnight and 02:00 and grafting till 07:00 more or less. That's in Randburg, then I used to start work again answering the phones at 08:00 till 19:00 and taking online orders so I grafted most of the day with power naps between. It's going well between Jabu and I and in a few days it will be our three month anniversary since we are back together again. I can't be bothered with spelling anymore, normally Samsung spells for me.
Mama is going to tile the toilet, so I have to go buy a few squares of tiles soon. The tilers where there to give a quote at 17:54, both of them where not wearing masks. I accepted the quote.
Went to bed early and woke at ....

12/09/2020 00:20 CAT Saturday Rebooted from Windows 10 and into Ubuntu 20.04 by mistake as I was listening to Catholic online Mass at the same time. So I did my usual morning Mageia Beta 1 update, all went smoothly. 02:15, had a hot shower, i feel the cold, feel sleepy now, 03:01. I woke at 06:32 and Mama and I went to Park Rynie at 07:55 to purchase some tiles, they did not have a large selection, in fact the first hardware shop we went to they had none at all. Today is the third month Jabu and I are back together. We will celebrate with a flattie chicken braai (BBQ) tomorrow. These mixture of herbs I take for ED are dangerous, the other night i took some and had a terrible pain in my right elbow, a bit in the left elbow and chest pain, it was as if I was having a panic attack. Come to think of it Mama upset me about two weeks ago and I had the same syntoms. But I think I have RA as I sit here and type my elbows are slightly painful. Tata died from an OD of steroids due to his RA. I am going to give it a break from taking a dangerous mixture of these ED herbs, fuck I really felt bad. I have been taking Lexan herbs in Randburg for my constipation and early on in 2012 but Doctor L said in 2012 I can take Epsom salts but my online Doctor says they are not for long term use and I have been using Epsom salts for the last two years at least in conjunction with liquid parrafin. So I will use Lexan herbs now and liquid parrafin, like I said Mama feeds me lots of soup and fruit especially during the winter. Jabu is not too fond of soup, she is used to her food at her mothers place. What the Africans do is month end they purchase 10kg of mielie meel, 10kg of rice, 10kg of flour, 5kg of sugar and meat from Umzinto, I used to do the same except for the flour but Mama will have none of it and it works out much cheaper at Checkers, also used to purchase 5l of oil. Rice does not go off but mielie meel does get worms if it stays too long. Mama however did purchase 5kg of rice and 7kg of brown sugar on her last shopping trip. Once Jabu did mot have ten rand pay the carrier so she had to cart all her shopping to the taxi rank. The hassle is working from home I drink a lot of tea and coffee, the one consultant place i worked for in Sandton once they offered free lunch and had a cold drink machine near the IT office but I was only doing contract work, we retire around 23:00 and.....

13/09/2020 03:00 CAT Sunday exactly I awake. The alarm also wakes Jabu and she goes for a pee. Hopefully the tiler pitches up today to do the tiles in the toilet. I will let you know how it goes. Actually my guts are not right, yesterday I did not have much discomfort in my lower right abdomen but this morning I feel something pushing, maybe I do have a hernia, fuck, all this fucking constipation over the last 15 years from the meds. I am back to smoking my hand rolled fags, I need them to calm down my nerves other wise I would be taking 10mg of Rivitrol a day. 04:54. 07:02 Mr Sazi the tiler arrives and at the same time Mama goes off to church. I sold all my mechanical tools and extension step ladders back in March 2016 but I kept my electrical tools as I was an Electrician for sixteen years. Those where the days when I used to climb a 11 meter extension step ladder and slide down from the top. Worked in 45 C ceiling voids and in front of 50 C boilers till my whole body was wet with sweat. I was quite good with step ladders but when I was an appy I once fell all the way from the top of a street light as the pole was rusted at the bottom. I once read on Google that an Electrician was rated as the 20th most dangerous job in the world. I remember once working on a crane fixing a luminaire on a four foot step ladder three stories up, if I fell of the step ladder I would be a goner. We used to do all sorts of things like put bolts in place of fuses to see which luminaire was shorting in a tunnel of thirty luminaires. Anyway it was fun in my younger years, I can't get it right anymore. Too much anxiety. Then I used fly and drive all over South Africa for four years as an electrical engineering assistant. That was a great job, the second best I ever had and it paid good money in those days doing contract work, that was when Tata was still alive. It took me and hour to replace a pull luminaire switch here in Pennington after many attemps, Kwela Electrical of Pennington really fucked up the electrical installation in this house in February 2012 and I was quoted back in August 2017 7500 rand to fix the fuck up. So the tiler used some of my tools as he only came with a tile cutter and grinder, the only thing he fucked up was scratching the door on the wheelbarrow when he was sawing the bottom of the door. The toilet looks nice now and we will only be able to walk on the tiles at 15:00 on Monday the 14th September 2020.

14/09/2020 *.* CAT Monday I don't remember what time I woke up but we went to sleep early last night. It feels good when I am supervising and planning renovations going on around the house. I have hired Siphokazi as a handy girl as well once a week for now. Oh yes fuck, yesterday we had a flattie chicken braai which turned into a disaster as Jabu was pissed off with Mama, Mama can be difficult to get on with sometimes. I took my TSR for spin yesterday and parked her in front of the bike shed. I later started her and she stalled so I tried to start her again and the ignition was dead again, I just paid Mr Ra 700 bucks a few months ago for a second hand ignition but he said he will give me a warranty. So as the sun rises i need to make Jabu her cup of tea before she goes off to work. 06:00.

11/09/2020 03:30 CAT Friday

All is going well with Mageia Beta 1, I had to do a "dnf update" today as the control center keep giving me a python error. New kernel for Ubuntu 20.04 LTS all went smoothly and PCLinuxOS I am still on my stock kernel as my machine does not like the new kernels. I have given up trying to get the new kernels to work. Windows 10 users keep reporting BSOD so I am wary of updating Windows 10. But at 04:01 I started to update Windows 10 anyway and I finished the September 8th update 2020 at 05:56. All went smoothly just took two hours and I like to watch the update running. On my Celeron every thing happens very slowly in Windows 10. Debian Buster 10 does not have many updates and no new kernel in a long time, I don't know if that is right. Just how stable can it be, I get an update once every three days. 13/09/2020 Dolphin crashed on Debs Buster 10 after I copied large folders.

18/09/2020 19:10 CAT Friday I was dead tried and retired and woke at 04:05 on 19/09/2020, even though the alarm went off at midnight I went back to sleep.

19/09/2020 05:47 CAT Saturday Renovations renovations these last two weeks. Tiled the toilet, painted the ceiling in the lounge and kitchen door. The good news is since I received my 350 Rand SASSA grant of which I received another 350 yesterday I have received a donation of 5000 Rand from Mr R from the USA and a donation of a Lenovo S145 i5 laptop from Mrs M from South Africa. Mr E from Australia loaned me 1000 Rand. It is going well between Jabu and I but Mama is a bit of a miser lately and said I drink too much milk and that I drink too much tea too, but these meds make me hungry. Also a big thank you to my brother who has helped me since March 2006 when Tata passed away and at times my AMPPOL IT Linux CD's & DVD's business was not going to well due to undercutting the prices by 70% as they where a sponsored company for five years then they vanished and my clients complained that their DVD's where faulty, I had a 99.9 % success rate.

19/09/2020 04:05 CAT Saturday I started to work on my S145 and finished at 20:32 with a break for breakfast, lunch and at 21:45 Jabu and I had supper.

20/09/2020 00:04 CAT Sunday Installed a bit of software on Mangero 20.1 on my S145 and retired dead tired at 00:50. Woke at 05:35 I will now upload and see how it goes 05:48. Woke Mama at 06:00 to get ready for church, I watched Catholic online Mass. Sunday is braai day, free fire wood from the many tree's in Mama's garden, I always try light the fire with one match stick and get it right most of the time. I use newspaper. I learned to light a smoke in moya (wind) a long time ago with one match stick. Unlike last Sunday we had a very pleasant flattie chicken braai. I eat a lot as these meds keep me hungry. Mama and Jabu prepared the veggies and I started to braai the chicken and Jabu finished braaing it. Jabu is just good at everything, a perfect wife. She knows just about everyone in Malengeni, Pennington and half of Ethekweni. The day eneded with Jabu going to sleep at 23:35 and Mama was fast asleep already. Mama is getting old she is nearly 80. I did not go to sleep yet....

21/09/2020 00:04 CAT Monday I am fixing the fuck up I made on my Debian partition by using the "dd" command to flash a flash drive, and sorted it out at 00:15 with PCLinuxOS on my 250 G5. I have to think hard to get a command line as I have forgotten most of the as most of the shit is GUI now. I fell asleep around 05:00 and woke at 06:58, Jabu rushed off to work and did not even have breakfast but drank the cup of tea I made her. Mama is now preparing breakfast for me. 08:47. Retired at 20:07.....

22/09/2020 00:00 CAT Tuesday exactly The alarm woke me. I booted into Ubuntu 19.10 Beta to try to get my touchpad to work on my S145, no go. I the tried dkms on Mangero 20.1 KDE Plasma no go, I finally installed the 5.9rc kernel on Mangero 20.1 and my touchpad works. 02:15. Happy as a pig in shit. I then booted into Ubuntu Linux 19.10 Beta with kernel 5.8 and my touchpad works even better than in Mangero. I am running seven operating systems now on my 250 G5 and S145 04:04 will upload now and have a break watching you tube or a movie till 05:00. Siphokazi came to paint the door frames at 07:02 and Jabu rushed off to Umzinto at 07:52 for a school meeting. 17:55 I had to send off some docs to someone so I will call it a day now. 19:52.

23/09/2020 00:55 CAT Wednesday I had my forth possible heart attack this month or angina. My angina or heart attack started at 23:10 yesterday and I phoned Jabu at 23:15. Twice I have woken up and my chest was burning this month. Once Mama upset me and I had a burning in my chest and once after making love with the ED herbs. My Doctor says I should go to G.J. Crooks for an ECG. My Doctor says if it last for longer than twenty minutes which it does I am having a heart attack. So I am on Ubuntu 19.10 Beta now as I don't know pacman and Arch but I will boot into Mangero 20.1 soon. 09:08. 09:15 my above ground pool was delivered and I have to set it up. It actually takes two people to set this pool up and Mama is bitching as usual. Let's hope Siphokazi finds a taxi at this time as I am quite excited. During the summer I skinny dip at 04:00. Siphokazi arrived at 10:15 and we set up the pool. At 13:00 I had my first spring swim when the pool was still filling up, the water was cool but nice. I had two more swims, at 14:00 and at 16:00, the weather forecast for the next two days is good but it will start to rain Saturday which we really need and it will rain for the whole week next week. I am going to upload now as I can peg at any time with my angina. 18:58

24/09/2020 00:45 Thursday Heritage Day CAT The BIOS on the S145 is a bit fucked up. I have to boot into the BIOS each time to change operating systems. I am on Ubuntu Linux 19.10 Beta now with the 5.8 kernel. I seem to be very hungry lately, I had an early supper at 16:30 and then at 22:15 after a swim at 20:30 fried eggs and toast. Jabu will be working from today till Sunday and I will see her at around 07:15 this morning. I was falling asleep when she arrived. It's braai day in South Africa so we had a flattie chicken braai which Mama and I prepared as Jabu was at work. Jabu gave the finishing touches to the chicken and was rather tired from work. I can't stop thinking of my extension step ladders which I sold back in March 2016. I really need them now to paint the front of the house. Not that I would go up myself. Only in Pennington the first time in my life I put my foot through a ceiling board when I was climbing into Mama's roof void. I enjoy planning and supervising the renovation work, Siphokazi is a bit cheeky and does not listen. I am a bit too soft with her. It took me six days to get the S145 right. The only thing that does not graft lekker on the S145 is my MX 1100 mouse on Ubuntu 19.10 Beta but at least the touch pad is fixed now., yet my MX 1100 grafts fine on my 250 G5 I have three fifteen year old MX 1100 mice. The MX 1100's work the best on Mageai, PClinuxOS and Mangero 20.1. Even though my MX 1100 works fine on Ubuntu 20.04 on my 250 G5, Doctor Ndlovo are you going to pay my debt? Mama is paying for all this and I need a new mouse. So far we have tiled the toilet, painted some of the ceilings, painted the door frames and washed the bathroom ceiling, I painted it with Velveglo in 2012 and the ceiling looked like new after a good wash. The kitchen ceiling was filthy dirty from the fat from the stove. I am not using Velveglo but a cheaper alternative. Did I mention we put the above ground pool up on Wednesday and already the monkeys had to jump all over the pool and look what's inside. Keep thinking of this fucking extension step ladder, I need it to paint the front wall of the house. Our buurman has turned out to be a real poes, loaded and does what he want's during lock down level four he had his domestic come to work. At first Johan was quite friendly when he moved in but I think David one of my tenants pissed him off when David would shout shut up to his K9's. Johan is a biker with a Harley and four cars and two young daughters right for the plucking. He does all the renovations around his mansion by himself but we don't get on anymore even though at first he even helped me with my snapped choke cable on my TSR, speaking of which I just spent 1450 Rand making it roadworthy this week. I will take it for another spin on Sunday morning if I am not too tired. I went to sleep at 21:20 last night and woke at .....

25/09/2020 02:27 CAT Friday I updated Mageai 8 Beta, there is a new kernel, and I updated PCLinuxOS on my 250 G5, this keyboard on the S145 is awe sum. I don't give a fuck anymore that I am in debt unless Mama kicks the bucket soon then I will be fucked but I can always live in Malengeni hopefully with Jabu. Once it's November 2020 I am going to reapply for a disabilty grant even though I have been told I can't get one. Strange I had a grant in Randburg but I left it as my AMPPOL IT Linux CD"s & DVD's business wa going well. I am also due for an electrician's pension which I let fall through in Randburg as I did not fill out the paper work. I think I will stick with Ubuntu 19.10 even though I extended my Manjero 20.1 partition on running live system with gparted to 200 Gigs and it worked, Linux has come a long way since 1999. I actually have not booted into Mangero for days now, don't feel like learning the pacman command line, don't have enough time. So what shall we do next next next week, paint the kitchen cubboards Mama says. I didn't get any last night Jabu was too tired from work. All I had was an erection, but no chest pain. I hope when Mageai 8 is finally released it comes out with a decent kernel that support's my S145 WIFI and touchpad. Like I said Mageai 8 Beta does not graft on this machine. Will not boot at all and I don't feel like fucking around with kernel parameters, the Linux OS needs to work stock except for dkms, git and build essentials which I had to figure out. I have never sent a machine back even though in Randburg there where a few of my clienst machines that did not work with Linux. I used to do installations as well, that's when I knew Linux backwords. Now I am way behind. Not only with Linux but these meds make my brain fucked up. I did not take my meds on the night of the 24/09/2020 and morning of 25/09/2020 just to see how I felt, anyway I did not fall asleep during the day all stoned. I took my night meds at 02:30 on the 25/09/2020 with a clearer mind. I will take my morning meds a bit later this morning. So far no angina or heart attack. Like fuck I am going to die in a government hospital. I forgot about self CPR, I don't know why I did not do it. Anyway It's 05:34 and I see the sun will rise soon so time to upload.

26/09/2020 07:11 CAT Saturday Slept like a baby. Johan's biker friends who have come for the weekend are revving their bikes, I love the sound of bikes revving. I am used to it at the bike rallies I used to go to, I have many badges, especially from the Rhino rally, They don't talk to me but I told them to rev their bikes to 11 000 RPM. Clive stole my MCP badge when he was a tenant here for two months, I only have a pic of it. Wow I slept well. From 21:50 last night till 06:15 this morning. what happens at the rally stays at the rally, but we had great fun, getting pissed, strip shows, camping and a bit of fighting. I love camping and wish I had a car so I could take Jabu camping to the Drakensberg during the summer, winter it's freezing cold. I have been camping to the Drakensberg many times as well as time share. Jabu and I went to the Underberg for time share in 2012 in the winter when it was freezing cold. At Umzimkhulu psychc hospital the patients told me they only get two thin blankets during the winter and it gets to -6 C there. Umzimkulu is in the Underberg. Like I said I have had a good life till end 2013. I don't drink since 2003. Only one beer every three months or so, I prefer my blend of Turkish coffee, which a Pole taught me to brew in 1992. A big spoon of filter coffee in a big mug brewed for three minutes ad sugar and milk to taste. Now that there are renovations going on in Mama's house planned and supervised by me I feel much better. Anyway Johan our buurman turned out to be a real poes and Mama is always taking his trash of our pavement and putting it on his pavement every Tuesday as she does not want the monkeys and K9's to rip apart his trash onto her pavement which she rakes. Johan came here with his millions from Randfontein and thinks he can take over. Pity we don't have a good buurmense like Mr R and Miss R who used to stay in Johan's house before, we used to get on so well and they where also Afrikankers. Our house was built first in the 70's and Johan's house was built much later so he can get fucked. It's not my fault our bedroom windows looks over straight at his verandah and braai area. The guy who designed his house should of thought about it first. I asked Johan the other week if he would rather be friends and all he said was "what". So there you have it we have to live with nervous tension with our buurman. It's supposed to piss down with rain today but there are hardly any clouds and the sun is shinning, maybe I will go for a swim later. My IBS has come right almost and I am having craps more frequently, in fact I had one just now after breakfast at 07:35. Amazing how this constipation works. I am quite pissed off with the ankel cramps and am only taking 1.5 mg of Risperdal at night instead of 2mg bd of which GJC pharmacy did not have stock anyway. We will see how it goes. I used to take 3mg of Risperdal at night. My friend who is a pharmacist from Kentucky USA said I should reduce my meds little by little. I have plenty of Risperdal in stock. 66% of men who take Risperdal get ED. Jabu is quite fed up with my ED. These Rizla machince rolled fags I have been smoking since 2003 are way to strong and as from yesterday I am going to smoke factory fags. Ten years ago there where pills on the market one could take to stop smoking but bipolar folks could not take them as they would go manic. I need to enquire with my Doctor if there is anything on the market now which bipolar folks can take but they are S5 and cost 2000 Rand for a three month course. 08:52 I am not used to writing my book during the day, Mama is still fast asleep which is good, she watches the news channels till 02:00/03:00. I am waiting for the much needed rain. My pool is already full of leaves. Lucky I have some HTH from last summer, my pool takes 2300 litres, it's the best pool I ever had if the monkeys don't fuck it up. Next week I am planning on painting the kitchen cub boards if it does not rain too heavy as Siphokazi cannot cross the river to come to work. Like I said we are all praying for rain. Anyway God bless, I will upload now 09:45 Oh yes addendum All is going well with Ubuntu Linux 19.10 Beta touch wood, I had a few updates this morning, It's the first thing I check, Mangero 20.1 is on standby if Ubuntu fucks out. I can't wait till 22nd October when Ubuntu Linux 20.10 is final. I am really enjoying Ubuntu after being an RPM guy for so long, but I have no choice as only Ubuntu and Mangero work on my S145. Lets hope the final release of Mageia 8 has the right kernel and I will be able to install dkms git and build essentials. I read a clip that Lenovo is bring out a whole lot of machines with Ubuntu 20.04 installed but not my S145 for sure. I need to boot into Windows 10 soon and see if there is a BIOS update but the BIOS updates on my 250 G5 used to fuck up my boot sequence and only Ubuntu saved the day. 09:54 It's 13:22 now and it's getting cold, maybe the rain will come soon, Mama has gone to the shops and I am cooking the rice. 22:05 slight angina, took disprin and it went away. Will go for ECG this week.

27/09/2020 03:38 CAT Sunday Have decided to resign as CFO, care giver, security and projrect manager. Let Mama take over she is so so clever. I have power of attorney. Shame she has done so much for me but she can moan, i have to be very patient with her but it's difficult. Anyway I have to stick with her she is old and ill and I love her, she loves me too. I updated Debian Buster 10.5 to 10.6, Mageia Beta 8 and PCLinuxOS on the HP Celeron 250 G5. There where a few updates on the Lenovo S145 which did not need rebooting even though I like to reboot even after Linux updates. I am still waiting for the rain, maybe today. The garden is so dry and on the South Coast normally all the flora is so green. When Jabu and I went to the funeral I could not believe how dry it was. It's cloudy and cold outside 16 C, so I will dress warmly from 08:00 when the cold hits me. I take my meds at 08:00 and anything between 20:00 and midnite depends if I want the cramps to hit me from the Risperdal. I shall see how it goes on 1.5mg nochte. Tired of these fucking cramps since 2003 when I checked out of Tara (THMC). No Doctor ever told me that Risperdal causes cramps, I found out in Pennington first from an African Doctor at Pennington clinic when he reduced my dosage after I complained of cramps in my ankels, they don't tell you straight, hey man these meds will cause you never to fuck again just take them. Fucking bullshit, destroyed my sex life and now it's worse since October 2017. And you want me to do what, go to GJC and have a ECG so they can give me a disprin and send me home like they almost did to Miss M. 05:55 time to upload. I have to wake up Mama for church and make Jabu a cup of tea. I had the house to myself for two hours and am on Manjero 20.1 now but can't get the spell check to work. Works fine in Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta but not PCLinuxOS. The day goes by quickly and Jabu returns home early from work. We have a sort of phutu and wors with gravy and pela pela for supper. I say sort of phutu as the mielie meel during lock down will not turn into phutu Jabu says and she is a fucking good chef. Unlike my dear Carina whom only made me French toast. To think about it did I mention I have had two houses in my lifetime and a flat. My last house was on a 1600 square m propery and we had three cars but since 2003 I have stayed with my folks in a 320 sqaure m double story house Tata took 19 years to build on weekends. He managed to finish the en suite bathroom and soon passed away after that. He could do any job as he was taught first in technical school in Poland before he became an Electrical engineer at varsity. I was good at electrical work, plumbing and woodwork. I plumbed the first house servants quarters when I was younger. And I once worked at an electrical and plumbing company where I did a bit of plumbing, now I can't get it right to change a tap washer, the have made the holes smaller and it takes Zack and I to do it with pliers. 23:59

28/09/2020 00:30 CAT Monday At last it started to rain yesterday afternoon and is still raining. How nice to freshen up the land and fill the water tanks. No swimming for me this week just as I put up the pool. It's supposed to rain all day today and I pray it does. I am cheating a bit as I listen to online Mass whilst I type. I took my meds just now, as long as I take them I should be ok. Unless of course the electronic pulse frequncies start hitting me, I have not been in hospital since January 2016. Let's make it another 12 year record. I have not been smoking plain hand rolled fags for two days now. But my chest is tight right now. Been smoking since I was eighteen. Lets hope I live till eighty something like some of my smoker friends of my folks did. So as I sit here on my CEO's office chair which must be eighteen years old and the leather is coming off, I wonder where I will be in five years time, worse off or better off. Lets hope better. I feel less anxious these days and Jabu gives me strenght and support. 01:08 tierd, time to sleep. 05:51 Pity it's still not raining as I wake up. A new cloudy day. I am now having hassles with updating Manjero 20.1, don't have time for this shit, the database is corrupt. I knew there was somthing wrong when I booted into Mangero 20.1 and there where no updates, Windows 10 on my S145 is not much better it will not install a Lenovo update even though I flashed the BIOS just fine last night. My MX 1100 does not work too well on Windows 10 either, the MX 1100 must be more than ten years old. Like I said I have three MX 1100's, one is dead, one is half fucked and the MX 1100 on my 250 G5 grafts just fine so far. I think I will stick with Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta for now. At least the spell check works, Arch is not so great if the update database gets corrupt after a week or so and I only used Mangero 20.1 for a few days, I spent an hour trying to fix the PGP signature issue and got pissed off and booted into Windows 10 at 16:30. Never had this shit with Mageai either than when I was being hacked like with Mangero 20.1 now. 07:10 Windows 10, installed all the web browsers just about avaiable. Anyway having fun with Windows 10 now.20:20. 21:59 All seems to be working well with Windows 10 on my S145, on the 250 G5 Celeron Windows 10 was fucking slow. Now everything flies except for the updates which Linux is much better at speed wise. Fucking irratating these pop ups that I have tweleve days left to purchase an anti virus, now I forgot what I was going to type.

29/09/2020 06:51 CAT Tuesday Don't remember what time we retired last night but it was a wonderfull evening. As project manager I am still planning what renovations to do next. Mama and I disagree on the electrics. After the wireman was here in August 2017 he found twenty six points of non compliance which Kwelea Electrical let slide in Febuary 2012. Now I have to repair them. The quote in August 2017 was 8500 Rand including the COC. But I want to do something differnet, I want to replace all the pull switches for the luminaires as they keep fucking out. One fucked out last night in Mama's bedroom. Mama purchased the place of photo and in the pics there where normally toggle light switches. So Sally sent us old pics of the place which the Terblanches could not sell for three years. The only caveat about this place is that it is frightfully cold in winter. 08:25 The sun is shining, no clouds and we did not have much rain. I have been using Windows 10 since November 2017 when Mama purchased the 250 G5 Celeron for me, what a pleasure using Windows 10 on an i5 with 8 gigs of RAM. I have not had the oppurtunity to use Virutal box yet. The only hassle is on my S145 the boot process is very slow but once the OS is up and running it flies. I have four browsers open now as well as explorer and the Lenovo Control Center. I think I will stick with Windows 10 for a few days or untill it needs a reboot. Lenovo is supposed to be a hell of a good machine company but the S145 does not work well on Linux like I said, did I mention I installed PClinuxOS yesterday and still cannot get the WIFI to work. I use USB tethering to update and connect on PCLinuxOS. I am not going to use Virtualbox on Windows 10 as it has failed 80% of the time in the past on my 250 G5 Celeron. Talking about my Celeron I think I am in Mageia Beta 8 now and will see what updates there are. Just eight updates, I updated most of them last night. It's Jabu's day off so she is fast asleep whilst Siphokazi is preparing the kitchen cubboards to be painted with clear varnish. I have yet to update Windows 10 on my 250 G5 but I think I will leave it as it requires 2.6 Gigs of data. Mama just woke up 08:56. It's bad when there are two project managers in the house. Well these last few days I have been working a bit in the mornings, oops it's 09:17 time to take my meds. How time flies, it's 09:59 already and I have yet to have breakfast, I am not feeling hungry as Mama baked some bread yesterday and we had an enormous spinach roll. I have had a crap the third time in a row this morning, this constipation baffels me. Once I have to take liquid parrafin and epsom salts or Lexan herbs every fourth day and sometimes I don't, I have been advised by one of my online Doctors not to use epsom salts. I still need to sort out my ECG. I received a $60 donation towards my ECG. My Paypal button works. Last night I took the ED herbs and I did not have a burning in my chest. Mrs M says it's gas but I think I will believe what one of my online Doctors says that it's Angina. Like I said I have stopped smoking plain hand rolled fags and my mouth feels much cleaner. Now to get some funds to purchase a three month course of stop smoking meds which cost 2000 Rand and I have yet to find out if bipolar folks can take them. Ten years ago they could not as they would go manic. 10:13 Let me have a break. Had pichards and rice for supper and a lot of kissing and hugging after supper. Jabu fell asleep whilst Mama was busy in the kitchen. I was watching "Adults only" a lot of twirking buttocks when the power went of. Really pissed me of, in Rnadburg we did not have power failures every five minutes except for load shedding. I must have fallen asleep around 23:50 on the couch.

30/09/2020 04:32 CAT Wednesday My A20 02:00 alarm did not wake me. Only the Cubot Manito wakes me. Am listening to Mass. Siphokazi sanded the kitchen cubboards yesterday and started to paint, she is coming back to finish today. Mama is having guests for lunch so it will be a bit tricky. Praise be to Jesus Christ another month is almost over in this covid-19 world. We are at lockdown level one, hardly anyone wears their masks anyway. 05:50 Looks like it's going to be a cloudy day and I did the laundry last night. Forecast is moya. A lot of moya. The laundry should dry, that's my job, the laundry and dishwasher. Last night I had elbow pain and this morning I have as well. It's not from sleeping on the couch as I sleep on my left side and my right elbow is more painful. I drink 1.5 litres of fluid a day as recommended by the Minster of Health. I am enjoying Windows 10 on my S145 yet I see the fan goes off often even when idle. HWMonitor goes mad. I will reboot after a few days into Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta and should have a nice lot of updates. I will never have a Joomla website again, It's beyond the scope of my knowledge to restore when hacked especially when I am psychotic. A HTML website like this I can restore in a few hours from my backups on my flash drives. I am used to my 250 G5 Celeron which does not have a fan. I suppose you wondering how it is possible that I receive a 350 Rand unemployment grant when I have all this hardware. Well the wild black cat has brung me good luck, she comes every day to the door and walks through the house sometimes. I feed the black cat every day. When I was penny less, Mr R gave a large donation and that started the ball rolling. Since then funds have just rolled in. It feels better not having to live day by day. So Mama and I can now afford to do renovations a bit to make the house a bit nicer to live in. We can't agree on the electrics though. Mama has something in her head about the roof when the electrics are more important, like I said thanks to Kwela Electrical of Pennington there are 26 points of non compliance to make good. Jabu went off to work at 07:20 without saying goodbye, Siphokazi arrived at 07:02. I have yet to find out what Jabu's pluck was this morning. Time to prepare my meds for 08:00. Jabu said that I told her not too talk loud to Siphokazi as I did not want them to wake Mama so Jabu got pissed off. Well what a small world we live in, memories memories, on the 28/09/202 Mama purchased from Mrs B of Secondchances in Pennington some picture frames, a dinning room chair (which I do not want and there is no space for) and a top for Xmas for Jabu. The top is suitable for a ninety year old. I Whatsapp Mrs B if she could deliver this morning and no reply. This is the same Mrs B that in March 2016 when my brother and Mama put the house on sale, I called to have a look which furniture she could buy from me. She sent George instead, another one of those with "i am so blessed" all over his truck so is Mr B's profile pic on WhatsApp to purchase my tools. George had a look at my tools and said he will come back to me with a price. He came back and said he could take all the tools and see what he can get for them. I thought fuck the house will sell quickly so I let George take my tools. The fucker came back with 1600 Rand for 20 000 Rand, more like 30 000 Rand worth of tools. I paid 60 Rand for a Stanley knife the other day. I must say George came back for some 80-200mm crimpers and gave me 200 Rand, they where new. I still have my megger and 240/380 volt tester. I was just discharged from hospital in January 2016 and was quite vunlerable. Mr C paid me a good price for my grinder and electrical spares which I need now to finish the electrics. I kept one 6 foot step ladder and my electrical tools. What the fuck, I think I will slowly fix the 26 points myself. Just need to purchase a strong rechargeable LED light as the DB is in a dark cubboard. Small world, I wonder what is Mrs B's pluck now, she has Mama's 680 Rand but does not deliver the goods. Siphokazi finished painting the kitchen cubboards and touched up where she had made a fuck up. At 12:08 Mama's quests arrived and they had lunch and are chatting, I am yet to eat today. Jabu said she will cook me chicken feet and dumplings. It turns out Mama had cooked for us. 14:50 The guests departed at 15:27 and in the meantime the monkeys climbed into Mama's bedroom up a gutter 2000 mm up. Looking for something to eat. I chased them away and they concentrated on getting into the open window of a car. At 15:47 Mrs B delivered the chair, top and frames after I complained to Mrs P her good friend. If only Mrs B had answered my Whatsapp early this morning which she read there would not be all this shit. Jabu has gone to sleep (21:40), I am the kiss and hug type of guy. Windows 10 is more responsive than Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta, I seemed to have a lag as I type in 19.10 Beta. What happened to my magazines during this covid-19, no more of my fav mag. I am blessed (now here I go) with this new machine. I hope it last me at least ten years like my previous laptops or more. As long as Gnome and KDE Plasma do not become too bloated. I would like to upgrade to 16 Gigs of RAM by a specialist so I don't loose the warranty. My swap is 16 on Ubuntu, Mangero and PCLinuxOS, I don't know how the PGP update signature in Mangero 20.1 could fuck out in less than ten days and four days of use, bullshit OS. I spent 90 minutes trying to fix it and that's enough, goodbye Mangero 20.1. Arch sucks. Fucking piece of shit worked so well in the begining. True as fuck if Mageia 8 final does not work on this machine I will crack. I always have Windows 10 if Microsoft does not make a fuck up with there updates, they should not, I paid a lot of bucks for Windows 10 unlike the rest, only data costs to download Linux OS and time. Well folks my clock has changed these last few days it's 22:00 exactly now and I am sitting on Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta. Let me open the window it"s getting a bit stuffy in here. Telkom fucked up everything when they pulled out of Pennington with no prior notice so we don't have ADSL but they are laying a fibre cable, hope it gets to us. I pay a fortune in data costs. 23:20 I am sitting and watching "adult only XXX" a lot of twirking and boobs music videos when I think let me try Mangero 20.10 one last time and choose only one mirror.

01/10/2020 00:00 CAT Thursday I boot into Mangero 20.10 no luck with my plan. Pity the WIFI and touchpad works. Useless to have a system that does not update. So I boot into Windows 10 and download the newly released Fedora KDE Plasma 33 Beta, released at 17:00 CAT on the 29/09/2020. WIFI works not the touchpad on my S145, have 478 updates, no updates at 06:12. I retired at 02:32. So it's up to Windows 10 and Ubuntu Linux 20.10 Beta to keep me going. I will try fix the touchpad problem in Fedora later when I have time. For now being the 1st I am going to have the morning off and spend the day with Jabu, she also has the day off. BTW the MX 1100 works wonders on Fedora 33 Beta so does the boot loader. During the Live process I almost had to hit the left button with a four pound hammer for the mouse to click, same on Windows 10, this mouse is fucked. Can't look a gift horse in the mouth, re Lenovo Idealpad S145 i5 8 Gig RAM, not so ideal for Linux OSes but it keeps me busy. I am just loving Window 10, what a pleasure after my HP 250 G5 Celelron. Problem is the more one uses Windows 10 the more it fucks out, I uninstalled the anti virus last night, it kept fucking me around. I will trust Defender. these anti virus are very intrusive. So what does the project manager have planned for next week. The electrics if I can get hold of a rechargeable LED light, spares are no problem to purchase. Will have to consult with Mama. I am an unhappy chappy when I don't have Mageia installed on my machine. 08:00 time to take my meds and upload.

19/09/2020 06:12 CAT Saturday

Not to look a gift horse in the mouth, I received the Lenovo S145 i5 on the 16/09/2020 a Wednesday, thank you very much Mrs M. With 8 gigs of RAM it is a mid range laptop but miles faster than my Celeron. What a mission it was to install Linux on it. I first tried Ubuntu 20.04.1 LTS but the WIFI and touchpad would not work. I then tried Mageia 7 and updated Mageia 7 to Mageia Beta 8 but still no go. Debian Buster 10, X would not start. PClinuxOS Full Monty would not graft with the WIFI even though on all off the for three days I tried to install, git dkms and build essentials, PCLinuxOS came close, I was about to return the laptop when I tried one last thing, Ubuntu 20.10 Beta on the 18/09/2020, and the WIFI works except for the touchpad. I will not tell Mrs M about it as she will be heart broken that she bought me such an expensive gift. I will eventually sort out the touchpad. Ubuntu 20.10 Beta only grafts with legacay set in the BIOS. I am now typing this on my new S145. Ubuntu has always had a hassle with pasting with my MX 1100 middle button. i am waiting for Mageia 8 final to be released and will give Mageia another go. As you know I don't use Windows 10 much so I need a laptop where Linux grafts. I used a lot of data trying to get Linux to work on the S145. But now I have the WIFI working I am happy and I don't use the touchpad much anyway. 04:05 19/09/2020 I updated Ubuntu 20.10 Beta on my S145 and then downloaded MX Linux, I flashed it and still the WIFI would not work. So I thought I would try Mangero 20.1 KDE Plasma as it was released a few days ago and is based on Arch which I have not tried before. First I tried Ubuntu's 20.10 Beta start up disk creator but it would not work so I tried isodumper on my Mageia 8 Beta on my HP Celeron but that failed as well. When I tried "dd" on my HP Celeron on Debian Buster 10 it somegow filled up my / so I have to fix that. Eventually PCLinuxOS came to the rescue and I managed to flash Mangero on my HP Celeron. So I installed Mangero 20.1 on my S145 and true as fuck the WIFI works but not the touchpad. 23:52 I am waiting for midnight to proceed further. At midnight I will test Mangero 20.1 further on my S145. 00:04 20/09/2020. All is going well with Mangero 20.1, my MX 1100 mouse works nicely on Mangero 20.1, so now I have tried Arch. 21/09/2020 01:01 Whilst I was about it I updated PCLinuxOS and at last the new kernel works after 5 or 6 duds after the stock kernel. Thanks Texstar. I booted in Debian Buster 10.5 and it worked fine with enough free space. I am now going to update Mageia Beta 1 on my 250 G5 whilst I type on my S145, the next thing is to set up NFS but it is a long time since I did that blindfolded. 21/09/2020 02:00 I booted into Windows 10 on my S145 with a bit of a hit and miss trying to get used to the S145 BIOS, I think I have it figured out now. It took three hours to download and install the Windows 10 2004 feature update and another two hours of rebooting and installing by that time I had fallen asleep at 05:00 or so, when I woke at 06:58 Windows 10 just finished the feature update and all seemed fine, strange PCLinuxOS and Mangero are also rolling releases and PCLinuxOS takes twenty five minutes to install a kernel and 284 packages on my 250 G5, well done Microsoft. 22/09/2020 02:15 installed kernel 5.9rc as well as dkms in grub on Mangero 20.1 and touchpad works. I am begining to like Mangero 20.1 KDE Plasma. 03:40 22/09/2020 I booted into Ubuntu Linux with kernel 5.8 and my touchpad works on my S145. 22/09/2020 19:45 Ubuntu 19.10 Beta is working well, I have noticed in the past that most Ubuntu Beta releases work well. Ubuntu Linux 19.10 will only be released on the 22nd October 2020. Just my MX 1100 mouse is not too koscher on Ubuntu.


Mhlengi my stepson at Pennington beach


In memory of Tata 1931 to 2006

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Hardware used to type this book: This book was first typed on a Centrino Duo then a Celeron N3060 and now a Lenovo S145 i5 with a Cubot Manito and Samsung A20.

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